My husband, I Love You
Message Midnight

I lay my body on the bed, I looked at my son's face maybe he was in the beautiful dreamland, so that the smile was seen at the end of his lips made me smile.

Drrt...

I saw my phone vibrate again, because the ringtone I had changed to silent mode. Mas number Dian called to want me to refuse, but when I remembered the incident this afternoon after driving me with Shasy home my guilt appeared and this made me want to not want me to lift it.

"Hallo and Dian Assalamualaikum..."

"Waalaikum...... Sorry Lintang deck, mas interrupted your rest time. Thank you all for your time and togetherness this afternoon,"

"Eh... Ma..mas Dian, it should be me who apologized earlier that I just stayed, me...."

"Ke know the deck, it doesn't matter that there will still be time even more time ahead for the two of us again!"

Huh .... Both? This is what I was afraid of happening as well, a heart that never once expected to bloom in the heart of Doctor Dian.

"Dec.... Latitude Deck,"

"Oh yes mas, sorry sa.i anu,!

"Well, maybe the latitude deck is tired, rest and take care of the health greetings to Shasy, Assalamualaikum...."

" Waalaikumsalam," feels stiff my conversation with mas Dian, shy, shy, afraid to blend into one, there is a sense of like but I don't know... I'm confused!

I looked at the profile photo on WhatsApp mas Dian, a handsome, well-established and patient figure that I had known all this time even long before the tempest in my household, the one who first held my daughter and helped me a lot during labor.

Now that he has expressed his feelings for me, what should I do? My anxiety again put me on the edge of doubt, my status as a one-child widow made me feel like I was not the best one for her.

Not even after my inner dialogue with the sense that dian mas said with honesty, my phone vibrates again signifies the entry of a call again, but this time not from Dian mas. I opened my eyes wide and could hardly believe it.

Again the Iwan mas number on the small screen of the flat object, between curious and wanting to reject the call made my hand vibrate holding my phone.

I looked at the face of my daughter who fell asleep, remembering how much my daughter suffered while still together with Iwan mas even during the separation, my daughter's cry was also the daughter of her flesh and blood Iwan himself did not heed.

Between pain and disappointment, but I am also grateful that such an event was able to make myself rise up and make a whip to find the beginning of the business that is now being pioneered.

Drrt... This time WhatsApp!

I slowly opened it, I repeated it and I repeated the message. Between believing and not making me sit in the bed while reworking the contents of the message from mas Iwan.

"Stars, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry for what my family did, even I did myself unfairly to you, if time could come back! I want you to be on my side, and we'll raise our son Shasy together. I miss you Lintang."

"Mas Iwan, sorry! Between us it's over, I'd better not contact me again, pity mbak Rahma never fate that we feel she will also feel it,"

"Sorry mas, we're already quite happy with our current state, please don't drown out the happiness we let us enjoy. Not necessarily Shasy also kangen same mas, did not mas already reject it?" The words that came out of the mouth of Iwan and I clearly heard made me want to immediately hang up this phone call.

"But Latitude, after all Shasy is my daughter! I'm not sincerely living with your lover, not necessarily the damn doctor can give you happiness!"

My ears felt sore after hearing the voice of mas Iwan about the longing for ngin it felt like I laughed as hard as possible, to be satisfied this heart.

"Sorry, it's night you better not call again, and one more! Just save the taste of kangen mas for Shasy. He is happier living and developing reasonably without the expected presence of a papa, and yet another mas! You guys threw us away like your stuff didn't expect us anymore, so please! Don't bother me and Shasy."

I turn off my phone and then I press the off button so that Iwan doesn't call me anymore.

My body felt shivering, my hands tightly gripped the pillow in my lap, so easy to say and even manage my life.

As a woman who had been oppressed and always in a state of lack of nelangsa it made me spill my anger with my tears. My sincere love for him, my loyalty which is only for him, but all in vain accusations for the sake of accusations of infidelity without proof, I have always accepted even now when I and Iwan are officially divorced.

The drama moreover that I will receive from the family mas Iwan, who still hate me, my mother-in-law even still easily berated me even though it was only through a message but it was very painful.

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Sunday morning is certainly a day that is not much different from ordinary days, only a few modest employees who go in overtime, then the activities of the mother who accompanied Mak Siti cooking and preparing the canteen, and the, although Sunday, the mother canteen does not have a holiday unless it is a certain time and it is desired. While Dad as usual, because Sunday of course Shasy does not go to school so the father's activity is to feed the fish in the pond behind the house.

Me?... Of course I continue my activities that are struggling with laptops and some report books and sample papers that Anik always gives me.

"This mama chicken porridge for mama, hi hi hi hi earlier Shasy cook, uhhh hot ma hoott...." It was my daughter who always gave me a laugh because seeing her style and manner of speaking exactly mimicked adults.

"Bu Lintang wants to drink coffee what is hot chocolate, the price is cheap no bonus, but Shasy hair tie used to be he he he," I put all my work, I approach my daughter.

"Aahhh..mama pardon ha. ha. ha. gelii ma.... ticklish...!" The loud screams of my daughter's voice Our laughter broke out filled the room.

This is my happiness that I feel, every happy scream of my daughter is one whip to keep on being excited.

Last night's cell phone incident with two different men with their respective tendencies seemed nothing compared to my happiness this morning.

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tuhkan 🤧 Iwan want what, wait for the time of the cave tejek-bejek loe ye😂😂

keep the spirit of 💪 healthy always, yuk support let the more agile thumbs this😂😂

To be continued 😉

Greetings Dear Always 🤗 By RR 😘