
I lay in my room, covering my whole body with a blanket. It feels so lazy to meet anyone.
My mind is really fucked right now. It could be that Mas Adrian was holding me back for warning my own sister.
"Change number." Ah, it's so easy that he gave me an excuse to find his whereabouts.
Didn't you cross the regret in his heart for not having seen mom?
There's a lot I want to ask Alina, but I don't think I've taught her yet. He should be warned to be self-conscious for a moment.
The door sounds open. I clucked in annoyance, noticing the unlocked room.
Because I rushed in, so I forgot to lock the door.
Slowly, there was the sound of steps approaching, then sitting on the edge of the bed.
I closed my eyes, pretending to be asleep. Although I'm sure, he won't know if I'm sleeping or not because my head is immersed in a blanket.
I felt gentle massages in the legs and then up to the back, then down again to the feet. Repeatedly.
"You must be tired, right?" ask her slowly with a hand that keeps moving in my body. "You shouldn't have hit Alina when she just got there."
What does it mean that man said that? Is he trying to defend Alina?
Without being prevented, there is a heat in this chest draining hot lava bubbling in the head.
I closed the meeting. Resisting emotions that have reached their peak. I realized, lately can not control emotions well.
"We can talk about it well. Besides, your condition is unstable."
Ah, reason. I was just an excuse for you to defend Alina. Aye, right?
My eyes warmed up to hear the man's words. There is no denying that there is pain in the corner of my heart. What's wrong with me? Why is it so sad? Would everyone care about Alina without caring about my feelings?
I stroked the stomach. For some reason, this time being a woman who would not be of value in the eyes of others. Even for my own husband. All Alina was only Alina who was the center of their attention.
"Isn't it good news, if Alina's home safe?"
Thats enough. I can't take it anymore. I wiped away the melted tears, then pulled away the rough blanket.
Adrian stood with a surprised face. Probably not expecting the response I gave.
"Anna, I ...."
I raised my hand, as a signal the man stopped.
"Enough. I'm tired of you guys. I don't know what my fault is? If Mas Adrian doesn't agree with what I'm doing." I stopped my words and got out of bed. Closer to him, we stood face to face. I brought my face closer and raised Mas Adrian's hand. "Slap me, Mas. Do what I did to Alina" I said firmly.
Momentary, silence. We are both silent.
"Do. If it can make you satisfied," I continued with trembling lips.
"Anna ... What are you doing?" Adrian pulled his hand out of my hand. Then I looked at me.
"He is worthy of defense, of love. I know it. And I know where I am now." I returned Mas Adrian's gaze with teary eyes.
"It's not. You misunderstood my words," he said slowly. Mas Adrian's gaze changed softly. The man stepped forward, his hand trying to grab me.
I dodged, I brusquely brushed off his two hands that touched my shoulder.
"Already, enough ... Mas." I turned out of the room. Not heeding his call to me.
In the living room, Alina looks cool chatting with Bang David. Ah, great. Maybe they'll get married soon. I was waiting for that moment.
Bang David noticed my whereabouts, he turned his head. For a moment we looked at.
I decided on the view first. Then step past them.
"Where are you going, Ann? Let me take you." Bang David is standing. I'm not indifferent to his words.
"Stop your behavior, David. Anna my wife." The voice of Adrian sounded cold and cold.
I don't care what's going on inside. They all really make me sick.
"Anna! Wait!" Mas Adrian's call did not stop my steps. I kept walking away from home. Honestly, I don't know where to go.
"Anna, where are you going? Don't do this, Ann." Adrian managed to block my arm.
My steps stopped for a moment, but I kept trying to walk. My mouth was tightly clenched, with my body twitching in an attempt to release Mas Adrian's hand on the arm.
I looked up, looking at Mas Adrian with tears. Still unable to believe the feeling, my husband defended Alina who was clearly wrong in my eyes.
He should have let me treat Alina. At least until I calm down. Not even trying hard to hold me back. The most painful thing was that the man defended Alina and seemed to corner me.
"OK .. okay. " Mas Adrian raised both his hands on the sign of surrender.
"Where are you going?" Adrian accompanied my steps.
"It's none of your business" my hiss was sharp.
"I'm your husband, if you forget," said the man coldly.
"Whatever," ketusku.
I let Mas Adrian follow my lead. Of course he'll refuse if I prevent it. Then let it be.
We walked around without a conversation, just like two people who didn't know each other. We should have walked hand in hand, strengthening each other. Ah, miris.
My steps turned into a public funeral. Yeah, I want to go to mom's grave.
This miss is only healed here. I could no longer hear the voice asking for news, giving advice.
Ah, if I had called her that often. Or even every day to hear his voice. Maybe my regret won't be this deep.
In life, eyebrows often ignore asking the news of the mother. Maybe he was waiting for a call from me.
My tears flowed without me holding back. For a moment I was stunned to express my longing and regret. I feel a soft rub on my back.
"I'm sorry Anna, Mom. Not being a good child for my mother. Forgive Anna," I said sobbing.
"Mother take it easy, Alina is fine. Many loved that child. Even my husband defended her. So don't worry." I wiped the tears on my cheeks.
My body moved to reject the rubbing on the back given by Mas Adrian. "Let go, Mas," my cynic.
"I'm sorry if my attitude hurt you. I didn't mean it, Ann," whispered the man right in my ear.
Then, Mas Adrian put his head on my shoulder. A moment later, the man stroked my head.
I flinch at her tender treatment. Without being prevented, the tenderness of Mas Adrian warms my heart.
Ah, let's say I'm very plan and easy to seduce. In fact, being so close just makes me calm.
Then, Adrian raised his head. His hand was engraved stroking the mother's tombstone. "Mother, thank you for giving birth to a woman as great as Anna. Adrian is very happy and proud to have a wife like him," he said.
"I'll take care of him as much as I can. Don't worry about Anna, yeah. Even though he was a little wayward, it's okay. His emotions are indeed unstable, congenital hormones said the doctor. I promise I'll make it happy, Mom."
"Maas ...."
"Mommy heard, right, she's been sulking lately. But I like it. That's the sign, he trusts me. Pray for a healthy child, Mom. Anna can also go through a healthy pregnancy, until the birth. Thanks, Mom ... May you calm down there."
"Aamiin," Iid.
Adrian cupped both of my cheeks. Then landed a kiss on the forehead, long ago. My tears were dripping again, I was moved to hear what she said to my mother. May it be sincere from your heart, my dear.
"Don't be stubborn anymore, yeah. And don't worry me. Pregnant women can't be baperan, and laugh just like debaynya, you know."
"Ish, do you know where the term baperan comes from?"
"From your status. Bring feelings." Adrian peeped at my forehead once more.
In this way, I'm falling again. Duh, Anna.
We walked home hand in hand. Our eyes glanced at each other, then threw away each other with a smile. This happened many times.
Ah, this is how it feels to make up after a fight. I think there's sweetness.
"Aw!"
"Why you?" ask Adrian with an anxious face.
"My stomach is cramping, Mom."
Adrian quickly raised my body with both arms. I spontaneously placed both hands around the man's neck. Putting his head in the recess of his neck. Smelling her soothing scent was like aromatherapy to my mood.
Ignoring the astonished look from the pairs of eyes that passed on the road, Mas Adrian carried me to the house.
"Sister why, Mom?" ask Alina.
I closed my eyes, refusing to open it.
"Regular, spoiled pregnant," kekeh Mas Adrian.
"Mas, uh ...." I hit Mas Adrian's chest.
Adrian laughed happily. The man circled around ignoring my screams asking to come down, before lowering me on the bed.
"Gift to my greatest woman." Adrian blinked his eyes, then kissed his forehead. Then down to both eyes, then both cheeks, up to the nose.