my love is a lie
Chapter 5_ out of the house

after conveying his heart, Tiara asked Bu.selly for permission to perform the Dhuha prayer and again Tiara cried while expressing her sadness to the creator

"o Allah the servant returns to you, the servant wishes to complain to You, O Lord.

You allow divorce but I know You are angry at divorce, forgive the decision of the servant always accompanied by the servant Rabb never go away from me.

your love is more beautiful than the love of a creature, I surrender to You"

after finishing the prayer Tiara came out of the room looking for bu.selly to ask permission to return to the orphanage to start a new life,

"Ma Tiara wants to ask permission to return to the orphanage huh,"

"You want to leave your dear mother when you know your mother loves you so much, why would you want to go live with her"

"It's not so ma, Tiara just wants to calm this mind and heart ma, after that Tiara will return to take care of our divorce"

"why not just stay here baby, stay with mama"

"sorry ma, I will always remember mas.Raka if it remains in this city"

"How about we go to the boarding school, it happens that Mama often went there first with the deceased papa"

"by ma,"

"then mama get ready first, you wait here "

"What about my clothes ma"

"later we'll take them all to the pesantren"

"Good ma"

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Inside the room that held many memories for Tiara, she was tidying up the clothes into the suitcase while occasionally looking in each direction her gaze stopped on the frame of her wedding photo, her tears recalled being with her husband.

"sadly you must be strong, remember there is a mother and God who are always by your side"

"iya ma" Tiara replied with a sad look

"sorry mom, son, because the mandate of your dad must be hurt.mama promised will always be there for you and mama will give a lesson to Raka "in mama

they get out of the house to travel.not forgetting Tiara sends a message to Raka, she says goodbye to the latter

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arriving at the pesantren Bu.selly directly met the board of pesantren.beliau conveyed the purpose of his arrival

they were warmly welcomed by the leader of the cottage.

Atar by a santri headed to the room room to rest.

A place that makes the heart become calm because there are always people who chant verses of the Quran, the simplicity of the cottage makes Tiara comfortable, and there are always people who chant, the air is still fresh and cool because it is far from the city adds its own comfort

"o Allah the servant feels much calmer and may the servant be much nearer to you.amin"

at night, all residents flocked to the mosque to perform the congregational magrib prayer not to forget after it was continued with al-Qur'an tadarus by the santri.

Tiara also did not waste the opportunity for the Qur'an tadarus

yes read the letter At_Taubah solemnly although occasionally still flowing tears but he tried to be resolute and steadfast to face it, he said,

memories with Raka are still ringing in his mind. gentle man in his treatment, the outpouring of affection and love given makes Tiara fall in love with him but what would be said everything is just fake

"wrong servant O Allah, because the servant loves thy creature more than my love of Thy, now there is only disappointment that the servant can, the servant is also too dependent on the creature to forget Thy. today in Your house the servant returns, pleading for forgiveness for my negligence, and in Your house the servant begs for me all Your good"

finished praying Tiara on a plane to the prophet Muhammad.SAW

Tiara spent time inside the mosque while waiting for Isya prayer time for congregational prayers