My Pretty Boss
Why It's Hard to Be Honest

"Aksa already knew that his father accused his late mother and your father of cheating from his mother's diary. That's why Aksa chose to be alone at this time, he did not intend to return to Indonesia again because, he thought there was nothing else he had to fight for" said Dara.

Binar continued to cry listening to Dara's words and as the door of her room opened, she immediately turned away sick of wiping away her tears. Dara also wiped away her tears as she got up and said, "we're crying because, let go of longing"

Theo clenched Mada and smiled in response to Dara's words. Dew then ran to hug his mother and said, "Ma, can the Dew bob here tonight? Dew wants to bob together with the deck of Mada because........"

"Dek Mada is so cute and adorable, isn't he, Dew?" Theo immediately closed his sentence Dewun with his sentence because, Theo was afraid that Dewun would say the resemblance of his face Aksa with Mada.

The dew immediately turned to face Theo and smiled and nodded his head, "yes, Mada's deck is very cute and adorable"

Dara hugged the Dew from behind and said, "honey, if you are stuck here, it will be troublesome om Theo and Aunt Binar"

"Sister Binar. Didn't Aksa's brother tell me to call brother to brother Binar? why change aunt now?" dew Protest.

"That's because......." Dara hung up her sentence while looking at Binar.

Binar could only lift both of his shoulders.

"Because, Brother Binar already has a baby grandpa so you have to call him Aunt from now on" said Kenzo very quickly.

"After that" said Dewun with a big smile to his papa.

The sparkle sat with Theo and Binar caught a lot of questioning in both of Theo's black beads. Binar let out a long sigh and said, "Mas, put Mada in her box! you're tired later if Mada you carry on"

Theo shook his head at Binar while saying, "i'm not tired because, I still want to hold Mada" then he threw his handsome smile at Binar.

Dara immediately stepped closer to Theo and reflexively, Theo stepped back.

Dara knitted her brows as she immediately asked, "why do you keep retreating sir? I just want to see your son and if I'm allowed to, I want to carry him"

Theo stopped his steps back and immediately replied, "my son is sleeping right now so I'm sorry if I don't allow you to look at him or carry him"

Binar throws a questionable face mimic to Theo but, he has no power to ask, why does her husband behave so strangely.

Dew pulled the edge of his mother's blouse and asked again, "can't we just bob here, last night?"

Dara looked down to look at her daughter's pretty face, "honey, don't dong. Poor om Theo and Aunt Binar later hassles ngurus you and mengurus deck Mada"

"Theo's word is okay, really" Dew protested as he put his lips together.

"You haven't brought a change of clothes either, have you? so go home, huh? tomorrow we're here again"

"Tomorrow we've come home" Theo said with a smile that looks and still hold Mada tightly.

"If so, tomorrow's Dew bobok at his house Aunty Binar and Om Theo, can you?" Dew soars cheerfully waiting for a yes from his mother.

"We talked at home? we go home now! Aunt Binar and deck Mada to rest first" Dara then took a parcel in the form of a blue baby stroller, Dara, a box of his favorite big cakes Binar and a basket of fruit that he put on the door with the help of Kenzo.

Dara and Kenzo put the fruit basket and cake box on the sofa table and their stroller placed next to the bed of Binar. "This is a sign of our love" Kenzo said.

"Congratulations for the birth of your son" Kenzo then stepped onto Theo and patted him on the shoulder, "congratulations, you're papa now"

Binar and Theo say thank you simultaneously.

Dara hugged Binar and said, "congratulations to the birth of your son"

Dew goes up to the bed and hugs Binar, "Grow kangen same Aunt Binar, tomorrow Dew play to the house huh?"

Theo then put Mada's tiny body into a box and sat on the edge of the bed. He took his hand, he held it, he kissed it lovingly and then he looked at Binar, "why are you crying?" Theo then kissed both of Binar's cheeks, pressed his forehead against Binar's forehead and let out a long sigh.

Binar stroked the back of Theo's head while saying, "excuse me, Mas. I've troubled you"

Theo pulled his forehead and grabbed both of Binar's shoulders and asked, "why apologize and why did you cry earlier?"

Binar took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, "Aksa knew that his papa misunderstood me and Aksa......" Binar suddenly felt short of breath.

"Dear, relax! if you can't tell me now, don't force it!" Theo hugged Binar.

Barin felt more guilty. To Theo also to Aksa. His rash attitude had made the two men who were so precious to him, suffer. And so, broke his cry in Theo's embrace.

Theo stroked Binar's back and said, "don't be like this, pity Mada. If you are sad and cry constantly, your ASI production will be disrupted"

"I shouldn't have done all that" Binar said between sobs.

Theo asked, "do what?"

Binar pulled away from Theo in his arms and looked at Theo, "requesting you to marry me.

Theo looked at Binar with eyes filled with sadness, "you regret marrying me? you regret loving me?"

"It's not so, Mom. I love you I really love you and I never regret it. I just feel sorry for you, you have sacrificed so much for me and Mada. I know in your deepest conscience you wish Mada was your biological child. You must have some wishful thinking, Mada looks like you physically but doesn't and that makes you sad right? disappointed, right? If you hadn't married me, you would have been free by now, you could have courted another girl out there who was much better than me and! I feel sorry for Aksa too. I'm wracked with guilt because, I!without me knowing, I had also made Aksa disappointed and suffering. Aksa is devastated at the moment, he is away from his papa and he does not want to go back to Indonesia because, he thinks there is nothing else he is fighting for here. If Aksa had known about Mada, if only........" Binar covered her face with both hands then her cries broke again.

Theo let out a long sigh and hugged Binar, "i don't want to be a free man and I'm dating girls out there because, I love you. I don't regret this marriage, really. Although I honestly admit, there was a bit of jealousy and disappointment because, Mada physically resembled Aksa, I knew from Dewun. Dewun said that Mada is similar to Aksa's baby photo and honestly it makes me jealous. But my love for Mada was much bigger than my jealousy and it made me strong. So don't you think about my feelings anymore! I'll be fine as long as I have love for you and Mada in my heart, as long as there's love in your eyes, I'll be fine"

Binar withdrew from his arms Theo then said, "i love you so much, Mas" then kissed Theo's lips with love, tenderness, and longing.

They then lay themselves slowly and smoothly on the bed without releasing their lips together. They kissed on the bed intensely then Theo pulled his lips, peeked at Binar's forehead and immediately hugged Binar. Binar spread his head over the chest of his field Theo.

Theo stroked Binar's back and longed to ask if he still loved Aksa or was he just feeling sorry for Aksa, he was unable to get the word out and finally swallowed the question in his heart.

Binar then asked, "Mas, I was afraid that if I told Mada about Aksa then he would take Mada from me. What about Kenzo and Dara. They'll look down on me and our family will be disappointed............"

"Ssttt! do not think about it because, frankly, I am not willing that Mada should be taken from my side. I have loved Mada since Mada was still in your womb and when Mada was born, I immediately became selfish, I wanted to have Mada completely. I'm sorry!" said Theo.

Binar silently stared at Theo's words.

"Let destiny take its share. Let fate guide Aksa's steps to Mada. Because, for now my selfishness and my immense love for Mada make me unable to think clearly. I just want to have Mada fully if I can for ever, if Aksa never knows that Mada is her son but, that's not fair for Aksa so, too, let the working destiny lead Aksa to Mada and we just wait for that time to come"

"Alright let fate take its share from now on" said Binar.

Huff! turns out it's hard to be honest with you Aksa, about your real son. I-i'm sorry! Forgive me too, Mada! Inner Binar.

Theo hugged Binar and said, "but if fate has succeeded in leading Aksa's steps to Mada, then ready not we have to tell the truth to Aksa and Mada. If that time has come then fate has said enough! for our selfishness and we have to give up" Theo said.

"Then what will happen later?" Binar let out a long sigh and then quietly mute in the warm embrace of her husband.

"Of course, we can only wait in resignation. Now go to sleep, you have to be emotionally stable and physically fit because, you have to breastfeed Mada"

"Yes Mas. Thank you for all your love"

Theo kissed Binar's forehead and continued stroking his back until Binar fell asleep.

Theo then woke up and looked into the baby box, Mada was still slumbering. Theo then sat on the sofa looking at Mada and Binar and the handsome man cupped his face with both hands and sobbed in tears as he muttered, "forgive me Aksa and forgive papa, Mada"