
"I'm grim. Why am I grim? I also feel empty. Is it because I don't have what I wanted all this time?" aksa gumam.
"I fell in love with you all of a sudden and you've driven me crazy. Why do we have to be found? I really miss you that even all the love songs I have ever sung can not kill my longing for you" Aksa said in front of the mirror, "why can I be so pathetic just because.........love?"
'"I protect this love however, this love is ungrateful, this love........" Aksa clutched her chest, "just kept growling and hurting me"
"If so, let go and start protecting the other love!"
Aksa automatically turned around and immediately swerved, "where's your manners all this time? enter the men's room without knocking on the door first, huh?!"
"I've knocked it many times but there's no telling. Then I broke the door"
"Huh?! you broke......shit! then I sleep without the door and dong dantar night"
Monica scratched her head and grimaced and then she said with a face without sin, "it's your own fault, why didn't you answer my call earlier? you also ignored the knocking on the door, I was worried so I did........"
"Why are you worried?"
"Well?!" Monica pulled her lower jaw.
"I'm a nobody to you? why are you worried?" Aksa smiled bitterly, put both hands in her pants pocket, and then said, "I don't deserve to worry about you because of me......."
"I love you" Monica cried. He poured out all the flavors he had been craving all this time, at the highest note of his voice.
Aksa turned her handsome face to the ceiling of her room and closed her eyes while sighing deeply.
Monica immediately ran and hugged her tall body Aksa who was sculpting.
Monica said, "I really love you"
Aksa lowered her head to look at Monica's haircut then sighed the word, "since when?"
Monica clenched Aksa, "since I graduated school"
Aksa immediately blocked both of Monica's shoulders and pushed Monica's body. Aksa brought her face closer to Monica's sweet face, they exchanged glances and Aksa narrowed her eyes, "didn't you not believe in love?"
"Yes right. But I also had no power to resist when that love burst into my heart" Monica's eyes exuded her poignancy through the guilt in her heart Aksa.
Aksa then let go of Monica's shoulders, straightened her tall body back and she stepped back while continuing to look at Monica who seemed confused to see the ambiguous mimic on her handsome face Aksa.
"I'm sorry if this confession of my love weighs on you but I can't help it anymore" a sincerity sounded in Monica's tone.
Aksa scooped her face and continued to stare at Monica.
"Say something, curse me or something! don't shut up, Sa!" Monica shrieked her voice.
"I don't know what to say? I feel ashamed of you because, all this time I always use you. I feel like I'm a very bad, selfish, stupid person" Aksa then closed her lips and continued to look at Monica.
"Use me! use Sa! until I run out of power I don't have a problem and I never blame you because, I sincerely help you and I don't feel you've used it"
"But it's time for dinner, aren't you hungry?"
Aksa shook her head.
"Sa, please eat! forget my confession if it wants you. I don't need a reply from you either. I just want to love you, period"
Aksa felt more guilty and stepped out of her room and left Monica.
Monica was stunned for two seconds and then she crouched down and cried sobbing, "forgive me, Sa! I shouldn't have expressed my love to you"
Just as Aksa was about to open his car door, a handsome, friendly-looking man greeted him, "good evening, are you Mr Aksa?"
Aksa faced the man and said, "right, I am Aksa. You who?"
"I'm his personal assistant Boss Theo Revano. My name is Andik"
"Oh! please come in if so" said Aksa.
"No need sir. I just want to hand you this letter. Emm, a letter from my Boss, Mr. Theo Revano and I'm sorry" Andik immediately left when a letter from Theo Revano had already fallen in Aksa's hands.
Aksa put the letter in his pocket and he got into his car. He launched his car aimlessly.
Without Aksa realizing it, he stopped his car near the park where he and Binar were first dating.
Aksa stepped down from his car with a chaotic feeling then he sat on one of the many benches lined up on the edge of the park.
Aksa then opened the letter from Theo Revano frowning, "did he know I was here? since when?" and Aksa began to read the letter :
Hi Pulgoso! hehehe. I know you're in Indonesia and I know you bought Binar's house. I also know that the Silver Butterfly is you. I'm not jealous, you helped Binar as a silver Butterfly, instead I thank you Pulgoso, uh Aksa, hehehehe.
I just wonder why you keep hiding yourself from Binar all this time even when you are so close to Binar now you still do not dare to appear in front of him Binar. However, I then understood, all that you did because you still love Binar very much. I'm not angry that you're still holding on to that love because I understand, it's cruel. Love does not want to know the time, age, or person. Love tacked on so easily we could not resist, imprinted sharply without our asking and he gave a burden to us, is not it cruel, hehehe.
Aksa chuckled and then muttered, "from the first Theo was crazy and relaxed really people" then Aksa continued to read the letter from Theo :
I'm sick Sa. It hurts pretty bad and on Wednesday this Sunday, I'm going to have surgery with terrible side effects. If I have to go into a coma or lose my memory for an indefinable time, it means God's justice for you. I will allow you to appear in front of Binar and discover the truths you deserve to know later.
I allow us to compete again fairly, but do not force Binar if he immediately put up a wall and do not break the wall! because if you do, it will be bad for you and for Binar. If Binar has said no and shunned you, please stop fighting! But, if it turns to me, if Binar then puts up a wall for me and chooses you, I will give it away as long as you accept the present Binar and love his two children.
It's not like I'm giving up my wife and I don't love her anymore. Precisely because I love Binar so much I want to free Binar from the bias of taste in his past and it seems like the destiny of one thought with me. Destiny gives you another chance and Binar will settle all your past affairs. Fate understands very well that I look at you consciously, see you close to each other and you try to settle your affairs in front of my full consciousness, then I won't be able to breathe so destiny is about to pull me away from you guys. fight but, stop if you are required to stop!
I think it's my way of redeeming my guilt for you. I'm giving you the chance to fight back fairly. And I'm sure the end result will be the best for all of us. And I'm sure after that, we won't be burdened with our past anymore. Enough I've done injustice to you then, fight! as long as fate pulls me away from you and Binar.
Aksa stared intently at the piece of paper in his hand, "he was crazy but very intelligent, sincere-hearted, and I liked his personal Theo Revano. All righty! I'll take that chance and I promise I'll play fair without forcing Binar. I'm just going to give Binar a choice and teach Binar to be strict with me and you, Theo Revano"
Aksa then recalled Monica, "I'll try to settle things in my gloomy past, Ca. However, if I were to stop fighting for Binar, may you still be in your place Ca" Aksa called Monica by the nickname Caca, "and I will open my heart to you, may you survive until that day comes but, if I have to unite with Binar, I will go away from you Ca, so that you will not be hurt"
Aksa then walked into the restaurant which was not far from the park to eat because, the challenge as well as the opportunity that Theo Revano gave, made him re-energized to live and made him feel hungry again.