My Pretty Boss
Longing

The heavy struggle for years that dwelled in the heart and mind of Binar, re-opened for real. The heavy struggle that made Binar turned into a more quiet person because, the feeling of regret, sadness, and confusion that surrounded his heart, was again revealed.

Binar looked at Aksa and said, "i sincerely apologize from the beginning I approved of us dating I've made a big mistake. I shouldn't have accepted you as my girlfriend back then"

"Then why did you accept me to be your girlfriend back then?"

Binar let out a long sigh, "honestly at first out of curiosity, my adrenaline spurred on because of, your charm. The other reason is because I've never been in a relationship. I wonder what it was like to date back then so without thinking I accepted you to be my girlfriend"

"You never loved me?" aksa's eyes dimmed in disappointment.

"It's not like that" Binar rubbed his tears and said, "I love you but I'm also afraid to face the world's scorn because, you're much younger than me. I'm a coward"

"That's why you easily say break up when I'm angry and stay away from you? Because, forever you won't be ready to face the world if we keep dating?"

"I'm sorry Sa! I was confused and tired of everything that happened. The scorn of your High School friends and the surrounding community when we were in Kudus, then the insults from your father, and your rejection at that time happened in a row and it made me even more afraid. Afraid that I will be a burden to you. I saw there was a good chance for you then. For you to achieve your dream abroad with your scholarship hence, I decided to free you from me. I will only be a hindrance to your future, until at any time" Binar began to sob.

Aksa was still unable to respond and he closed his lips while continuing to look at Binar.

"When you left me at the restaurant at the time, I went straight home and fainted. Mas Theo helped me and took me to the hospital and that's when I found out I was pregnant. I was confused, panicked, and frustrated because, I didn't want to burden you with my pregnancy and I thought you were still angry and I was afraid that you would act beyond my expectations at that time. I'm a coward and forever........." Binar gasped for breath with the grief that stifled her heart Then she took a deep breath to say again, "i will never be worthy of you forever"

"I'm sorry. I was stupid at the time. I just believe in my dad. I also hated my late mother at that time. I was angry, disappointed, hated, not just with you but with my mother, with my grandparents. That's why without a second thought I accepted the scholarship and went to America. I want to avoid all the problems here and avoid the beauty of our togetherness when we were together, avoid the fact that we had broken up that was so tight on my chest at the time"

"I've forgiven you and that's not the point. The point is, until anytime we can not be together" said Binar quickly.

"Because you're married now?"

"If I hadn't been married, I would still have rejected you because I didn't deserve you"

"But deep down I still love you Bin"

"Learn to love again. With Monica. She's a very nice girl and right for you"

"You're good at talking like that. I like Monica yes it's true but to love her, why does it feel so hard for me"

"Rescious Sa! we are not meant to be together. We were wrong from the beginning, we should not be reckless dating and......."

Aksa pulled Binar and kissed him on the lips. He kissed those rannum lips with passion and longing. Sticking, rubbing with his lips, kissing, sucking and increasingly pressing his lips Binar with full desire. For a moment Binar was stupefied and drowned. Aksa immediately took the opportunity to lock her lips of Binar which still felt so sweet and intoxicating to Aksa. Aksa was reluctant to let go of the lips she so longed for.

Binar immediately gathered all his consciousness and pushed hard on Aksa. Then he turned to Aksa. He was about to slap Aksa but he held his hand in the air.

Aksa held onto Binar's wrist, which was still floating in the air, and then he screeched, "slap me, slap me!"

Aksa got up and he immediately embraced Binar, "forgive me! I'm afraid because, I miss you so much"

Binar pushed Aksa's collapse back and immediately took a few steps back.

Aksa let out a long sigh and Binar immediately said, "never hold my hand, don't hug me, don't touch me and never kiss me again! I'm married and I love my husband" Binar said with tear-stained eyelids.

Aksa was about to recklessly reach for Binar's hand but, Doctor Hendrik was present among them. Aksa then pulled back his hand and he put it in his pants pocket. Binar tidied her hair and faced the doctor Hendrik while reviewing a smile.

Doctor Hendrik glanced at Aksa and asked Binar, "who is this young man?"

"ah! he is my former employee Dok" said Binar and Aksa disappointed to hear his words Binar. Aksa immediately left the doctor Hendrik and Binar without saying goodbye because, annoyed.

Doctor Hendrik ignored Aksa's attitude and immediately said, "Sorry long wait, let's go inside!" said Dr. Hendrik.

Aksa stepped wide back into her grandmother's room with a complicated thread on her mind.

Binar sat down at Hendrik's desk, "what's up Doc? my husband's fine, right?"

"Theo has stabilized his condition even though he has not been aware of his coma. I decided tomorrow Theo could be moved to a regular room so he could hang out with his family. Who knows if he's surrounded by his sons he'll soon be conscious of his coma"

"Thank you very much Dok" Binar screeched in excitement because, that way, Mada and Aries could meet their father.

"Sama-sama and Sus please prepare everything for Theo's move" said Hendrik's doctor to one of the nurses who accompanied him to the service that night.

"Good Doc" said the nurse.

Binar got up and decided to go back to the ICU.

Binar immediately put on a special uniform back in the ICU room and sat next to her husband's bed, "honey, there is good news. Tomorrow you move to a regular room. You can meet again with the kids"

Binar then remembered with his letter Mada. He opened the letter and smiled as he read it at a glance. Then Binar said, "there is a letter from Mada. I read ya"

Then I read the letter:

Dear Dad, Mada misses Daddy. Mada wanted on the first day Mada entered Elementary School delivered with Dad but unfortunately Dad was sick. Mada lied to Mother that Mada already had friends. Forgive Mada yes Dad because, have lied to Mother. Mada did not want Bunda to be sad because, Mada did not have friends on the first day Mada entered SD. Mada's best friend is a girl, two-pouled and bangs, He looks strange in Mada's eyes and he is very cheerful. Ask a little to be taught and a lot of nanya that is not important. Mada was very lazy to serve it and because, Mada was quiet so many classmates were reluctant to approach Mada. They know that Mada is silent because, Mada misses Dad. Therefore Mada has no friends. Mada misses Dad a lot. Get well soon Dad. Mada loves and loves Dad very much.

Binar rubbed her tears while commenting on the smile, "Mada is funny, Mas, just like you are funny" and as she looked into Theo's hands, he again saw Theo's hand twitching and not only his index finger was moving but, all of Theo's fingers on his right hand were moving.

Binar squealed happily and she immediately clasped the hand of her husband who kept moving. Binar cried happily as she felt Theo's hand clasping tightly to her hand. Binar raised his hand and he kissed the hand, "indeed you and Mada seemed to be created to complement each other and could not be separated. Every time I tell you about Mada, you immediately respond. Hopefully tomorrow, in the regular room, when Mada can touch you directly, you can immediately realize yes Mas"