My Rector, My Lecturer, My Husband (Forced to Marry an Ice Beam)
Episode 40 - I Feel Cheap

Father, now I know how you feel. If you have a sense of belonging to me, it must feel like this. It hurts like a thousand thorns in the chest. That feeling is mixed with sadness and jealousy. It hurts so much 😢. Sir, is this a punishment? Is Qia being punished for playing with fire in front of you? 😢

I kept crying while hugging the Ice Beam. He sat on the side of the bed to my left. I sat in the middle of the bed with both legs straight. My leg hurt from the fall. Feels sore.

"What's it like to hurt so much?" she asked softly while wiping my tears with her left hand.

I just kept quiet as I hugged the Ice Beams body tighter and tighter. The wound on my leg doesn't hurt, sir. My grieving heart is broken. It feels like this heart has been broken and broken.

Four years is not a short time for me to build a solid wall of trust. Building a wall of love just for one. Now the two walls collapsed in an instant.

"Please slow down the wound cleaning process!" ice Beam Command.

Right now I think I'm being taken to a hotel or maybe an Ice Beam house. I was in a room with the Ice Beams. There was a female doctor and a female nurse called here to treat my injuries from a fall. I think the wound on my leg was just a blister and an injury from a fall.

"Don't cry!" The Ice Beams rubbed my head gently.

"Ba..pak.." call me.

I was crying harder. I'm like a cheap woman right now. I've betrayed a man who might be called my mistress. But, I was now crying and leaning on the man who was my husband. I always put him second in my heart. I always hated him and considered him a bully.

I feel really embarrassed right now. I leaned against the Ice Beams while crying. There's no one else I can back up. Am I not being so cheap right now? But how else? I can't complain to my parents.

"Here you go, don't cry" she wiped my tears. "What makes you cry?" tanyanya gently. "Is there an employee in the office who bullies you? Just say! I'll be quick to punish him," he looked at me gently. "Not to be afraid. Tell me who made you cry?" my tears are gently wiped.

Sir, how should I say that Naren made me cry? How should I tell my father?

"Ehm.." My mouth was stiff. I just kept crying and crying.

"What's wrong? You're usually not this whiny. Are you having problems at the college?"

"Sir, the treatment process is complete" said the doctor.

"Thank you, you can go!" ice Beam Command. The two men left this room.

"June said you and your friend came to the office to invite me to the seminar. Is there an office employee who's doing you no fun?" ask the Ice Beams again. I shook my head slowly. "Do you have a problem with your friends? From the CCTV surveillance in the office you came with Naren...."

The Ice Beams had already investigated it to this detail. What do I have to answer? 😢 How do I explain it? 😢

"Everything's fine, until Naren hands you his smartphone. You were surprised when you held that thing. Crying while running out of the office. What was? Why are you crying?" he looked at me with a soft look.

I'm so ashamed. Ice Beams have been a lot I've climbed but right now I'm leaning on them. I've even played fire in front of his face many times. The ice block seemed silent while looking at me.

"Already, don't cry" the Ice Beams wiped away my tears. He looked at me with a gentle look in those cold eyes.

"Ba..pak.." call me.

"What's wrong? I'm still here. I'm not leaving. Already, calm yourself down, "he wiped my tears.

"Ma.af.kan, Qi.yes, sir.." I said softly as I bowed.

That's all I can say. I can't erase everything I've done. I don't know what my position is in the Ice Beam's heart but he's still my husband. The husband I should obey and respect. Not me and I hurt.

"Take it easy," she wiped my tears again. "Please yourself first. Don't think about anything else first."

Sir, do you not understand what I mean? Do you still hold anger against me? Sir, what is Qia's position in your heart? What do you consider Qia?

"Sir.." call me shrewd.

"Ehm," he said.

"What if Qia wants to be your real wife?" lirih.

I know this is embarrassing. I know I'm impressed cheap. But this is all I have in my brain right now. The Ice Beams looked at me with a soft and cold gaze.

Sir, do you hate Qia? I was scared and scared waiting for that answer. What would the Ice Beams say? 😢

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