NOT MY DARK LOVER
Destinies

The atmosphere of the countryside is still very beautiful abundance of natural wealth growing in the cold land, houses are still made of woven bamboo lined parallel on the left side of the road that has not been closed by asphalt, small pebbles are used to passing even if only wearing makeshift footwear, the flow of water along the river looks clean in the eye.

Walking a few more minutes, the vegetable plantation farmers were busy picking crops from what they planted, they talked to each other.

Handi should be able to enjoy the green natural scenery in this village. He could have a little chat with one of the residents or just hitchhiking to taste their crops. But what he did during the trip was busy daydreaming on a motorbike driven by one of the grandmother's neighbors where he stayed last night.

Franda's location from Grandma's house is actually too far away. It's just that the state of travel through asphalt gravel forced to reduce the speed of the motorcycle makes the trip feel long.

"This is not a clinic sir. But there's a sick man in there. It has not healed for years, not infrequently the residents want to look inside yes trying to give the mother spirit. Poor that girl." Handi just nodded in response to a statement from the biker's friend.

The house is located somewhat apart from the houses of the citizens. But it can still be seen because this is not on the population. Not from the bamboo wall. The walls are white, the house resembles a villa building quite luxurious among the houses of other residents.

After the rider resigned to resign himself will go to work not far from where he stands now, so that later Handi can walk to meet the man to go home together.

Breathing prepares the heart. His feet seemed frozen on the ground, there was a fear of not being able to bear the reality of going inside. Given the initial determination, Handi walked slowly step by step.

"Aunt Darwin." Handi said softly to see a middle-aged lung woman who already looked not as elegant as before standing right in front of the entrance of the house. His body trembled, the tears had escaped falling on the dull face of Handi imagining already what the state of the woman he longed for.

"Stop right there." Handi stopped the foot just at the end of the stairs up the porch of the five-foot house.

Handi was in front of Franda's mother. In the face of the wrinkled face, the skin is not as smooth as it used to be, the bead holds thousands of tears there.

"What's coming here for?"

"Auntie. a-I miss,,"

"Enough Son. Your longing won't change everything. Not that I don't appreciate your arrival, but i-it's all free. Go home, son."

"No, Ma." Handi kneels at Darwin's mother's feet. No more aunt calls. At least Darwin's mother's aura had returned as gentle as the first time she knew the woman.

"Don't be like this, stand up, son," Mrs Darwin started sobbing. Humped Handi's body to stand up.

"No Ma'am. Let me be like this." refused Darwin's invitation. "I will continue to kneel until mother gives permission for me to come in to see Franda inside," Handi was already crying in front of Darwin.

The charisma of the man is gone.

"Huhhh!" Mrs Darwin knelt down along with Handi's body. He wiped away the tears so that Handi could also calm down "What do you expect from Franda, no longer there, son. You won't be strong to see it, son."

"Let me in, Mom. I beg you" Handi said to be clear."

"Then, what will you do after you're inside?" mrs Darwin's voice began to raucously cry too much.

"Me, I can't do anything.

"Spirited you said, son?" given the time that this family passed for many years, Mrs Darwin smiled lightly. Unknowingly the tears fell again, "Do whatever you want to do can really make Franda move again, and if it can't," Mrs Darwin as he pleased "We have lost hope over Franda. Sometimes we think it's better that he leaves quickly than that he has to endure this kind of pain. We're not strong anymore and we're constantly looking at Franda." Mrs Darwin almost fell on the ground if only Handi did not quickly hold back and hugged her tightly.

They both shared grief in an embrace. Sandy hugged him like she was hugging her mother.

Sometimes we give up after we are tired of trying.

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The thin, dry body was submerged in a king-size bed, the entire surface of his skin was as pale as the undead, the wrists and joints of the entire body were exactly like a hard chain but it was extremely limp, his eyes were still open but his eyes were empty straight at the wall, the hose of the life-connecting medical device was wrapped around it, the empty infusion tube was stacked in a basket, and the, various colors of medicine tubes wrapped in one place on the nightstand. One of the most painful, her beautiful hair was gone.

Handi wept bitterly beside the girl, expressing all the yearning in these five years. Telling the memories of the two of them while dating first. Kissing the uninfused wrist. He told me while laughing but crying.

While behind the door, a couple cried when they saw Handi trying to interact with Franda.

Ms. Darwin squeezed her husband's shirt as he pleased in the man's arms. Darwin also cried but his stuffing can still be held, he rubbed his wife's head full of affection.

Eat only from a hose stuck in Franda's nose, urinate already from the catheter hose, clean the body already on the rag using a wet cloth, supporting Franda's body so that it can move left and right. The most tiring thing is, other people must be very aware of when Franda eat taking the drug that is paused, when Franda should be cleaned. Not to mention the late Franda often menguntahlan whatever in it, the face shriveled with the pain in his body. Franda could still hear, the eyes could still signal yes and no. That'sthat's all.

If only Franda could still speak a little, it was enough to help her not to rely too much on others.

"Mom can I change Franda's destiny?" mandi replied after hearing Franda's state.

"If it can, it's better for the mother to replace Franda. The age of the mother is old, but age is not a benchmark for accepting fate or death right,"

Now the three of them have sat together beside Franda, telling Franda's situation to Handi. Darwin was just pensively silent near his wife.

"Then, what was Franda's fault and sin that she had to accept this much trial ma'am?"

"We have no right to question that, son. God knows what to give his people. A good person can suffer more than this, son. A bad person can just walk away without having to suffer first from his crimes. It's Franda's destiny, not that she doesn't take care of her health until this brain cancer spreads so fast, it's all out of our plans, son." Bu Darwin breathed a tired breath and turned to look at Franda.

"Frandaa wake up baby!" Mrs Darwin panicked to see the eyes closed suddenly arrived. Handi and Darwin come to stand up to Franda's body, the three of them have been crying hysterically shaking Franda's body and calling out the name.

Jlepa..

Franda opened her blinking eyes to signal that she was okay,. For some reason, Franda felt comfortable when she heard the voice of the man nearby earlier. The story was like it had ever been in nature, the voice was no stranger to him. So slowly he felt drowsiness and then fell asleep comfortably.

"He's just sleeping, Mah." Darwin breathed a sigh of relief, then kissed Franda's forehead gently.

Everyone was relieved too.

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