
" When I found out the truth, only regret I found..
I took my leave, went back to Java looking for you guys..
But I found out the harsh fact that your mother married another man,
A rich man whose age is far above your mother's..
I peeked at you a few times when I got home from school,
you look healthy and good when you get out of that car until retirement maybe I won't be able to afford it,
Your mother also looked well groomed and much prettier..
It feels like this contemptible me is no longer worthy to show a face before you,
That's why I'm living without bothering you and your mother again..
my life is hard, son, it's so hard to know that your mother is completely innocent,
regret suffocates me every day, and I can only get drunk to forget all that, destroying myself.." the old man cried as he would.
While Pamungkas can only sculpt while holding his shoulder so as not to shake violently as well.
his tears melted without his control in front of his oms and tantas.
Ratih hugged her husband, she just could not hear especially her husband, whether how tortured her heart, especially when she knew that all her suffering during childhood was caused by the stupidity of her own father's mind.
" You're the dumbest man ever, you dumped your wife and kids just because a misunderstanding wasn't necessarily true,
You treated me so hard just because of the filthy thoughts you developed yourself, isn't this amazing.. The more hate I have for you..!" Finally, he could not even say a hard word anymore, his disappointment with the reality that actually made him weak.
Tears that long not spilled this much, now spilled without care, he did not even realize his wife's body was tightly hugging him.
" I don't deserve to apologize, son.. But that's all I have left..
At least I'm sorry for yourself..
I'm sorry that you're free of your grudges against me..
Live well, son.. Live well." said Grace with the rest of her strength then fell down to the bed again,
" I'm sorry son.. I'm sorry.." she said softly with eyes closed due to fatigue crying and talking.
Finally did not answer, wiped his tears with a single swab on his face, then with a pushy look he looked at om and tantenya who could only be silent, some of them were seen to cry.
But that doesn't make you feel sorry for them.
" We have had enough here, after knowing all this stupidity I am increasingly unable to stay" said the voice of the leader.
Seeing that pain flashed across his heart, he pityed but also got angry, there was nothing he could do but immediately leave the place, the disappointment of stabbing him deeper and deeper.
No one can prevent the ultimate decision to leave, everyone knows he bore great disappointment to his father.
Ratih chased after her husband's steps, down the wooden stairs, and,
" can't we go home tomorrow?" tanya Ratih was shocked by her husband's quick steps.
" I have not been able to linger here long Train, the fact that I can make me even more angry and disappointed, do not understand what I feel now?!" the ultimate firmness made his wife inching backwards,
Ratih arrived suddenly afraid of the figure of her husband who might be able to explode at any time because of the anger that was suppressed in such a way.
" all right, I'll take care of our stuff.." Train to walk first through Pamungkas.
Ratih packed all their clothes without asking any more.
Her husband was sitting pensively while smoking in the middle room right in front of the door of the room they occupied.
Ratih can clearly hear deep breaths, even strands accompanied by tightness.
Oh katainya.. Thought Ratih, Ratih thought this meeting would end in happiness and sincerity,
Ratih shook his head slowly, unable to think anymore, he was dizzy enough to see the face of her husband full of disappointment.
" didn't change clothes?" ask Ratih to her husband who only wore brown and trained long black.
" i put it this way, if it's cold I wear a jacket later on the road" replied Endlessly softly with his eyes watching the entrance.
The man looked confused and worried, no matter what he really felt, even as a wife, Ratih was afraid of misunderstanding.
Thirty more minutes had already passed, the coach was ready.
" It's all?" ask him to see that his wife has changed clothes.
" It's a problem." replied Ratih slowly,
" Of course, let me ask Ruslan to take us to the road to find a bus," Finally got up, but before long he got up, he heard a loud cry,
Ratih and Pamungkas even to the point of view of wonder.
Until finally the sound of crying was increasingly clear, accompanied by the sound of a half-running step.
Ratih was wide-eyed because he realized it was the voice of Aunt Rapuni.
And sure enough Aunt Rapunilah who ran into the house heard her unstoppable tears.
" Your father is no longer there..!" aunt Rapuni said to Pamungkas, the old woman was not even footed.