President Cilok
137 Season 2; Why does everything feel foreign?

“I hope, I can turn back time. Where I realized earlier my mistake in choosing,” Ratna turned her gaze staring into the blue expanse of the sky.

Taking a deep breath and exhaling it slowly, this afternoon breeze waved the hijab she was wearing, “But, back again in reality now.” Ratna closed her eyes, the shadow of the past is beautiful, felt only yesterday he passed along with Damar, “...I myself.” murmured in fragility which then he continued to hone into strength.

His gaze again observed Damar and Wulan who were getting away from the range of vision, the cellphone that had been just sitting in the bag ringing. Ratna reached into the bag and took her phone from there.

Soon, Ratna shifted the green button and brought the phone closer to the ear, “Assalamualaikum.” since living and studying religion, he now more often use the phrase greetings in his daily life.

“Wa'alaikumussalam, Ratna you are now where, I am already in the parking lot,” replied someone from across the phone.

Ratna gasped so fast on her way from Nganjuk to Jogja? ”Iya, I'll be right to the parking lot.”

The phone call ended, and Ratna put her phone back in her bag. Then rush to the car park by walking carefully of course, to balance the steps that are no longer easy.

Arriving at the parking lot Ratna dizzy and saw there were many cars parked, a moment later he saw someone who waved at him. Slowly Ratna stepped up, smiled broadly and walked towards a man standing in front of Avanza's car, a man who was none other than her older brother Ilham.

“Mas Ilham, I think Mas Ilham is still a long time to arrive in Jogja,” Ratna greet the hand of Ilham.

Ilham smiled happily, many positive things that changed the nature of Ratna. From the spoiled to the independent, from the very easy emotion. Now it looks more patient! Inspiration justifies that so many problems teach a million wisdom and guidance.

“I'm worried, so I'm in a hurry here. After Ustadzah said you are traveling not one person,” Ilham, feel sorry to see his sister who is now a young widow in a condition of great pregnancy.

Ratna guessed for sure the brother first to the boarding school, he looked down shabby, and a moment later he chuckled a little to give an idea to Ilham, that he was fine, “Hehe... Yes who else would want to accompany me the streets of Mas, Mas Ilham and Mbak Vega far away. Anyway this is a pretty close place from the cottage,”

Ratna realizes that her two sisters are married and live with their families outside the city. Ilham lives in Nganjuk, while Vega lives in Surabaya.

Ratna just didn't want to be troublesome on the other side of her brother's second partner. Therefore, he chose the boarding school as his residence. Learning to deepen knowledge about religion.

“Yes at the most, invite temen where you go, Na,” his hand outstretched rubbing Ratna's stomach. Inspiration really loves his sister.

“I do not want to bother others, Mas,” Ratna sighed, while rubbing the sweat on the forehead, a smile he still shows, so that the Brother is not too worried, “Hemm.. temen-temen at the cottage, they have their respective activities, as well as Mas Ilham with Mbak Vega,”

“Then stay with Mas, or the same Ma'am Vega,” persuade Ilham for the umpteenth time.

“Then Papi?” ratna asked, looking at Ilham.

For a moment Ilham was silent, he turned to Ratna who was behind him, “We will often visit, Papi,”

Ratna doubted Ilham's words, she knew very well that her brother was very busy, “Mas Ilham was very busy, this was Mas Ilham's visit since one month ago,”

Inspiration is aware, that all this time his work is very time consuming since the company given by the Father is taken over by state assets to cover losses. He now works in other companies to meet the needs of life that is increasing rapidly.

In fact, so busy, Ilham was rarely seen the father who suffered from mental disorders especially to undergo detention as well as rehabilitation after the psychological condition was exposed to all the crimes of the Father he called Papi. “How else Na. This is just me taking the time to make sure that you are okay, eat it stay at my house or Miss Vega,”

Any more... Ratna doubted Ilham's offer, “Still to Mas Ilham's offer, as well as Mbak Vega. I will stay in Jogja, while monitoring the development of Papi, not to reject the good intentions of Mas Ilham. Only, if Mami does not care then who else Papi has, besides us his children, Mas.”

Pungkas Ratna could not bear to leave her Papi in Jogja alone in rehabilitation. In because it is from the family of both parents do not want to be involved in the affairs of the Papinya, especially her mother never came home or just gave news.

Looking at his sister for a moment, Ilham confirmed Ratna's words just now. In his heart he could not bear to leave his Papa. However, because he now lives and works in Nganjuk, he can only visit his father once a month.

“Already come in, won't we visit Papi?” bring Ilham.

Ratna nodded, and opened the door of her brother's dark-colored car.

When you want to go around the car. Inspiration to see a man not far from her parking a car, someone she thought was very familiar. Ilham wanted to make sure that what he saw was not wrong, after observing for a moment Ilham called someone, “Damar!”

While Damar was silent, he felt he did not know a man who called him. His gaze turned to look at a woman known to his wife friend. Damar speculates that the man was Ratna's husband, and may have known her. Damar turned to look at Wulan who looked dumbfounded.

Ratna undoes her intention to enter the car, and sees the Damar family looking towards her as well as the older sister. Ratna switch staring Ilham, “Mas Ilham!” exclaim Ratna, stop Ilham who has started to walk will approach Damar.

Ilham turned his head to look at Ratna, “Why?”

“Mas Ilham go where?” ratna asked, her gaze glancing at Damar.

“I just want to say hello,” Ilham intends to apologize to Damar because he remembers his words were very rude to his sister's ex-boyfriend while in the hospital.

“For what?” Ratna was astonished by the actions of the brother who was about to approach Damar. However, a soft voice suddenly stomped out Ratna's heart as if making her fixated as well as stunned silently silently.

“Ratna!” from the direction beside Ratna, a middle-aged woman stood up.

Slowly Ratna regained consciousness, and turned her head towards the woman. The woman who has given birth to the man she loves, the man who made Ratna difficult to move on, “Holy Mother?!”

“How are you Nak Ratna?” holy Mother asked, looking at Ratna.

Verily Ratna was lulled with that shady look, the shady gaze of Holy Mother. Ratna gave a brief nod of her feeling very awkward, “Ba-good Bu,” she stretched out her hand in front of the gentle woman in front of her standing.

Holy Ma'am shook Ratna's hand, her net turned to look at Ratna's stomach, “How was your pregnancy?”

Ratna looked at her stomach, reflexively rubbing and bitterly smiling. “Alhamdulillah well Bu,”

Holy Ma'am gently rubbed Ratna's stomach, “Thank God you're okay,”

Again Ratna just nodded, for some reason her tongue felt like a mute. He misses the figure of a mother and back his regret can not be denied again. Suppose, if he had not been darkened by the treasure and thrown Damar, it would not have been Wulan who was the daughter-in-law of the Holy Mother; Astaghfirullah Ratna!' meaning in the heart.

Damar and Wulan walked up to the Holy Mother, to call her back to continue the journey due to lunch time that had been delayed until the sun was leaning west.

“Do you know them?” asked Damar, he was astonished. Why Mother and Wulan look so familiar with the woman named Ratna.

Before the Holy Mother replied, Ilham had already called Damar.

“Home!” Ilham approached Damar.

The frown on Damar's forehead is clearly visible, because again the person he does not know again calls his name, “Do I know you?”

Damar's answer astonished Ilham, did Damar pretend not to know him, or was it because Damar no longer wanted to remember who Ratna was? Various stigmas gnawed at the thoughts that became questions in the mind of Inspiration.

“Yes obviously I know you, let alone Ratna,” Ilham pointed to Ratna. “Did you forget who I am?” ask Damar again.

Wulan and Damar looked at Ratna, who looked wrong.

Damar felt his head throbbing, everything felt foreign. The people who greeted him seemed very familiar, but he only remembered a handful of people; why does it all feel foreign?’

“Whose light? are you Ratna's husband?” Damar turned the question to the man standing three meters away from the woman named Ratna.

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