Private Island Systems In Other Worlds
Thirty Four

“A-”

“I want to talk to you.”

Just as I opened my mouth wanting to talk to her, Fina immediately cut off my words and immediately stated her point. It just so happened that what I wanted to say was the same as what Fina said.

We decided to go to the beach to talk. Illuminated by the moonlight and accompanied by the sound of the waves, Fina and I stood on the fine sand facing each other.

Fina looked directly at me with her sparkling green irises as if to emphasize that she was serious right now. While being buffeted by the sea breeze that breathed out her beautiful brown hair, Fina opened her mouth starting the conversation.

“I want you to stop acting as if as my guardian.”

Hearing his words, I realized that all this time I was acting as if as a mother who nurtured him. And my actions were disliked by Fina. It seems like he wants me to treat him as an equal person to him.

“I did treat you like a foster child because I felt you were my responsibility. That's because I feel guilty for making you human. Forgive me for acting as I please.”

I acted like a virtuous person who wanted to take responsibility for his mistake but it turned out that the person I ‘tolong’ actually did not need that.

“I want you to look at me as Fina who is your equal.”

My eyes were slightly open at his words. This was the first time I heard Fina say the name I gave her directly as if receiving the name. Earlier when I gave her a name, she just said her name without confirming directly that she received that name. My previous guilt is now mixed with a little pleasure due to Fina's words. Not only that, Fina continued her words.

“At first I was resigned to leave the world after giving you ownership of this island. However, your words that do not want to let me go thrill my heart. It was the first time I felt wanted and needed. Thanks to that feeling, I became eager to live longer to protect this island.”

Heh. Fina feels more mature now. Ah!! Enough's enough! I shouldn't have thought that way. I need to stop acting as a guardian.

It turned out that the words I shouted the first time I met were considered very deep for him. Whereas back then I just didn't want him to leave without explaining about this island. Rather than this being a misunderstanding in the future, I'd better tell you the truth.

“Fina, actually when I shouted at you not to let you go it was because I wanted to ask about my fate and this island.”

“At first I was resigned to leave the world after giving you ownership of this island. However, your words that do not want to let me go thrill my heart. It was the first time I felt wanted and needed. Thanks to that feeling, I became eager to live longer to protect this island.”

?? Why did he repeat?

“Fina, actually-”

“At first I was resigned to leave the world after giving you ownership of this island. However, your words that do not want to let me go thrill my heart. It was the first time I felt wanted and needed. Thanks to that feeling, I became eager to live longer to protect this island.”

He repeated the same words three times with a calm expression as if saying the same thing three times in a row was nothing wrong. I felt like he only believed what he wanted to believe.

Well, at least I'm trying to be honest. As long as he is happy with his trust, I am happy too. Hopefully this will not have a significant impact on the future. But why did Fina become more talk now, when previously it was very economical for her to make a sound. Her point of view also felt like it was not the Fina I usually thought. Ah enough, I have to stop assuming Fina doesn't know anything. But the more I thought the greater my curiosity. Until in the end I lost my curiosity to ask Fina a question.

“Fina, how could you think about all this?”.

“It's like it's already on my mind …. And again you do not look at me as Fina who is equal to you. I also don't like it when you look at me with your eyes that look like I'm a kid.”

Although her facial expression remained calm, from Fina's eyes and voice I could feel the seriousness of her words.

Again the answer he almost always says is that I asked him something about himself. It was on his mind he said. Well, let me take it that it's really on his mind.

Fina also confirmed how much I had seen her all this time. It's true that sometimes I think of him as a child. The guilt that previously mistreated Fina became even greater now. As my mind was still filled with how I should interact with Fina in the future, she spoke again.

“When I'm with you I always feel happy. Seeing whatever you're doing makes my eyes can't escape you. I want to be a part of all your activities. I want to be with you always.”

*BOMB*

Fina's next words were like dropping a bomb on me. It is like expressing love. What does it mean to express love? Or just want to be together like friends or family? Despite not fully processing what Fina just said she kept talking again.

“The longer I'm with you, the more the desire to get closer to you gets bigger. I tried to hold back that feeling by moving away from you, but I couldn't stand being away from you anymore. I want to be with you always!”

“F-”

“I want you to think of me as a woman!”

When saying this, Fina's expression turned serious then her face flushed slightly and she quickly turned around and walked over. I kept staring at Fina from behind who was walking quickly into the house.

After Fina disappeared from my sight, I turned to face the ocean trying to process back all of Fina's previous words. In conclusion, it is 100% love. I did not expect that Fina who always looked calm turned out to have such emotional thoughts. If this is the case, I also have to introspect how I feel to Fina all this time.

Still standing looking at the moonlit ocean, I checked how I felt.

There is something I have been waiting for in my heart. Because it has been too long, to the point that I have gotten used to waiting and forgetting to open my heart to others. But now that I'm not on Earth anymore, what more am I supposed to wait for in this new world. I need to open my heart to others.

Long enough I saw the sea view while introspecting my feelings. In the end I decided to start looking at Fina as the opposite sex.

After long enough sorting my feelings, I decided to return to the stage house again. While walking towards the house, I was thinking about what Fina was doing right now well, if she had expressed such feelings she should feel ashamed. This means most likely tomorrow we will not meet. He could have been locked up in his room all day. “Hehe ..” I laughed a little considering how Fina had expressed her feelings earlier. She looks cute.

I walked over with a small laugh remembering the previous thing until I entered the room. However, my laughter just now quickly dissipated from seeing what was waiting inside the room.