Rayyan
Chapters 11. He Doesn't Know What It's Like

No sound could be heard from inside the white-painted room. Just the sound of a pen whose tip is constantly moving on a piece of paper. This time Rion spent the night to finish the assignment from school. It had been a few hours, he was struggling with thick books, but now began to be caught off guard by the sight before his eyes.

Rion stretched his body. Then his mind fell on it a while ago, when the people in his house were arguing with his grandfather. And address Ray as the object of their quarrel. Rion knew everything, so he was silent rather than igniting a bigger fire. Fortunately, it seemed like Shan and Sam did not hear the quarrel because they were still outside the house. I don't know what to do. But, if both know that the object of debate people in the house is Ray, he is not sure the house is still intact.

Because he knew they were aggressive. A little overkill sometimes for even minor problems. Especially when it comes to Ray.

Actually Rion prefers Ray who is always chatty and talkative. Because then, he could tell that Ray was okay. But the older he gets, the better Ray is at covering up what he feels. Until he could not distinguish the color that Ray emitted. There was no way he was okay when he became the object of the quarrel of the people around him.

"Yourselfish!"

Long live the Ray. Even now that Rion was still thinking about the child, it turned out that he had come up by himself. And his voice this time sounded really annoying. Rion's steps were heavy, what would he do with the short child at his doorstep?! Just look at it later!

Rion opened the door, and saw the big smile of a teenager carrying a stack of books in front of him.

"You what?!"

Hah, Ray too often hears such short questions. It needs something that is garnished with opinions and sounds a little longer than usual.

"Oh my goodness, Rion! Try her jutek in lessin a little, must be a lot of girls who stick with you!"

Rion sighed. If you ask why, it's because the child in front of him just walked into his room, without his permission. No one he ever let into his room. Except in certain circumstances.

"What are you doing?!" After he closed the door, somehow the annoyance that he had pined a few seconds ago disappeared. When he saw Ray sitting on the edge of his bed.

"Riona, I told you that your coldness needs to be changed. There will be no one who likes your sharp and piercing gaze. It's nothing, but it would be nice if you smile a lot let alone me!"

"Gue is still normal, don't let me smile let alone the same lo!"

The teen still grumbles indistinctly about Rion being like an ice cube or a living statue. But the look in his eyes was glaring, even Rion could catch that Ray was wearing his mask.

"For the third time, yes, I asked you what would you like?!" Ray chuckled. Then his voice just stopped. Letting the gap between them fill with the silence of the night.

"I want to study together!" His voice sounds sad. But that smile was able to cover it well.

"Gue can't learn together. Learn by yourself!" Rion sat down in front of his desk. And began to flip through the thick book in front of him. Unknowingly, Ray's voice did not re-adorn the room. In fact, even though Rion tried to be indifferent, he could not even read properly because he knew that the teenager behind him was covering up his pain by pretending to be an annoying person.

"Rion..." Presumably Ray deliberately made Rion to attribute his hearing to the sentence that came out of his mouth.

"Lo why didn't you say what?! I'm a rich fool who's never given a chance to know anything. Because all the problems that exist are left alone without me knowing that you are not okay. I'm bosen with your babbling!"

Stop there. Rion rarely used a tone this firm on someone. And he regretted saying that to Ray, because after that Rion didn't hear anything. The book that the boy was carrying was only used as a display near his body. Now he lay his back to Rion who was still sitting in front of the study table.

"I know, everyone is starting to get bored." Rion bit her lip. Somehow the voice made Rion tremble, and was afraid to go back to hearing what Ray said.

"I'm going to go..." Before Ray finished his sentence, Rion pushed the chair he was sitting on. It made a loud noise, which Ray might also be surprised by. His gaze was heavy on the teenager on the bed.

"Lo what's the talk?!! Going?! Don't talk unclear. All this time I've been patient to hear every chatter you really no use, and now you choose to go so?!" Ray hasn't turned around. But Rion was already unable to resist what he felt. As for Ray, he still had not moved from his place. Not even showing his face. Rion did not know, Ray desperately held back his tears. But still the clear circle decays. He didn't want to look weak in front of Rion. Therefore he used his long sleeves to cover his eyes, so that Rion did not know that he was actually injured.

"Why did you die?! I've been waiting for 5 years, and now you want to go again?!! You don't think about us, you don't think about Shan's brother, Kensie's sister to another!! Please don't be selfish this time!!"

"I'm not selfish!!!" That hoarse voice made Rion speechless. And realize that the teenager is not okay.

"With me gone, everyone will be fine. They won't fight. Sasha's father and aunt will be at peace, and Renand will have the affection of a parent like a child in general." Rion clucking.

"Where are you going?! You have no place but this house! Can't you go back to the orphanage?!" Ray got up from his place. His eyes were red, although there was no water there Rion knew that the boy had just cried.

"You do not realize?! I have no place here!"

"Keep me what do you think?! Brother Shan, Brother Kensie, Sam, Karel is Sean's brother?!!! You're talking brain pack!!" Ray's silent.

"Lo can't go...Where are you going?!"

"Just go!"

"Where are you going?!!"

"FOUR WHERE I CAN'T MEET YOU!!!"

...***...

Ray was afraid to enter the door in front of him. Many bad thoughts are starting to perch, and unknowingly the air around it is now also getting stuffy. He was too nervous to face the people inside. But something made her fear go away. The door opened when a few seconds ago Ray knocked on the door three times.

"Ray, what's the matter?!" Ray, tie his fingers. And finally he dared to look back at Karen who began to wonder.

"Om, can Ray come in?!" Actually, he has finished his job. There's nothing to lose if he answers Ray's question.

"Please come in."

Ray's steps felt heavy. Especially when Karen followed him from behind.

"Ray, sit!" Ray sat on the couch there. And the two ended awkwardly with quite a long pause.

"What do you want to talk about?! It looks really important, hm?!" Ray breathed.

"Om, sorry Ray interrupted me. It's busy right now?!"

"No, it's all done. We can talk for a long time!" Ray breathed once more. To be honest, he wouldn't talk to Karen for longer than 10 minutes. Because the conversation with Karen will drain her energy. Choose the right words so that no mistakes occur.

"Ray wants to say something..."

"Anyway!"

"Ray is leaving!" Those three words made Karen fixate. Karen couldn't think of anything positive if she saw Ray with a pale, lethargic face and pretty eyes. What did Ray think?!

"Wait wait! Ray, talk seriously this time! I'm not kidding!"

"That guy was less serious?!"

Karen exhaled, then rubbed her face. In his mind, Ray was just a child who did not understand the situation. Still unstable with his overflowing emotions and anger.

"Why all of a sudden?!"

"Ray is great, not a child anymore! Ray knows what problems and solutions are!"

"How far do you know?!"

"Virtually everything.maybe!" Karen got close to Ray, she was a strict person. Especially for his own children. But as hard as he was, he was still a human being with a conscience. He held onto Ray's shoulder, before saying things he had never told Karel and Kensie.

"You can't give up, it's not your fault. Everything will be fine!"

"But Ray wants to go!"

"Where are you going?!!!"

"Ray knows, Ray's a troublesome kid. But this time, Ray asked very much for Karen..." His voice was cut off before he resumed his sentence.

"Ray wants to go, to a place where Ray can't see you guys anymore!"