Regretting Twice.
not excited.

One week has passed, today there is a division of the group according to no absence, Gaesha and Aily turned out to be one group.

"children today father will give you the task of group and group in accordance absent, group 1 is absent 1 to 10 and group 2 is absent 11 to 20."obviously Mr. Jeje to the students.

gaesha's facial expression changed drastically that her start was happy, becoming moody.

He really does not like being close to Aily now, because of the nature of Aily's babble and haggardness that makes her not want to be close to the girl again, she does not want to take a headache.

Aily who realized that Gaesha was one group with her was heading towards Gaesha, then patted her shoulder gently, Gaesha turned her head back and there was Aily the girl she wanted to stay away from.

After seeing Gaesha who turned her head and turned her body to face her, Aily began their conversation.

"Gagaaa we are one group yeyyyyyyy!!!"aily said excitedly.

"Lilyy is very happy to be close to Gaga continues to hihii" continued Aily again, still with a cheerful face.

"hm"

gaesha answered briefly, Aily was confused, the smile that was so bright and sweet disappeared just like that, she saw the sour and unpleasant face of Gaesha in the eye, Aily sighed tiredly, and she looked at her heart, he knows now the man is trying to stay away from her and does not want to be close to her back, pain, Aily's heart aches.

with a feeling that was not careless, Aily smiled again, to cover the sad look on her face.

"Dragon?is that Gaga's answer?"

" don't get too close! just get used to it"

Gaesha answered, then sat back with a forward gaze to avoid talking to the girl.

Gaesha se will not care about the girl who is still silent, the existence of Aily se will no longer mean anything to Gaesha.

"humm.just Gaga.."

said Aily helplessly, while wiping her chest that was getting crowded, Aily se would not be able to swallow her own saliva because of the pain.

There was no response from Gaesha, making Aily move from Gaesha's place and return to her seat, feeling sad.

(huhh why the hell did I have to get out of control just now, when I didn't want to look too excited in front of Gaga, humm!Aily see it because of your actions you become ashamed yourself right!aishh!Aily sipallll)Aily cursed herself in the heart, she was so sorry for being too excited when it was certain Gaesha would be cold to her.

"you're okay, Aily's strong Aily can't cry, Aily's at school don't act embarrassing again, huftt"Aily let out a long sigh, to calm the tightness in her chest, she braced herself, she did not want to be ashamed anymore for crying at school.

"Aily's okay to lose Gaga like that, as long as Aily doesn't see Gaga close to another woman.."Aily said resignedly, while not feeling jealous Aily was still strong to live all her, even though Gaesha was still cold even colder than yesterday, Aily still expected the old Gaesha to return, as well as remembering their memories, even his feelings still remain the same.

Aily is very confused, she is confused to choose to hear her heart or her thoughts, if her mind tells her to stay away from Gaesha so as not to fall deeper, if the mind is not, but her heart wanted to always be close to Gaesha, accustomed to the affection and tenderness that Gaesha always gave, long ago, made Aily feel very lost, from losing the figure of a lover, from losing the figure of a lover, his loss of affection from the man, his loss of the figure of the second papa to Aily, this torments Aily, really he does not like this, very painful, his heart will not be formed, he said, but he always wanted to be near Gaesha, even though Aily knew what the consequences of his actions were.

Aily is tormented in love in silence, she wants to reveal to Gaesha, but seeing her cold attitude alone has made Aily unable to dwell.

Does Gaesha not realize how sincere Aily is?does being a sincere person always have to be tormented like this? where is justice in the world? why did the exam he was facing really make his life ruined? why should his feelings be sacrificed? wh why? what mistake he has done that makes it into a dark hole that has no end, even his mind is very tired.

can't he be happy? why be happy only for a moment, then will leave quickly and replaced with pain that is so heartbreaking.

Aily does not want this, which she wants only to be happy with the person she loves, but as her universe does not approve of their relationship, it hurts, does Aily not deserve to be happy?2 Years is not a short time, so many sweet and beautiful memories that end up hurting her heart when she remembers it.

doesn't Gaesha know how much she wants him back spoiled and cherished?

the affection that is supposed to warm and protect a person from pain, but instead creates a hole so deep and dark, that it will keep anyone trapped inside, it's hard to find a way out in the dark.

it was difficult even very difficult for Aily to get out of there, her formless broken heart, and tired inner being made her even more mired in that torture hole.

the pain was so heartbreaking, so traumatizing, so sorry, Aily regretted being a sincere girl, she was so sorry for being so deeply in love with Gaesha, the man who did not even care about her circumstances and feelings, disappointed was what Aily felt.

Aily knows Gaesha did this because of forced circumstances, but can't she treat her well?can't she appreciate Aily's existence?if Gaesha also felt what Aily felt, surely Gaesha would appreciate Aily more, not even like this.

now everything has changed, Gaesha who was not the Gaesha who is now, even Gaesha's profile photo has been changed, leaving Aily who still uses their profile picture couple, and who still uses the photo, is Gaesha really this tough on her?is there no pity?

only those closest to him could understand how he was feeling right now.

even her parents did not necessarily understand Aily's circumstances, and how sick she became Aily, only the person who had felt the most understood about it.

...when in love...

...Many are more concerned...

...conscience rather than logic...

...Without them knowing...

...They are the ones who have dug...

...Hole suffering...

...Which will eventually hurt them...

...Not all heart words are wrong...

...But not all logic is true...

...we must be able to manage the best options...

...There will be times when we use the word heart...

...so is logic...

so wise to choose the word of heart

...or logic...

because someday only you will

will suffer the consequences of your choices.

...CMIIW💐✨...