Secretly Married to an Actor
Feel Guilty

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Reynand immediately felt the emptiness when one by one Nayla clothes were removed from the wardrobe to be put in a suitcase. His heart suddenly became bitter. He could not think of what it would be like if Nayla was really taken away.

Hollowly, he was sure his heart would be empty again like it used to be. Back to how he was when he wasn't with Nayla. That woman is the heart of her life now. And, Mami Miska's desire to take Nayla away makes her feel like she's lost a life.

"I'm begging you...." Reynand lirih.

Mommy still doesn't flinch. He kept trying to ignore Reynand who was trying to hold him back.

"Mommy, please don't do this...." This time it was Nayla.

Mami spontaneously stopped her hand movements. "Mommy did this for you, Nay. My mom doesn't want Reynand to keep hurting you. You got slapped and then next? My mom couldn't imagine what would happen next.... Mommy just doesn't want to lose you." Lirih Mami quietly while continuing her activities to remove Nayla's clothes from the closet.

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Thus, Reynand could only sit on the sofa when Mami began to clean up and bring Nayla's belongings into the car to take home.

The circumstances that really make it hard to think. Her thoughts were as intense as back in the beginning when she was forced into marriage by grandfather. A marriage that he refused and did not want. Everything feels so fast. They got married and now they're made like this.

She thought her marriage to Nayla was happy enough. But apparently not yet, even they are still among the shadows of their parents.

Mama Adel understood Reynand's heartbreak. "It won't be long for Reynand, maybe Mami's just being emotional right now." stroking her son's shoulder.

"Mom don't understand how I feel." Sahut flat.

"Mom knows more than this Reynand." Verily he understood, understood more than Reynand knew. However, he had also experienced what was called farewell.

"Del, I want to talk to you for a second." That's how Mami asked for Mama Adel's time when she re-entered the house after putting things into the car.

"Yes, let's talk." Mama's words are serious.

Mami glanced at Reynand as if asking for time to let her and Mama be alone.

"I'll see Nayla for a minute." Reynand spoke without looking at Mami.

"Don't dawdle. Soon Mami will bring him home soon, Mami's decision can not be contested Reynand. After this please do not meet Nayla before you actually teach the girl a lesson. Pl-please.... Mami asked for help with you."

"It's up to you to hate Mami because of this. Mommy doesn't care." That is, the words that had come out earlier to break the heart of his daughter-in-law.

Sigh resigned, and Reynand silenced. He respects, has great respect for Mami. There was no hate in his heart just that this state of affairs he could not accept.

A moment later, Nayla was slightly surprised by the car door that opened abruptly. Looking at him, he found a familiar face staring at him with a soothing smile.

Reynand was still putting up her voice when she entered the car and sat down next to Nayla who was glaring at her with a sad look.

They stared for a while, then Nayla felt the hand lift to stroke her hair. While the other hand is used to stroke his cheek which still feels burning due to the slap earlier.

"You're pale." Two words were thrown from Reynand's mouth to describe Nayla's current state.

"Not eaten yet, right?" Reynand asked then while still stroking the fine hair slowly. "Later until home you eat yes, fear you are nauseous again like this morning."

"Still nauseous?" Ask Reynand again.

"No, the nausea was just this morning."

Nayla bit her lips which suddenly shook. Slowly, her tears spilled unexpectedly.

"I'm sorry...." Such was the word that came out from the movement of those trembling lips.

Reynand who had just been staring at Nayla's hair was suddenly jolted by the speech. He then tried to face the face of the plagues that he was not able to see.

"I was wrong...." The girl again.

"Naibel...." Sambar Reynand fast.

"I can't take care of myself...." Nayla looked down with tears on her thighs.

"Nay...."

"I can't defend myself against Airin...." Then the crying broke even more.

"You're not wrong, Nay, it's not your fault." Reynand said later.

"I'm too fragile...."

"You're perfect Nay...."

Nayla shook her head as if she did not accept what Reynand said.

"I've also made you scolded all out with Mami." Then pause for a moment. "Maybe it's better that we do this, I have to go far. If I'm always around you, I'll always have trouble."

"Nay, why are you talking like this?" I mean Reynand why Nayla thinks she's the problem-bearer.

"I've ruined your future, too."

Holy hooch! Reynand was getting so inane. What future? Who has influenced Nayla like this? Could it be Airin? Whatever that woman said.

I don't know, actually Nayla didn't want to believe it. Will remain the words that Airin said when scolding him earlier continue to ring in his ears.

"Reynand has goals, I know. I can't believe he married at such a young age. Because I'm sure it'll ruin his future."

"Did Airin say it was you?" Reynand.

Silently, Nayla lowered her head as if to show that the guess was correct in Reynand's eyes.

Reynand closed his eyes and understood.

Holy hooch! Reynand mengcelos, he very consciously spoke with Nayla must be careful. If not, this is how it is.

"I'm definitely not happy to be married to me."

Reynand was silent looking at Nayla with a pushy look. Oh my God Naylaaaaa, let alone this. Reynand was completely inexhaustible with his wife's way of thinking.

So what Reynand does next is kiss the lips slowly. "I'm happier after I married you. I found happiness with you Nay."

Nayla started again. "But since marrying me...."

"Since marrying you I've been happy, there's nothing wrong with our marriage, dear."

Nayla looked down, but it wasn't like that. He felt that he was indeed carrying a big problem in Reynand's life. His way of thinking led him to think like that.

"Don't blame yourself anymore. I don't want to hear that. I love you, I love you. You are my life now. Don't make me miserable by those words."

Oh my.... Nayla was bowed deeper and deeper by that speech. The sincere words of one whom he had feared most.

Then Nayla tried to answer. "I love you too but...."

Reynand quickly kissed those lips. "I know and there's no word but...."

Nayla raised her head with round eyes. "I also love you very much." he cried again.

"I know Nay, I know everything you feel." Then Reynand hugged the body tightly. "Tomorrow quickly I'll pick you up." After he solved the problem with Airin. "Well, tonight you're gonna catch up."

"Eum...." His leg was tightly embraced.

Take off their embrace for a moment. "Let's give me permission, I'm your husband. If you go to your parents' house you have to give permission first with your husband." then Reynand tried to smile.

Nayla shook her head slowly, she instead re-hugged Reynand even tighter as if she did not want to let go. The hug made Reynand stunned and he returned to return the hug just as tightly.

"Later at night means sleeping alone." Nayla began to reminisce sadly.

"Can, there's a bolster for nemenin." Reynand tried to calm herself down.

"But the bolster can't disturb me to sleep."

"I'm going to disturb you to sleep again soon." Reynand kissed the top of the head slowly.

"Later if grandpa comes home to say I'm sorry." Then the tears flooded Reynand's shirt.

"When Grandpa comes home you're home again, Nay...." Sahut Reynand.

They kept hugging for so long, trying to dive in and permeate each other's feelings. All they know is that they're still together and actually want to be together.

Nayla's head suddenly fell weakly on Reynand's boat. "I'm sleepy." he said slowly.

Looking up at that sleepy face. "Sleep on my lap, Nay."

"But Mommy will take me home."

"Just a minute.. sleep a little, baby."

Nayla really felt an incredible drowsiness. Even his eyelids began to slowly clench.

So Nayla immediately threw herself into Reynand's lap. Slowly he began to close his eyes as he felt Reynand's hand gently stroke his head.

Nayla was tired. His heart and soul are tired. He wants to sleep for a while now. I hope everything can be forgotten.

Long time they were in that position, it seemed like the figure who saw from a distance was deliberately giving a long time.

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This is just the story of two human children who are full of shortcomings. I don't tell stories of extraordinary creatures here.

So the point is there is no perfect human gangs. No one can measure someone's feelings. Everyone's feelings can't be hit flat. (by the way what the hell?)

Ah ah, Happy Reading tree!