Self-Esteem Sold
Past Trauma Steven

"You've hurt your heart, papa, how long will you realize?? are you waiting for papa to die and are you satisfied??

Mama's been dead a long time, do you think you'll forgive your actions?

Enough Steve, don't hurt papa anymore, he's already sorry and repent.

For years, my father regretted his actions until he became very ill.

I hope there's no day I see you

Regretting later in the day" said Jhon smashed his brother's body rough then immediately went following his papa who was brought by his men

Steve fell down, he stared at the passing of his brother, although all this time he hated Alex, but deep in his heart he missed Alex who used to love him very much.

He just can not forgive Alex for making his papa, his mother committed suicide because he could not stand the attitude of Alex who likes to play women.

Steve cried like a child, Jhon's words touched his deepest ego, but he could not accept the departure of his mother and continued to blame Alex

"Maaaa, Steve misses mama" steven cried while hugging his knee, like a small, fragile child

The events he saw as a child made his own trauma for Steven.

The trauma also triggers her to hate women and want to make any woman she sees on her feet.

He hated all women and judged them as equally disgusting as all the women he had ever seen, like his papa mistress.

Seduce, flirt just for the sake of money and the comfort of life.

While in the vehicle

A middle-aged man looked gloomy, his face displayed a deep sadness, his occasional tears dripping uninvitedly soaking his cheeks that had started to wrinkle.

the prowess and good looks of his youth slowly faded.

Now he was just a lonely old man, who missed the youngest son he loved so much, unfortunately his youngest son hated him so much.

Alexander looked out of the window of his car, his gaze staring far away as if flying into his past.

several times he heard a heavy sigh.

closing his eyes but with a wrinkled forehead, he sewn his temples that felt throbbing, the temples are covered with hair that has started to whiten all.

"How can the boy forgive my past mistakes, I realize that I have been traumatizing him deeply, but I've been getting my reward, I've lost the light of my life, the woman who meant so much in my life, who lost the child I loved the most, kept me away as if I were a very dangerous infectious disease.

Now that I have not much more time, this disease continues to gnaw me, whether death will pick me up , and I was afraid that when it came I could no longer recognize him and my regrets deepened" Alex murmured inwardly

Alexander Gerald is a wealthy man, from a Javanese mother and a father of European blood so that he has a beautiful level even at his age which is said to be no longer young.

Flash Back's

Alex married a Chinese Indonesian woman, beautiful, meek and patient.

the Sholeha woman who always obeyed her husband.

Alexander is an authoritative handsome man who is disinclined and surrounded by beautiful women, but the man now looks fragile at eating age

losing the most loved woman makes her life a mess, it is not the fault of the woman chose to commit suicide, whoever her woman might do the same if faced with the life lived.

A household full of tears and tears, hurt and disappointed, humiliated and devastated by the betrayal of her husband.

His beloved husband often flocked to women and worse still openly brought the affair home and made love in the house they occupied.

The house that was expected as a paradise for his children even became like hell for his life, with all his strength trying hard to be patient and survive for the sake of their two hearts.

but Meisya was wrong, he thought that little Steven who was still sitting on a kindergarten bench did not know what his father did.

Little Steven becomes a quiet and moody person, he is very difficult to talk to, he will only talk if Meisya, his mother who invites him to talk.

Little Steven grew up holding a grudge on his papa, he very often saw the quarrels of his parents who ended up seeing the mother he loved crying and injured.

day by day Steven's hatred deepened for Alexander.

He saw for himself with his eyes as his papa brought the cheap women home.

He saw for himself how his papa treated them and showered them with matter, all he saw for himself.

Little Steven could only stare hatefully as he clenched his tiny hands and ran to the park and cried.

The little guy who is considered Meisya has not been able to digest the situation turned out to be wrong, his son has an IQ above average, he always tried to comfort his mother when she saw her mother cry.

Until the second grade of elementary school, Steven was able to do the problem for junior high school children, a proud achievement.

Both of her parents should be proud and supportive of her,

both of his parents were too busy with their lives.

his father was busy with women and his business without caring about the development of steven

While his mother was busy with her sadness at being betrayed.

No one cares about him.

Until one day, her mom asked her permission and that was the last time she could talk to her mom,

the woman chose to end her life by hanging herself in the room, fully dressed as a bride, the clothes she had worn when she married Alexander.

putting on her pretty face before she chose to end her vacant life.

Before ending his life, Meisha

leave behind ink scratches.

the last sentence that described his heart's deepest feelings

...That day you asked me to be your companion forever, ...

from that moment on I entrust my future and my life to you, my priest, the jewel of my heart.

But right now you choose to forget me, my heart, my soul, my future gone

but my love will remain there, I cannot take it back

what is life without a soul,

I don't want to live like this anymore.

you have taken away all my pride, my love, my sacrifice and my trust.

If my departure makes you happy, then let me go....

good bye, bye, 

may you find the happiness you have been looking for all this time

Meissya