SERINA: I'M AN EXTRA
PROLOGUES

By holding back the dam of tears just waiting for time to come out and flood my cheeks, I stared at the scene right before my eyes at this moment. Two people who are hugging friendly formalize their relationship.

Several times I hit my chest slowly to reduce the pain that is getting longer and more difficult just to breathe.

The tears that I had been trying to hold back with all my might began to melt shamelessly as the two people were hugging it began to walk towards me with their hands linked to each other.

The woman removed the link of her hand from the man who had walked with her since

Then the hand he stretched out to remove the melted tears that might have damaged the thin makeup on my face

The woman smiled happily. And of course, that smile managed to add many times the level of tightness in the chest that I had been struggling with

After being able to get rid of a few tears that made my vision a little blurry, he started to open his mouth and say something

“Serina, how do you cry anyway, what's up?” the woman asked me in her soft voice. Perhaps at this moment he was astonished to see the unceasing tears flowing from my swollen eyes. Though this was her happy moment, but why would I even cry so messily like this?

I just kept quiet, choosing not to answer the woman's question. My mind was too scared, too many things were running around in my head. My tongue is too faint just to answer the question that the woman asked a moment ago

I was silent for a long time, letting the woman's tender hands painstakingly stroke my back quietly hoping that it would be effective in easing my growing cries

A moment I saw the two looking at each other, looking confused how to serve me which even more intense issue

I bit my lower lip. Forcing my eyes to no longer shed tears that would make me look even more chaotic in front of them. Forcing away the tightness that had so far perched on my chest that it made it difficult for me just to breathe

I held my head up, looking at the two humans currently standing before me in turn

I painstakingly pulled both corners of my lips, looking at the bead of the female eye in front of me who was currently looking at me with a thin smile

“Neither Saem I am not crying, I am just happy that finally you can meet a good and sincere partner dear to you” after successfully completing my sentence, I looked down again, staring at my new pair of shoes that papa bought a few days ago as souvenirs when returning home from a business visit abroad

My tears broke again, unable to see the man embrace and look at Saemi with a loving gaze that he had never given anyone

The man smiled, his eyes turned to look at me. Staring at me who was still crying as much as possible and looked very pitiful

He moved his legs to narrow the distance between me and her. His hand stretched out, giving a handkerchief that a moment ago he took out of his pants pocket

“Thank you Ser, if it wasn't for you we wouldn't be able to get to this point" The man paused his sentence, he smiled again showing the two crescent moons that have been my candles all this time

'"Thank you for always supporting and helping our relationship"

My chest was getting claustrophobic, but I still forced myself to raise my face and smile again. I stared at the beautiful bead that belonged to the man in front of me. The eye bead that made me melt not only at our first meeting at school, but also still made me melt even after he had officially become someone else's property

“Iya, I also take it easy if you see you are happy. But you have to promise to take care of Saemi. He is my best friend and brother, do not let even you hurt his feelings. Especially until it makes him cry”, I said with a slightly vibrating voice holding back sobs while erasing rough tears that were inexplicably endless

The man smiled ever wider, revealing not only two crescent moons on his face, but also a sweet dimple perched on his left cheek

While holding tightly Saemi's hand, she opened her mouth again “Iya Ser, I promise I will take good care of Saemi. I promise I won't let Saemi let out a single drop of tears other than happy tears”

I just nodded, not intending to reply to the man before me with words

My head feels heavy, my eyes are getting hotter. I wanted to scream and run away from this situation. But my legs feel weak, only able to concentrate the burden of my broken body so as not to limb to the ground

The woman came back closer, clutching my armless body in her arms that always felt comfortable. He gently stroked my hair that began to extend “Duh Serina, already dong do not cry continuously. I do’ain you can cepet meet the prince of your dreams. I'm sure people as good and sincere as you will be met by God with a good partner also”

Yes, and the prince of dreams that I hope to be with me as a life partner is the one who is currently beside you as your lover

The man I have always told you so enthusiastically is the man who a moment ago has expressed his love for you sincerely

I'm not a good guy Saem. I'm the bad guy who secretly intended to derail your relationship. I am a selfish person who once tried to keep you away from the man who is currently looking at you with loving feelings.

I am not that kind of person who faithfully always helps and supports your relationship. I'm just a greedy person who always gets jealous whenever he treats you better and sweeter than he gives me

And now I'm confused with myself Saem, am I crying because I'm happy to see you finally being with him or am I crying because I still can't completely let him be your partner

And now my heart is also confused Saem, do’a what should I tell god about your relationship? Is it true if I ask that your relationship continues to last? Or should I ask God to let your relationship end soon?

Even so, I'm still happy to see you smiling that wide tonight. I am happy because my only friend and brother who for many years had to suffer and always hid himself from the world, is now united by God with someone who is amazingly good and able to love you for who you are

I admit, it is difficult for me to pray to God so that your relationship will last forever. However, it is not difficult for me to mendo’ so that the sweet loose smile engraved on your face tonight can continue to look forever

It turns out, this is not my story. My role is only to complement your love journey. May God always bless the happiness in your life Saem, I thank you!