SERINA: I'M AN EXTRA
THE MISSION DID NOT FAIL!
Alea and Arka asked for permission to return home to mom after a white clock hanging on the wall of the living room had shown at one in ten minutes. Of course they got permission to come home from mama after their stomachs were filled up because mama kept forcing Alea and Arka to come to lunch with us at home with the threat that they would not be allowed go home before finishing the rice and side dishes that you have served on the dining table
After escorting Alea and Arka to the front gate of the house, now I was busy helping my mother to clean up the remaining side dishes that were still on the dining table and wash the dirty dishes and glasses that we used during lunch
Both mama's hands nimbly smeared the thick foam that came out of the dishwashing sponge and to sweep away any food stains that stuck to the dish. While my job is to be a mom's assistant, rinsing the furniture that has been successfully smeared with soap and then wiping it dry and shiny before arranging the dishes and glasses back into the closet
While working as it is today, there will only be the sound of water gurgling from the faucet hole that falls on the body of the plate or glass that is heard. Because indeed mama really does not like to have to divide her focus to work by chatting. According to mama, the work we are doing will never be finished if we work on it with a focus that is split between working with chatting. For that, my mother always told me that chatting is a hard prohibition to do while working. And because my mom always said that to me from childhood, then now I'm used to the culture that you create not to chat before the work that is being done is done
Mama took the last dirty plate in the laundry tub, apply soapy foam to each side to make sure there will not be a single piece of dirt that is missed to be cleaned before handing the plate full of foam to me. After that, mama rinsed the foam attached to her hand using conscious tap water so it never stopped flowing. Drying his wet hands using a small towel in the corner of the kitchen because papa has not bought a new hand dryer after the old machine was damaged a few months ago
Mama took her foot to the dining table located right next to the kitchen, sitting her body on one of the chairs there before talking “Ser, you ready to eat lunch for Saemi gih. Because there were friends you had lunch at home, Saemi so can not follow lunch with us” his speech was interrupted by his activity that was sipping water that he just moved from the teapot into a clean glass in front of him
“If you don't take your lunch now, mama is afraid her stomach disease will recur” continued mama again after sipping one glass of water out of the glass
I just nodded, wiping my wet hands using the small towel in the corner of the kitchen just like my mom did a while ago. Take one plate complete with a spoon and fork from the closet. Take her to the table where you put the rice cooker and fill it with a barrel of rice that is still pumping hot steam. Take two pieces of shawl meat that was deliberately set aside for Saemi from the hood serving on the kitchen table. Lastly, don't forget I pulled out the radish kimchi that mom made specifically for Saemi two days ago from the fridge to perfect Saemi's lunch dish
Afterwards, I took a small tray from the closet. Arrange dishes that are filled with rice complete with meat dishes and radish kimchi on top. Grabbing a clean glass on the kitchen table then fill it with water to the brim before moving the glass on a dark brown tray in front of me to accompany a plate of rice complete with side dishes the fork and spoon are on the right and left side which I have prepared first
Arriving at the door of Saemi's room, I stopped my steps for a while, staring at the door of her room that was still tightly closed. Remove one of my handrails on a tray of food to knock on the door in front of me “Saem...This is Serina, I bring you lunch. I'm in ya”
No answer was heard from Saemi's room. It's possible that Saemi is still asleep because she is tired of crying too much because of my actions a while ago.for that, for that, I decided to turn the doorknob of Saemi's room and enter it without having to get permission from Saemi
My guess is one hundred percent accurate. Because after successfully opening the door of Saemi's room, the first sight caught by both my eyes was Saemi who was fast asleep with a thick hairy blanket that almost enveloped her entire body except her head. The position was still exactly the same when I came out of this room and left it a while ago. Maybe at this time his body is too tired goods only used to change his sleeping position
I closed Saemi's room door again. I put my feet up to get closer to him. Put the brown tray that I had been holding using both hands on the nightstand on the right side of Saemi's bed
Right now his face really looks very exhausted. I bowed my body on Saemi's bed, stroking her dark hair that looked messy. Tidying up the hairdresser blocking her adorable face and tucking it on her earlobe. I whispered an sorry word back. Despite knowing that the apology will never reach Saemi because she is still sleeping very fast
I exhaled heavily, feeling the heart to wake her up from the dream world that might have been a thousand times happier for Saemi as well. However, considering Saemi's stomach disease which could have been crushed due to late lunch I immediately got rid of the feeling of unbearability in me and rushed to move my hand to pat her cheek gently. Trying to open Saemi from her long journey in dreamland
“Saemi woke up..” I said in a soft voice while patting her cheeks slowly using my palm. There was no response shown by Saemi. His eyes were still closed, his slightly open mouth occasionally letting out faint-sounding snores
“Saemi let's get up for a while…. Here I bring lunch for you” not just patting his cheek gently using my palm, this time I tried the more extreme way by opening the blanket that still faithfully wrapped his body to provide warmth and then shake his body by exerting all the energy that was on both hands
Saemi just took a long look, before finally changing her sleeping position to tilt to the left and behind me. While his hand neatly pulled back the blanket that I just opened to re-wrap and provide warmth to the body of the fill
Feeling out of my mind, I decided to use my last weapon that never once failed while waking Saemi from her slumber. My hand nimbly took the plate that was above the nightstand. Inhaling the delicious aroma of hot rice puffings are also pieces of rendang meat and radish kimchi served on top
At first glance I looked at Saemi's back who was behind me. Displays a smirk that I rarely show anyone. I stood up from my seat, walking around Saemi's bed so I could see her face still asleep. Approaching a plate of rice complete with side dishes in front of me on Saemi's nostril
“Nghhhhh....” a long sigh returned from Saemi's mouth shortly after I deliberately placed the plate I was holding with one hand into her nostrils.
Saemi turned her back. His eyes that had been closed started to open slowly. He rubbed his eyes slowly, still feeling alien to the light that returned into his eyes
“I brought lunch for you” said me while returning Saemi's gaze while grabbing a spoon with a fork that was still on the tray and put it on the plate
I took a glass of water that was also still on the nightstand, handed it to Saemi and told her to drink some sips of water in the glass “You had lunch first so that the stomach does not recur, finished it just slept again”
Saemi nodded, grabbed a glass of water from my hand and gulped it down until half was left. Tapa needs to wait twice my cue or order to eat, Saemi's hand has nimbly robbed the plate in my hand. Spoon the rice with the radish kimchi inside and immediately put it in the mouth
I smiled, looking at Saemi who was greedily chewing every grain of rice on her plate. Raise my feet on the bed and join me to lay my back on the backrest at the end of Saemi's bed
“Saem...” I called his name slowly, my eyes staring blankly ahead without looking back at him
No answer came out of Saemi's mouth, because her mouth was still full of rice and her teeth were busy smoothing the food in her mouth
I opened my voice again, turning a little to Saemi who was beside me
“I'm sorry I am Saem” I said I was full of regret to Saemi for making Saemi have to return to face her trauma a while ago
Saemi was still listening to every word that came out of my mouth. His gaze focused on the rice as well as the side dish on the plate, while his hands were busy scooping the contents of the plate before putting it into his mouth to chew
I took a deep breath, lowered my gaze at the furry blanket that currently only covered Saemi's toes before starting to talk again “How can I make sure I learn together at home, you so have to experience your trauma again rich earlier” I gave a pause to my sentence, raised a little head to look into the eyes of Saemi who has now stopped her eating activities “I promise, I promise, after this I will no longer make strangers play at home. So you want Saem to excuse me?”
After finishing my sentence, I heard the sound of Saemi's rough gasps which at the moment had completely taken her eyes off the plate she was in hand staring at me “Ser, Ser, you don't have to continue to feel guilty about me. I actually know that you suddenly entered the room not because of confusion and wrong entry into the room. Because actually all of that is a mission that you have planned, right? because all this time you really want me to meet your friends, know them to slowly release my trauma I” I was jolted to hear the sentence coming out of Saemi's mouth. How could he be that sensitive and realize that the incident that just happened a moment ago was a mission I had planned with my friends? But as much as possible I controlled my facial expression to make it look as if I did not understand what Saemi had just said
“So I was really shocked because suddenly there was a stranger who entered my room. My bad memories of a few years ago came back inside my head and scared me half to death thinking that terrible events would come back to me.Saemi” gave me pause. Taking a deep breath before continuing his sentence “But you see right? now I'm okay Ser, I'm not afraid anymore because you just went in and hurt me. Even now you are still there beside me, nemenin me and will not let me feel scared again rich earlier”
Saemi averted her eyes, looking straight ahead with a blank look “After the incident I so thought to reconsider your words at that time Ser. When you say whatever choice I will make, you will always be there beside me to keep protecting me from the bad guys. Talk that you have proven a while ago”
My gaze grew fixed on Saemi's bead eyes. Feeling guilty and happy because in the end Saemi saw the good intentions I did for her. While both of my ears continued to open wide, preparing to return to listening to the sentence that will come out of Saemi's mouth “For now I am not ready if you force to be completely separated from rasatrauma I Ser. But like what you've always said lately that I can't keep running and hiding from the feeling of something traumatizing me like now”
“I have to start to dare to rise from this fear. Start to re-open the water to show myself to the world because I realize not forever my parents, I know, your parents and you will forever lend a hand to help or protect me”
“As you once said also at that time if not all humans in this world are evil rich. The proof is that there are rich good people you, imo, samchon, eomma, appa who are always beside me, also your friends who want to help you make a mission that you have arranged in order to help me escape from my trauma”
“So after the last few days I consider carefully, the amount I will continue to take care of you also your friends to help me Ser”
“Starting from the person closest to you, I want to slowly reopen myself”
“And if the help you had bargained for me a few years ago is still valid, I want to take that opportunity as a foothold to get back up. I want to meet and acquaintance with them, even if they are willing and you permit me to be friends with them Ser”
I smiled broadly at all the words that came out of Saemi's mouth, pouring myself into her arms that always felt warm and comfortable. In my heart I was constantly screaming in joy. Happy because the mission that a while ago I considered failed turned out to be running as smoothly and successfully as this