SERINA: I'M AN EXTRA
SAEMICS

“Oh yes Saem, same eomma as you tomorrow stop here first right before leaving for airport?” ask me to Saemi while putting pieces of watermelon served by my mother a moment ago into the mouth

After hugging each other to let go of longing on the terrace of the house, Saemi and I decided to continue our activities in the house. And here we are now, sitting on the velvet carpet of the middle room with various pieces of fruit, he said, pastries and some kinds of chips are presented neatly on the table complete with a large box of guava juice presented neatly on the table. Who else prepared all this if not mom?

“Iya Ser, later eomma same appa will first come here before leaving for the airport” Saemi replied while reaching for a box containing guava juice on the table and pouring the contents into a glass. After the glass was full, he began to gulp the contents until half was left

“You must have asked us to be usherin here first because I already miss the same I was...” my god while pinching the gnarly cheek of Saemi.

Getting my treatment, Saemi didn't revolt. He just laughed and pinched hard on my cheek using his big, padded finger

After removing the pinches from each of our cheeks, Saemi took a slow breath before she finally opened her voice while looking deeply at me “Hahaha, she said, ever since my family moved two years ago, we have rarely met Ser. Most we met just fitting lebaran aja”

Saemi showed a knotty smile on her cute face. The knot smile that always managed to make me and my extended family sick every time I saw it

I intend to respond to his sentence, before he opens his mouth again when I have not had time to say any sentence from my mouth

“Oh yes, I have something for you Ser” he said while giving a medium-sized paper bag with a rose motif to me

“What is Saem?” I was curious when I received the paper bag from Saemi's hand. I quickly opened the paper bag and peeked at something inside

“Not from a famous author, but I see many who give a good review. So I bought one for you” said Saemi with a hand that is currently busy grabbing the choco cookie on the table

Saemi was amazed to see my enthusiasm when removing objects from the paper bag of his gift

With sparkling eyes I stared at the thing in my hand right now. A romance novel that is not too thick, the work of a newcomer writer who lately is being discussed because of his writing style that seems relaxed but makes opium for his readers

“Wah, thank you very much Saem. You still want me to read romance novels?” I asked by staring at Saemi in disbelief

Three years later we parted ways, but he still remembers clearly the things I love. Like this novel for example

Can't bear to hold haru, I also rushed hugging Saemi's stocky body from the side which made him chuckle amused while trying to take off my arms

“How can I forget? You really like all day hanging out in the room to read novels while still Junior High, until I ask to be sent for ice cream in the store in front of the complex aja you cuekin” said Saemi again chuckled while squinting her eyes my captain

Hearing Saemi's protest, I also chuckled while re-hugging Saemi's body which indeed felt very comfortable to embrace

“Hahaha, yes too. Even though it has been diced all day, you will wait for me in the corner of the room while nagging until I want you to buy ice cream” said I also chuckled to remember our days in the past

I raised my head, looking at Saemi who was still busy chewing on her mouth potato chips before coming back to say something from my mouth

“If I'm honest, I miss SMP Saem” I don't know, because it got carried away unconsciously my mouth even issued a sentence that Saemi did not want to hear or discuss because it can bring back memories that Saemi really wanted to forget

But I can't help my mouth to continue my sentence either. Because right now I really miss those moments, the moment where Saemi always smiles cheerfully with her innocent face which is very adorable

Saemi exhaled heavily, she glanced at me briefly before turning her gaze to the empty glass on the table

While smiling wryly, Saemi started to respond to my sentence “I mean Ser?”

I understand very well that Saemi is currently acting foolishly by pretending not to understand my words. Saemi clearly knew exactly what each of my words meant. He was just giving me a code so I could stop this chat immediately and change other topics that need to be discussed

I let go of my embrace on Saemi's body. Reversing that stocky body to look at me so that I can understand every word that I will return to say

“I miss Saemi who used to be, Saemi first grade junior who always whined for company to buy roadside snacks after school even though she would be scolded by mama if caught buying snacks carelessly" I slightly paused my sentence while breathing a deep breath

"I also miss the figure of Saemi. Saemi is cheerful and always comforts me whenever I get bad grades at school” I continue my sentence while staring in Sami's bead eyes. Right now I am very aware that the sentence I just uttered will change Saemi's mood for the worse

Even so, I still could not stop my mouth just like that. I'm already tired. I've been so tired of seeing Saemi these past three years.

Not only pity, I also feel sick to see Saemi who is always locked away at home and hide from the world. Spend every day just learning, playing and staying at home

I'd really like to see Saemi return to Saemi three years ago. Saemi who always smiles and gives happiness to anyone near her just by looking at her sweet smile

“ Saemi just flinched hearing my words. He did not take his gaze away from my eyes at all, but he just remained silent with his eye bags that seemed to tremble a little

“I miss the days we used to Saem. We used to watch movies in the cinema, go to the spa to the salon until scolded by mama for spending money, buy clothes in the mall, go to the ice cream shop, go to the ice cream shop, buy a book or hang out all day at the cafe after exams” said I gently try to be able to enter and remove the wound from Saemi's heart by telling her the happy things we've been through in the past

“Saem, not all bad boys like them--”

“Udah Ser enough, you know that I do not like you to discuss the problem of ginian again” Saemi interrupted my sentence with a vibrating voice. Tears that he had been holding back had already washed his cheeks

I cupped her cheeks with both hands. Whether since when, tears have also flowed profusely from both my eyeballs “Saem, I am rich gini because I love you. I want to see a cheerful Saemi like first. I do not want to see you who can only hide yourself all day at home. I don't want to see Saemi who is constantly sad and down because of the actions of losers like them Saem. I want to see the happy smile that is engraved sweetly on your face again Saem, not the knotty smile or the wry smile that you always show the last two years this”

“There is me Saem. There's me, there's mama, there's mama, there is a papa who will always be beside you and ready to defend you whenever if there are people who are evil you” I continue my sentence with sobs that I can no longer hold

“See me Saem--” I said still with Saemi's face cupped which is currently turning her eyes in another direction

“I said enough Ser. The one thing you need to take before you continue your words is that you are not me Ser. No matter how hard you try to put yourself in my shoes you can never really understand what I think Ser is, because you are not me. Because you are not Saemi who fuss over those horrible days directly!” snapped Saemi when I hadn't finished my sentence

“If you deliberately discuss this issue so that I change my decision, you just waste your time Ser, because until anytime my decision will remain the same. I am more comfortable living life as it is now” he said as he stood up from his sitting position without looking me in the eye. I don't know, maybe right now he's really mad at me

“Eomma has already found me a private teacher, and I will school here from tomorrow” he said again while passing leaving me who was still looking down at pieces of watermelon that did not look tempting again in my eyes

I could only remain silent until Saemi's back was no longer visible to my eyes. However, what Saemi said was true. As hard as I tried to understand her position, I would never really be able to feel the hardships Saemi had felt.

I was never in her position, and until now I would never be able to understand Saemi's feelings. Because I'm Saerina, not Saemi.

Even so, it doesn't mean that right now I don't care about him. It was precisely because I cared so much for Saemi that I took pains to persuade her not to dissolve into adversity.

Just because of the irresponsible actions done by a friend at his new school, he lost the confidence and courage to show himself to the world. I don't know, why would I call a creature like that Saemi's friend? The name of the creature is still too subtle to even mention the unethical man who has snatched a sweet smile from Saemi.

...***...

“Ser, what did you say to Saemi? How come mama called him not to come out of the room?” asked mama with busy hands arranging side dishes into serving plates

For a moment I stopped my activity arranging dishes and spoons on the table to answer the question mama “Serina did not say anything kok ma”

“Serina just said the same Saemi if Serina kangen see Saemi who used to” I continued my sentence answering my questions while walking to the kitchen to take papa's favorite oxtail soup and move it to the dining table

Hearing my answer, Mama stopped her activities. Staring at me for a while before hitting me softly using the rice pitcher in his hand “Serina! kan mama has told you not to talk weird first with Saemi”

“Serina also does not mean to talk about the same problem Saemi ma, was Serina to the atmosphere so the release of” elakku to mama to defend herself. But indeed my words are not entirely wrong, because I am indeed being carried away by the atmosphere so that I unconsciously hurl such sensitive sentences at Saemi

“Just from now on you do not discuss the strange first same Saemi. Are you not kasian? He would like to be left with the transfer of his parents to Korea, when you want to add his mind Ser” mama continued his scolding to me, also his activity moving rice from the rice cooker into the basket

“Iya ma, Serina apologizes” I said regretfully while looking down. What else can I say but apologize when my mom is nagging?

“Yaudah if that's so sorry to Saemi and ask her to make a quick drop for dinner” said my mother who is currently busy with her phone in her hand. Maybe you want to call papa to ask how many minutes papa will get home

I just nodded after hearing my mother's orders and rushed to Saemi's room next to mine on the second floor.

Actually I also feel guilty for Saemi for bringing up a very sensitive matter for her this afternoon. I was also confused how to apologize to her and persuade her not to be angry with me anymore.

“Saem, can I enter?” ask me while knocking slowly the guest room door which from today has turned into Saemi's room

“Iya enter aja, do not I lock the door” replied Saemi from inside the room. I don't know from her voice, it seems Saemi is no longer angry with me

After getting permission from Saemi, I opened the door and slowly walked into the room. I saw Saemi sleeping with her whole body wrapped in a blanket with my doraemon.

“Saem you're still mad at me? sorry for me about last afternoon, I promise I will not be gouging that problem again in front of you” said me slowly while sitting my body on the bed

“I'm not angry Ser” muttered Saemi by not switching from her position

“If you are not angry, now you wake up. We had dinner downstairs, mama had already made oxtail soup for us” said I tried to persuade Saemi. As long as you know, no matter how angry Saemi is she will never be able to refuse food. Especially the food made by my mother. That's what made Saemi grow up to be the girl with the full body and adorable chubby cheeks she is today

That's right what I said just now. Not a few seconds after I said oxtail soup, Saemi immediately opened her blanket and tidied her hair before finally walking out of the room and leaving me who was currently laughing a little look at her behavior.

“Basic children have no heart, how can they hurt human hearts as well and as adorable as Saemi” I said in my heart before standing up from my seat and walking after Saemi