Sonata No Kioku
18-The other side of the young lady Paganini

Kanzaki locks himself in a private room near a garbage dump. Even though I was left far behind while chasing after her, I've known about it since going towards the garbage disposal. The door of my private room (which had been captured fairly) was indeed tightly shut, but the lock Kanzaki put on seemed open. Then he's hiding inside.

I stood right in front of the door of the private room for a very long time, and began to strategize.

"Why am I still here? I shouldn't care about my classmates. But if it's gini, what should I do? Apologizing? The reason is that there's no apology." I thought.

I should've died in his private room and returned to class for lessons. But, somehow my legs feel difficult to be invited to move from here.

At the same time, the second lesson bell rang. I must be late for class now, because I don't want to be punished I also choose to skip once. Maybe this won't be a big deal, after all my misunderstanding with Kanzaki is more important because it concerns the peaceful life of my High School!!

My right hand, moist with sweat, started grabbing the doorknob and twisting it with a little force. Inside, Kanzaki had already built a fortress to hide his figure by sliding chairs and sofas covering him.

As I walked and shifted the man-made fortress, he was only pensive with a blank look while hugging his two trembling legs.

"You really don't love stuff. I purposely lined that chair and sofa as a tofu mattress! I bought it very expensive!!" I said while shaking my waist.

Kanzaki's position hasn't changed so much. But he moved slightly to tear down his fortress while throwing a sitting pillow over my face. I swiftly tidied up the original arrangement of the chairs and sofa, then sat down.

"Why are you here again?" Ask her in a soft voice.

"I? I'm here to skip the boring lesson. But unexpectedly we even met here. A very—harming coincidence!" My answer.

"lik! You lied again! Why didn't you tell me earlier, that the soundproof function of this room isn't perfect?!" With a red face.

"Well that's right, since it's you who never asked" I replied casually.

*Blue!*

Instantly my face was hit by the shoes Kanzaki threw.

"Sick tofu! Why the hell do you have to be so rude? The world won't end if your play is heard!"

"It's not so!"

He hugged his legs again and bent his head until he touched his knees. My feelings suddenly became unpleasant to communicate with her again, and now I have to what?

"Hey, Kanzaki-san" I tried to open a broken conversation in the middle.

"What?" He snorted without turning to look at me.

"You were successful at a young age. You have also released original CDs and covers that have been known to all musicians of the world with violin games"

"Then?"

"Who forbid you to play and learn a new instrument like the guitar? It's weird, isn't it, if it's true that you're like a doll"

Suddenly Kanzaki raised his head. "Don't talk like you know everything!"

"Hem, that's just my analysis. If you don't argue with me, that means it's true, right?"

"N-no! That's where it's possible, though,.... Right"

The voice that began with a burning anger, shriveled because it was melted by the reality that he was trying to hide.

"Never bear all problems on your own. If you want, just tell me. Who knows I can help, because I don't know how to read someone's mind"

This awkwardness reminds me of our first meeting at the junkyard and the day he moved to this school. Again and again he just fell silent, as if letting me think I should interfere and worry about him or not.

"—if I tell you, will you help me?" Ask her.

"Why is she crying?" Thought.

"—if I tell you all the thoughts that bother me, will you help me?" He said the same thing again.

Before my mouth let out any words, his mouth began to spit out another sentence.

"If I wanted to climb the Himalayas, would you climb with me? If I wanted you to jump into the abyss, would you do it? If I asked to kill myself together, would you...will you kill yourself with me?"

I can't get the words out anymore. It felt like something was cold, trying to peer into the bottom of the abyss on my empty body. The cold thing seemed to be trying its hardest to peer into the bottom of the dark abyss at night, and see something that the surface of the water could not see.

"Look, you can't answer that, can you? So if you can't do it, don't talk like that!" Kanzakj snapped until he was out of breath.

I smiled thinly. "Do you really want me to do all that?" My toot.

"Did?"

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"Do you really want me to do all that?" My toot.

"Of course not!" He nodded and quietly cried.

"You've misunderstood. My point is, tell me clearly what you want others to understand. If you act like that, people will misunderstand. What is difficult is just to say, anyway you also have nothing to lose" I explained.

"Then I want you to take me back to the past when I was forced to learn the violin" he said.

"Basic stupid! I'm not God knows! Replaying time is impossible, because time can never reverse. There he's getting faster walking forward!" I'm a little angry.

He just shut up and looked back. Because of his reaction, I knew a little about the violin. There must have been something going on, so he avoided playing the violin. That feeling is like expressing hatred. Does the violinist really hate his own violin?

"If it can't, you want you to stop following me wherever I go. Your presence is really very blocking the view" he said

"Huh! I told you, I never followed you! Besides, this place I used first and found. The stranger who should be said to be is you" I replied.

"Sad.."

I turned my eyes towards the corner of the room, right where he put his guitars. I got up and walked towards the locker and pulled out the tissue and towel I had been wearing for a long time. I also put a tissue on him.

"Make what?" Ask.

"You better have tears and your Hingus just spoke. As far as I know, the woman does not like to look ugly in front of the opposite sex" I replied.

He immediately grabbed the tissue and wiped it. In the meantime I walked by carrying my towel to the side of the door.

".... Why do you seem to care about me?" He asked while looking down.

"Why do you think? That's a natural thing, humans must help each other. Because he can't live alone, it means we're social beings" I said.

"But what you did to me was different. Why do you always come when I'm not okay?"

His lowered self now looked at me expectantly. I who saw himself could only look down unmoved for a few moments, and just as the long hand of the wall clock hit the number 12, I opened my mouth, and said.

"If it is, I..."

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🌼つづく🌼