Sya`Ir Bensyiana
Chapter One

Bensyiana Ul-Syeloff, it is not night, it is not morning, between those times, she stands before a trembesi wood-framed mirror, just in the corner of her room. The uppermost corner is in contact with the corner of the wall, while the most subordinate angle is away about one cubit from the wall; hampered, intended to get a better mirror image when looking at the body as a whole.

The mirror revealed his tall body, even the length of his legs exceeding the eyebrows when measured from the base according to his comparison. His neck, arms and legs withered, because of his dark brown skin. Women who have just passed their teenage years have black hair that wavy although it will look somewhat yellow-red when decorated with light.

Very light in weight and small in waist circumference, but looks very healthy and shiny, Bensyiana Ul-Syeloff.

If the schedule of his daily routine he recorded and affixed to the surface of the mirror, then some of the mirror will be closed, that's why he does not need to record it and paste it, he said, except it is enough to stand in front of the mirror-blades only; then wonder what he has recorded if he sticks it. Like, like,

03:00 am – 04:00 am: Build |lalu|Read

04:00 am – 05:00 am: Surgical & Sport

05:00 am – 09:00 am: Watch & Read

09:00 am – 10/11 am : Sunbathing & Ritual (once a week)

10/11 am – 14:00 pm : Thinking & Working

14:00 pm – 15:00 pm : Eat |lalu| Sleep

Previously, Bensyiana was drinking her warm-barreled tea. |The schedule happened when he was alone in his large family house, for it was at 05:00 am, when he should have been watching and reading as much, he even took a shower, for it was, immediately put on his backpack, after that out of the house, wearing shabby leather shoes, then a shabby green t-shirt that is upside down so that the picture is covered and flared jeans. After that, he even walked to the station, while his two palms tied his hair, so that the neck of his steward became visible, the purpose was; to take the train| Actually, to, Bensyiana kept reading one of her thin books in the carriage, namely Women At Her Points; Nawal El Saadawi.

If his routine schedule is not recorded, it means he is always lazy to record anything (except for others), that is why even though he is actually seen reading his book, , , , , , ,seriously is! he was still; wondering what would be recorded for his father. Like, like,

Francis Hardy - Francois Hardy

Nico - Chelsea Girl's

Fiona Apple - Tidal's

Frank Zappa - The Old Master

Aerosmith - Box 'O Fire

Akhbu Imala Bin Sheloff. He was the one who when the morning drove his wife\unya to the airport and when he returned home to his apartment suddenly heard Saltz Molto vivace/Sinfonie Nr. 9, because his son had been waiting for him since the morning there, was reading. He was shocked, though happy, to have just arrived from; but other than this morning he was dropping off, he also sped into the sick-house. His hand, carrying a very large amvelope, was himself; he entered through the door, not expecting to see his daughter there and present holding a smile with, 'Father is sick, from the hospital,' at a glance shows a face full of suffering because of the pain while stroking the chest.

And Bensyiana is still reading a book, full of neglect.

'Want breakfast what, let me buy it?' Put what he brought into the drawer.

'Please bring paper and pencil!'

'Note it!'

Bensyiana recorded it, then gave it.

'Want breakfast what?'

'Buy it all!'

'Want breakfast what? Wheat rice, vegetable porridge, porridge or ketoprak? Dad's sick.'

'Dad already knew breakfast brought illness, instead offering sister breakfast. Do you know why you're sick? that's why I always eat.'

'Even love his son, so who knows the sister is hungry and wants to eat, ' he sits next to Bensyiana who is sitting on the bed, 'oh on, dad's chest hurts.'

'It's dad's fault, who told me to smoke first. Buy everything you noted!'

'But this is a lot, just buy one, I'll buy it.'

'Dad,' he looked at her face, 'last week, father's wednesday to the house, kept Friday as well, kept dad going into sister's room, brother's room, keep dad saying dad took the cup in the sister's room whereas the cup was in the bathroom, keep dad folding the sister's blanket, keep dad sliding the sister's wooden carpet and dad elevate the seat as vulnerable as sister!'

'What's the problem?'

'Dad has to buy all that!'

'Buy just one.'

'The 'Black motorcade and CDs at home are already thousands, ' his father shook his hands as if indeed thousands with a face full of confusion, 'why should always buy new, should be replaced? why not just listen to all that?'

'Sister usually only asks for one, but father never understands. You think sister wants all that? Brother asked for it all just so dad knew.'

'Know what?'

'Know if you have to follow all of your sister's words.'

'Not reversed? It should be the son who follows his father's words.'

'Supposed fools again hypocrites follow the words of smart people again wise, but father is too hypocritical again stupid.'

'Your own father said you were stupid?'

'Just calm down because it's not just the father that you think is stupid. There are a lot of people that you think are stupid and you are not alone.'

'Then you alone, only listen to music for life, block your ears!'

'Do you know what age you are?:

Akhbu just kept holding back the anger.

'24, ' after taking a breath, 'father knows father makes money that is almost equal to mother, while father makes absolutely nothing at the age of father now. Do you know how old his sister is?'

I just kept quiet to resist disappointment.

'19,' and take a breather before, 'dad must agree to make money by the illegal way is easier than to make money by the lawful way. But I don't know if making money with bad art is easier than making money with good art, ' Silence and, 'is sister not right?'

'Why don't you forget all that. A sister can live without having to make money, get married so that the father has grandchildren. Sis can make any art, no need to make money. What was his name, Renabas, he was quite handsome, Akhbu smiled restraint.

'Dad knew when two men complained to David if one of them had a farm that destroyed another man's garden, then the Prophet David said that the cattle were given to the owner of the garden to replace the destroyed crops? Prophet Sulaiman said if you lend the livestock to the garden owner to take advantage of the benefits while the owner of the livestock will get it back when the plants have been repaired it is much fairer. Prophet Solomon was the son of David and Prophet David followed his son's words.'

'You're wrong!'

'Brother better be wrong, because if sister is right, sister is now married, is taking care of dad who is laughing happily get all those worldly passions! Is sister not right?'

'Then you want dad how?'

'My sister told me to write a book, I didn't write it even though my father was a writer. The sister told the father to serve in his own school, the father did not serve even though he had a school. Brother told father to fast for a year, father never fasted when it's his own idea.'

'Father is sick, so I have to take medicine, that's why I don't fast.'

'Dad knows why you're sick? That's because dad didn't fast. I used to say if my sister was a heretic and a heathen, so I wanted to fast for a year so that my sister's heart would open, now how can I open my heart with a heart that is much more closed? Uh-huh?'

'Dad never considered brother heretical and infidel!'

'Dad is not just a stupid hypocrite anymore. Dad is also forgetful, the proof is actually that the father lowered his seat instead of being raised, but the father did not pero . . .'

'Dad took the piece to the workshop by leading it. Do you have the heart to see Dad come home by leading him too? Dad's got short legs.'

'Who told you to take him to the workshop?'

'And father followed your words to correct the surgery.'

'If you take that piece by car to town with your sister, it just follows your sister's words. Brother can also bring it himself if only to the workshop.'

'then why don't you bring it yourself?'

'And Dad brought it!'

'Later, if father is dead, you will regret having treated father like this.'

'Actually, sister will die first than father.'

'Don't say it like that! Do you want to kill yourself? It's called fighting God's destiny.'

'God must be ashamed if anyone can stand up to what he is destined to do. My sister doesn't believe that God is a shame.'

Akhbu was still holding his chest, his expression became heartbreaking, 'father's chest hurts, ' he stood up and opened the drawer and pulled out the amvelope, 'father in the ronsen, ' he pointed.

'Dad is sick because of his own father's fault, and in 13 years the younger brother will die, the father will regret not following the younger brother, but it's better because after the younger brother dies the father will write a book, the father will write a book, the only book I wrote because I never wrote a book even though I wrote it. So what time is it to the Vinyl store?'

'Later noon, after Friday prayers.'

'Buy everything! After Friday, but only the father prayed.'

'Buy one.'

'Buy it all or nothing!'

'Daddy yesterday' will go home for a reason, can't sister forgive dad?'

'Pardon daddy?'

'Yes.'

'Father go home Wednesday, Sunday . . .'

'My father was sick on the way to school, so he had to go home. Do you have the heart to see father collapse in the middle of the road?'

'Sister is a person who does not have a heart, but calm down because sister is not only the heart to father, so father is not alone. The younger brother is heartened towards Daindi because he wants to betray Gehutu so that the younger brother is now pretending outside the city so that the younger brother can let go of the friendship. Sister has the heart for Gehutu because sister has to release friendship with him also so that he can be independent when he is not wrong, except according to Daindi he slowed down the success of the three of us. Sister has the heart for mother because mother has to spend a lot of money because of the mistakes that father made. Little sister just doesn't have the heart for big brother because she has the wits.'

'My sister forgave him. Then I went into the room . . .'

'What's wrong? His own father went into his own son's room?'

'Then I lied, because I said the cup was in the sister's room, but the cup was in the bathroom. Then dad folds seli . . .'

'Father not meli . . .'

'Daddy shift carpet kay . . .'

'The wooden carpet stuck on the door kam . . .'

'My sister forgave all that. Everything until the sister knows that the father dropped the seat sep. . .'

'Dad told me my legs were short. Dad can't ride that bike if his seat is that high.'

'Buy everything that sister noted!'

'What's wrong with my dad going home? Have you forgotten that father is your parents?'

'From the time you used to be a good reminder, that's the problem. Sister remembers everything is different from the father who always forgets and forgets if the father is forgetful,' this time Bensyiana not only faced her eyes but her body as well, 'dad thought sister was at home because sister wanted to? It used to be when the sister wanted to go out of town to live alone, many times the mother brought the sister, brought to the psychologist. The younger brother was brought to 5 psychologists, of which 2 gave up, of which 1 considered the younger brother an idiot and the father knew it, the father harbored him only for fear of hurting the younger brother when it only added to the happiness of the younger brother. Idiot's a really great label and I don't know that. He even suspected the sister of an addict. But I forgot if the 2 agreed with all the sister's explanations. One of the psychologists even convinced her father and mother to follow her sister's wishes and she offered herself as a counselor, even offered to take part in his training so that he can become a psychologist like himself and he already knows if he graduated. When he assured me that, I easily said that making an empty house was easy, but in fact, my father was always disturbing. Do you know what the point is?'

'No father doesn't know, ' his father answered quickly not because his father wanted to know the answer, but it was just sarcasm.

'The point is that the sister explained after the father knew that the father and mother had brought the sister to 2 kiayi, he said, and one says that if it's all up to the sister and the other one says that the real problem is with the father and mother, and it's better for the sister to go back to school to be peaceful. So what's the point?'

'The point is that father is wrong, mother is wrong everything is wrong. You're always right, ' his father still answered with his sarcasm even though what he saw was a gramophone that had been very sounding made him more dizzy his head, 'father's head hurts son.'

'The point is that the father is completely forgetful and not careful, because in fact the sister has not told the point. Not that I asked back, I answered myself.'

'Yes, it's up to you, what's the point . . .'

'The point is, it all happened 3 years ago and sister just found herself alone at home for a whole new week 1 time. The point is if you want to be the most frugal person in the world, buy everything you record, then you can start all over again without making the slightest mistake.'

'Daddy has no money, son.'

'Daddy has money, proof that my sister only asked for 4 liters of milk, 1 kg of eggs, tomatoes and vegetables, but I gave more money than that every week.'

'Dad is not the heart, if the sister needs money.'

'What else mother, because she gave me so much more money.'

'What's wrong with it all, I just think the money was used just in case you might want something to get caught.'

'Sister does want to snack, therefore sister does not want to be given all the money.'

'Yes, if you want your child to stay alone, why bother with fighting?'

'Because it's a useless thing. If father and mother give money, sister will buy Bright Moon, and it will make sister fat and unhealthy.'

'But you yourself are already skinny son.'

'That's why it has to be defended!'

'Father and mother give pocket money because it is dear to sister.'

'Dad has now started to understand the problem turned out. If you love your sister, give her money when you ask, it makes more sense. Now when sister asks, dad pretends to be poor like this.'

'But I don't have any money.'

'If you don't have any money, you'll say your money is up. Anyone who says he doesn't have money, it means he still might get money. So who's leaving, brother or father?'s coming?'

'Father come.'

'Buy everything!'

'Buy one!'

'Buy it all or nothing because your sister will tell you when you come home and you will definitely give it because you have common sense. The surgery itself the mother bought also 'right, because when the sister decided to leave, then the sister gave the choice if the sister remained, everything should be organized and buy the bed as a gratitude.'

'What is gratitude?'

'The gravity is the price that must be redeemed because of a mistake that has occurred because of the intended thing.'

'If you buy one, after Friday prayers I will buy you.'

'Sister tried, but every father buys one, dad always makes mistakes again. So sister wants it all to end now. Buy everything or nothing?'

'Buy one.'

'Alright, sister always gives her kind of leniency to father, because if sister is evil, sister has left father a long time ago. Buy everything except that Box!'

'Buy one-one, son. Don't be greedy!'

'A greedy father, because he wants to have a full brother. My sister knew I was alone because I was afraid of what was outside. Father is afraid of what outside affects the father to bad things and father is afraid that the sister is affected by those things, when what happens is the opposite. I want a brother like a father, different from a brother who is alone because the sister has already closed down what is outside. Do you know how many CDs are in Box O'Fire?'

Akhbu silently looked at the gramophone, he even only heard the disturbing sounds of the wind instead of being supposed to hear the sound of the synfonie.

'12!' Akhbu's gaze looked disappointed, but Bensyiana replied with an outpouring of disappointment, which was not what it seemed, 'what with The Old Master, do you know the number of CDs in it?'

'Can the music be turned off? Father's head hurts, ' caresses his forehead, begs for mercy.

'Dad always changed the subject when he had a headache. Dad just did not realize that what makes dad's head hurt is because the heart of the father is different opinions with the head of a calculating father, counting things that continue to harm when according to the heart of the father is the thing that, ' the music stops, Bensyiana just turn it off, 'fair.'

'Dad's head hurts, son!'

'The Old Master, numbering 22, so that if summed up everything equals 34. So, because of the generosity of sister, father can choose, buy 34 or just 3?'

'Dad can only buy 1 child. You have no pity for the mother who is looking for money?'

'Pity brother, upside down with a father who could make the mother continue to spend money because of the father's mistake of the deal.'

'Buy just one, son?'

'Sister is even kind enough with only 3 vinyls, and I still ask for one.'

'Buy one, son.'

'If you buy one then you will lose because you have to import, so it is better to buy a lot.'

'No loss, buy just one.'

'Buy one or nothing?'

Akhbu shut up for a moment.

Bensyiana waited for an answer in annoyance.

'Not at all.'

'Alright. That means, after the sister came home from the Hortudukh house, the sister considered the father a nobody. The sister will continue in the room when dad's weekend is at home, until dad leaves. My sister doesn't see my father forever. When it's time, dad will stay with brother, not with sister. Father is no sister anymore even though the sister still calls father, "father," because it is difficult to get rid of the habit, ' Bensyiana gave her hand to shaman, 'shake hands!'

Akhbu kept silent and opened his mouth to speak but held him back.

'Depth!' Bensyiana waited for her father's answer, but because her father didn't answer she pulled his hand back, turned the gramophone, went back to reading the book. They were both silent, except for a moment.

'Did you buy a ticket?'

'The brother bought it.'

'Did he buy it?'

'Sister doesn't know!'

'If he doesn't buy it, dad will buy it.'

'He'll buy it,' Bensyiana waited for the next question but Akhbu kept silent and Bensyiana read again with an irritated face because she herself failed to concentrate because her mind was filled with plans that she would do after assuming her father was not a who-whowho's song. After that, they kept quiet except for a moment.

'Hortudukh has been told to pick you up?'

'No! Brother is reading and father is talking, when father should be talking father is silent. Shake up!' Bensyiana gave her hand to shake.

'Dad, I'm sorry. Dad was always wrong, ' Akhbu gave his hand, but Bensyiana pulled his hand back. He said very seriously that, 'this is not a handshake forgiving each other. It's a handshake if you all understand what your sister is saying so you don't have to serve your dad again for life. I don't remember when my sister took my sister out for a hand in something like this?'

'Humans should forgive each other.'

'Sister has forgiven you for years, so will you buy everything or nothing and shake hands?'

Akhbu was silent for a moment, watching that hand. Her fearful mind, calmed itself by thinking that her only and smallest daughter was not serious. That he would change his mind, someday would come and apologize for his mistake and just like when Bensyiana was a child, he would return to his lap. That he can think like that, even think; all, whatever he said just because he was young so he was excited because he had not felt failure. His wrong thoughts managed to calm him down so the two of them shook hands.

He did not know that Bensyiana took 4 years to break away from Daindi and 19 years to get away from his father.

Too good Bensyiana has bad habits with difficulty she can break away from a bad relationship unless she has calculated carefully that her mistakes are really so many that it is impossible for the person to be snorting when abandoned.

Akhbu did not know in fact Bensyiana regretted why he did not obey Akhbu's words to buy 1 only, Because if he followed him, he could get a minimum of 1 box. Unfortunately Bensyiana had no idea that Akhbu was in her fantasy.

When Bensyiana was a child, they both spent time together and she thought it would happen again when the time came so she did not need to live with Bensyiana's older brother Ul-Syeloff.