Sya`Ir Bensyiana
Chapter Six (Unedited)

: all B/PENARI.

Bensyiana thought why she should do it. This is the thing that

real dumb. Why would he do something stupid for a fool.

Lordy! Give me perfection.

No, he'll give me perfection and I'll fall asleep.

Lordy! Give me perfection and I will be willing to accept his sin

when terlena.

No he will give me perfection and I will think that sin is

meritorious.

Lordy! I did whatever you wanted to do to me.

You're not mine and I don't care if I'm yours or not.

God, I'm lost.

Save me!

_____________:Why gdjfagbdakj gldjagnladng ljangadg ljdga ljg in galdjg

aldjg algtneuag lajd gladj galdj glajdgnaprignl gladg laejgnfadm fladgjnaj dmg aljd

________:Jiwhvk child-stair documentation? Eight is our water each kandi

reconstructed dead dives gladg laejgnfadm fladgjnaj dmg aljd

_____:Bensyiana woke up at night. Shariana came when Bensyiana

wanting to leave, Bensyiana ate and then left. He was about to take the bus, though,

no matter the connection or one trip and reject the advice of his mother

to climb the train tomorrow only: Telefone Dusk: now is 10 days

before the day-ray, at 06:00 p.m., Bensyiana was still asleep. Telephone is already

ringing, after all he's been listening to, each body hasn't responded to

ascribe. When Syariana spoke, she,

„Adik already canceled?‟

„Not yet. Sister still wants.‟

„Why haven't you eaten yet? If sister wants to eat, sister can buy out or

eat what's in the refrigerator.‟

„Adik just wants to sleep,‟ Bensyiana closes it.

Bensyiana went back to sleep after rewinding the Saltz Adago molto e canteble. He recalled his dream: Dinner

:at 08:00 p.m., Shariana came home from her office, knocked on the door though

he finally opened it with his own key. Bensyiana is already

waking up from the first beat, Syariana offered him a meal even though he didn't

bring nothing.

„What do you want to eat?‟

„Do not know, not the others.‟

„Let me make eggs with sauce.‟

„Good.‟

„Adik wants his eggs boiled or fried?‟

„Di fried.‟

Syariana fries an omelet that is shaped as it should be with

thick and thick round size, on top of which is poured sauce for himself

contains onions, small meats, tomatoes and looks colorful

thick red.

„Wear rice or not?‟

„No!‟

Bensyiana received the plate, eating it with pleasure. He feels this

it was the best omelet she had ever eaten. Sharia returned to her kitchen,

slicing papaya for herself, while Bensyiana remained in bed,

when papaya was in honey watering.

„Adik so leave tonight?‟

„So of course.‟

„Is there still a vehicle?‟

„Adik will take the bus.‟

„Why not leave tomorrow? To be able to take the train.‟

„Adik prefers to take the bus.‟

„It is more convenient to ride the train?‟

„If the train leaves tonight, it is more convenient to take the train. But because it's not

there are more trains, so it is more convenient to take the bus.‟

„If the bus is not there how?‟

„Adik will take the bus anywhere, connect. The most

important sister go.‟

„It is more convenient one trip?‟

„If there is a bus one time trip tonight, more convenient one time

the journey. But because sister doesn't know, so sister doesn't care.‟

Syariana sits on the tapestry, enjoying her papaya.

„Please let sister do what sister want! Anyway, if

the bus is not there, maybe the sister will go home, think! Why mother

always try to show concern when the mother herself will not help

in full. Not just mom, but everyone always does,‟ Bensyiana

speaking coldly.

„Ya,‟ Syariana smiled, „mother is indeed impossible to drive sister

by tonight. I can only pray for the best.‟

„If you can only pray, never interfere again.‟

Syariana was silent, she felt guilty but she felt

sinned. All this time Bensyiana always said that she always inhibited

Bensyiana. Shariana never knew that Bensyiana was a daughter

yang berbeda dari semua kasus anak perempuan yang di hadapinya. Dia sadar bahwa

the cycle of the rhythm of the case that passes and is the same will not necessarily continue to repeat itself.

He went back into the kitchen, this time slicing a mango that looked very fresh.

„Adik actually just thought of something.‟

Shariana did not answer because honey was sweet.

„Actually sister wants to live in the middle of the sea. If you can make a sister

a fisherman, maybe a sister will spend in the middle of the ocean for one

full year.‟

„Adik never experienced death seconds.‟

„Adik doesn't care about death.‟

„If sister already experienced it, sister will not want to side by side with

death.‟

Syariana, seeing the opportunity to bring Bensyiana to meet

her grandmother, so she smiled. He returned to the tapestry and enjoyed

the mango that looks orange sparkles. When the first bite he started saying

with,

„Asyem,‟ while squinting his eyes, his sour taste adds to the mind

positive, „if the sister wants it, the mother can bring the sister to the coast and invite

acquainted with fishermen.‟

„New sister remembers something again.‟

„What?‟

„Adik will not be able to ride a bike in the middle of the sea. Brother will

warm asakarang.‟

Bensyiana went into the bathroom, got ready and quickly

ready and out.

„Adik is not warm tomorrow only?‟ ask Syariana.

„Mother, why never understand? My sister doesn't want to do this either

all,‟ looks annoyed.

„Yes well,„ they both shake hands and Bensyiana kisses hands

her mother's. Shariana looked at Bensyiana with a look of disbelief. Sharia always

I wish he could be like a child

it is an example:_______________________________________________________________

_________It is resting on the bottom of the nose, on the top of the jaw

fore.

________Ini is not my feeling. This is the feeling of others who are very

far-off.

____The effect is felt in the middle of both eyeballs, up to the forehead

inward.

_______Someone I knew first. That feeling is being experienced by

that fellow.

Ears became deaf and eyes blurred.:Till now I suddenly.

‘kut feel. People’tu regretted having done it like ‘tu and I

tashu.

__The heart always stops beating, the whole body feels dancing in the world

‘tu person is aware if he is a different person and akU:.

tashu.

The heart is always the source of closed tears of regret.

reminiscing about the deep past with him and feeling guilty and asking

sorry to himself, then fooling himself for just waking up and

Bensyiana knows. That person used to be afraid of him and now Bensyiana knows.

Bensyiana empty. What he felt was always not his because of him

he always knows what he's supposed to feel, not why. The far or

close-up. Seemed or subtle. Sometimes Bensyiana doesn't understand the meaning

that feeling stopped, it was just a feeling. Sometimes he is half conscious

when you feel it and assume it is your feeling. Very rarely does he understand. Him

more frequent swimming in the water than a layover on the island of understanding,

tread the palm. So, when he smeared the surface of the skin of the palm on the ground

the island, when he does, understands it he will act. Daindie! A big girl.

Considered stupid because smart.

Bensyiana! A sack.

Free from confinement until locked up.

Who is looking for the attention of both. Who is sadja, who is it?

Just know their meeting went through, though,

premature.

hodiernal.

Sadja just got through here, though,

BENSYAN & JAYDIR & DAINDI. Who's sadja, who's he?

BENSHIANA-He's just someone who should be if we get acquainted when

here, we'll be very close friends.

JAYDIR-What makes that so?

BENSYIANA - We used to be too small, so stupid she wanted to

rivaling me and being so stupid I don't take it.

JAYDIR-What makes it so?

BENSYIANA - Now she is getting smarter and wants to make friends,

realizing that past relationships were filled with envy and I

it was already realized that I should have helped her, then,

notya.

JAYDIR-What makes it so?

BENSYIANA- I'm weak and I know what to say or in

JAYDIR-What makes it that way?

BENSYIANA - I swim more in the water than I do

stop at the island of understanding, tread the palm. Whereas,

Daindi more often trying to climb the palm on the

surface of water so he always drowns.

JAYDIR-What makes it so good?

BENSYIANA - I used to think it was my feeling, it turned out to be her feeling.

JAYDIR-What feelings?

BENSYIANA - Feelings of fear and anger. I guess I was scared of him and

he was holding a huge anger at him. Now

I know it's impossible to hold onto such a huge anger without

reason and impossible to fear without history. He's afraid of me

and he wanted to challenge himself to be brave, to be brave,

he harbors a great anger at

his history and he's jealous of me seeing me too calm

moody.

DEAD END STAGE

Jaydir closed his eyes because he thought he opened his eyes.

Jaydir opened his eyes because he thought he was blinking.

„What's with me?‟

Jaydir felt deceived, a few seconds ago he saw the night and

at some stage he will see the sun fly.

„I am in a dead-end stage, where the strands of my own brain are already numerous

cut off until sleep I just felt a new wink. When I

I immediately fell asleep. I feel like I have forgotten a lot of things. My

I cannot think because there is no data at all. The vision is getting sharper, though,

raga is getting fitter so that all the senses become more useful than the

preceding. I realized that I had a walkman sent by

my uncle, the wide and long bamboo mat from my brother, all repetition

this is so new even to the mirror. I realized that my skin

begin to peel, skin on the nose, chest and thighs. Everything looks like

pano disease. My hair was flushed and dry until it was stiff, but I was

liked him more. I was just freaking out because of my skin and I started to realize

how much I lost weight. Later in the afternoon I plan

buy milk, raw cassava, raw eggs and raw tomatoes and then later in the evening

I plan on drinking milk, eating ripe cassava, cooked eggs and tomatoes

raw, because that is the best advice from Naeden. I feel so sad and

sweating, usually I don't care now I expect a bath, a soak with

cold water and singing. I smell dust and sweat, usually I don't

caring now I wish to take a shower, soak in cold water and cry. My

now I can think back after having a little bit of that data; I

have been able to use my 5 senses better while I lost the 1

lainya, which I do not know yet is what I.‟

Jaydir closed his eyes because he opened his eyes.

Jaydir opened his eyes because he blinked.

Jaydir cried in the bathroom with just a breath.

„I feel I've been forgotten. I feel sad because I remember it so

I know I was forgotten. Why not let me forget that I

ever remember anything more than me let remember that I once did

forget many things.‟

In the bathroom, there is Sya‟ir Bensyiananya in the corner of the room,

so that in the corner of the room, the scriptures opened completely to the side, his room.

ROUTINITAS.

After hearing something that sounded like a very carnival music

messy and rough, filled with all the horror that should be imagined like a hammer, like a hammer,

ears, ears, nails, axes, diary, bare chest, ulcer, bad, rotten and

bobs. Added the discordant voice of Mohamer who me‟lodikan all instrumental

carnival chromatic, the sound of his vocal cords is heard as , , , , then

stop recklessly , , , , and he begins to lead by;

„It seems that it reads the scriptures by interpreting the verses

alone.‟

Jaydir who was just laying his body in Mohamer's room,

looking at the ceiling answered nothing but to dance his arm

secret.

„According to it, is it better to interpret it yourself or learn it from

the book of an expert, or learned it from a teacher?‟

Jaydir looked up agilely, then smiled and his eyes shone.

Mohamer thinks he's happy with the question, but when there's someone

who understands, he really looks desperate and happy because of getting

pastimes.

„How is Raden Jaydir?‟ Mohamer smiled widely and rejoiced, wrong

one arm of her dancing with no secret waiting for an answer.

„I know how to interpret it and I will learn with the teacher

if there really was a teacher and I would learn it from an expert if

there is indeed that expert.‟

„Situ can go to pesantren to learn it and there can read tafsir

by an expert or directly go to the expert.‟

„What's there can give me proof first before I come

they are that they are truly an expert and they really can

teaching?‟

„Yes obviously they can teach and an expert, because they already

must have graduated from his education.‟

„I can give evidence to it that I am an expert and I can

teaching by giving there a simple formula in interpreting it, however, is,

you will not be at all interested in my formulas and interpretations until you

it is impossible to learn it.‟

„How is Raden Muhajid?‟

„When the interpretation makes you do the thing that caused you

will suffer for the sake of others without caring that others will

accompanying suffering. Not that it makes you choose what

cause you will get justice for the justice of others, without

care that the other person will cheat. Not that the interpretation makes you

gain the advantage that causes calmness without concern

that others are always anxious.‟

Mohamer looks very satisfied with his answer, „I believe, but God

has given pleasure to enjoy, as long as it does not exceed the limit. If

there hoped everyone would follow the teachings, at that time hoping everyone would come along

suffer. Time we can not eat with salt and drink with sugar.‟

„Which is wiser among the imposing

his will to others is not himself and the one who imposes

his will and against others for his freedom.‟

Mohamer knew it wasn't a question, but he was always challenged to

looking for a gap and he got even happier this refreshing morning then, „wait

wait, don't rush like that. I will give you an example, if

there is a river,‟ his arms danced with no secret when, „the water is clear, the same

once refreshing, full of fish and on the coast there are small forests

filled with fruits and bees that combine in the tangakai of trees. Situ

living there, the time just continue to fight and worship, and ignore

all the blessings God has given us. Doesn't that mean not being grateful?‟

„It seems that it reads the scriptures by interpreting the verses

alone. It's true that I did it, as I knew that it was

a smoker.‟

„I have now reduced.‟

„I actually like the smell of cigarettes, but when only one person

who smokes, because if a bunch of people smoke, it smells so disgusting.‟

„Your brother always advised me about cigarettes, he said this, he said

that is, but I just,‟ raised a stick, in careful attention, heed,

„enjoy. God has made tobacco and it is not forbidden to

sucking it.‟

„Are you an art connoisseur?

„Situ is very excessive when talking like this to use the word

“You,” always,‟ Mohamer laughs jokingly at seeing Jaydir's serious face,

where when he understood, it was a desperate face that was always crying with

his breath.

„I don't know either, it makes me feel everything I say

it's not me saying it and it calms me and calms you down

also because I'm too young to say things that sound very perverse.‟

„Ya, please, it's up to you,‟ and then he laughs, sucking

his cigarette and his life was so good this morning.

„Will you be very happy when you stay in the place you are

tell me earlier?‟

„How can I be unhappy, just think of it behind those trees

there is a very beautiful mountain and close to the waterfall

fun to jump over.‟

„You have explained how to enjoy a creation of God very much

reasonable.‟

„Ya does make sense.‟

„I have one creation of God that I am very grateful for and I

savor. You better ask if it is after I finish saying.

Jaydir looked at the ceiling with a charm full of fragility.

Mohamer waited for him to finish his opinion.

Jaydir had no opinion at all.

Mohamer just realized that he's done, he's turned off his cigarette,

then smile very happily, „what is it?‟

„I am now lost so no need to talk about,‟ ~ „Can be searched again right, or found a new one. Too long in regret for having lost a precious thing is as silent as to be full. If by any chance anyone feeds, yes be lucky and if refuse to eat, the hungry.‟ „If, we were in the place you told me, you would ruin it and I would take care of it so that when I died, the place would be much better. Many people like you unknowingly, precisely in the past, damaged rivers, seas, mountains, trees, beehives, clear water, he said, fish and now when everything is broken they still find something to break.‟ „Yes can't be said like that either, in part because it was unintentional as you said. Limitations of the human mind that make something often already difficult to fix. But not all of those things will be held accountable, but we as humans.‟ „Do you want me to be aware?‟ „Yes, if it would make me better why not. Remind each other is good.‟ „This will only make you worse, because you will lose many more things.‟ „What is it?‟ „If I were given the pleasure of a place to live as you tell me; if there was a river,‟ his arms danced with no secrets when, „the water was clear, completely refreshing, and so on, full of fish and on the coast there are small forests filled with fruits and bees that blend in the tangakai of trees. I lived there, there were no mistakes so I didn't have to fight and there were too many things to enjoy until I always remembered worship. I will give it back to God, far more beautiful than what he created. I should be given pleasure a roll of the brain; there should be a flow,‟ his breath danced in secret when, „ toward the heart so that the heart can feel tender, utterly moving, so that it can feel, full of sincerity and in his mind there are small fantasies filled with intuitions and hard calculations. Everyone must have had it when I was born, now I'm eliminating it when I should have put it back in, much more abstract than what it describes. And now in front of me there is someone who gladly spoils it with delicious thoughts and poison.‟ „Truth does not always have to be revealed.‟ „If it is true, I will feel guilty for harboring it alone.‟ „I have no problem with you explaining your truths and teachings to me, but what about others whose lives have suffered without knowing the teachings of the suffering, suffering situation, when a person can not eat, can not smoke, can not play and always can not.‟ „I explained something to the person who asked and I just forced myself to follow my teachings instead of others. After all how people who have suffered can suffer even more. Maybe this was all because I was so happy with her life that I got tired of being happy and chose to suffer. But I just remembered, how can someone be happy without being grateful?‟ „Ampun Master!‟ Mohamer smiled with great pride and joy, patting his shoulders worth saying, „Raden Jaydir-Raden Muhajid.‟ „But I myself have lost it,‟ his face now really looks desperate, his eyebrows are stuck, his voice is not intonating, his arms dance without secrets while his breath sounds like a lost cry. „No papa, just rest for a moment. Later it will find it again, even just now I still think it has it. Want me to get trained? The library closed yesterday, or I bought a book, or I borrowed my book. I couldn't help finding it, but I was able to accompany it when it was lost. Or, how about a bowl of soto from heaven, then we continue this conversation?‟ ROUTINITAS TERBIT Senggaya „Ya, please, first the hallway is actually clean, but because Tolampanaya volcano erupted, the ash came here and has not been cleaned, then „Then what?‟ „Then why did you drink that bitter coffee?‟ „What's there trying it?‟ „I didn't try it, I just saw the color.‟ „Try!‟ „No.‟ „If you try it, you will know that this coffee is much more bitter than the bitterness you imagine when you see the color.‟ „The coffee does look very concentrated, but I don't think that it also makes it without sugar.‟ „Even it wasn't me who made it.‟ „Then why drink that bitter coffee?‟ „What is there to know if every tongue I taste the bitter of this coffee, I immediately feel in reality. Because like the palapa fruit, I will continue to fight until this coffee becomes sweet. That's why when I drank this coffee, I realized that I couldn't possibly make it.‟ „If that's not possible, stop!‟ „How can I stop if I keep drinking it?‟ „Try from the smallest thing, put sugar and reduce little by little the coffee powder!‟ „It just makes what I drink to be sweet.‟ „Yes, it is impossible to make the coffee sweet, but it can make a little trick so that the coffee tastes sweet on the tongue. Until whenever the coffee remains bitter and the sugar remains sweet.‟ „Until any time, the coffee remains sweet and the sugar remains bitter.‟ „If the coffee does make you happy, keep fighting even though it is impossible to make it sweet!‟ „Of course it might make this coffee sweet, I just said impossible.‟ „If that's where a genius might just make the coffee sweet.‟ „And if there is a genius, it will know that the impossible is, as long as the coffee I drink is bitter, it means there are still people who feel the suffering.‟ „If situ is a very noble person it is certainly not impossible.‟ „Of course one would be very difficult to be a genius along with being noble.‟ „I can help you by being a noble role and it becomes a role as a genius.‟ „So it thinks that everyone just plays themselves against what he likes?‟ „Of course. And I'm so happy to meet people like you because too many people waste time with conversations that I don't understand.‟ Riseke „I just want to make a deal?‟ „What is it?‟ „I will very often be in this hallway because it is different from there and others, I did not go to college. So, since this hallway is so dirty, I will clean it up and even keep it clean. And that task is just putting your footwear in the place that I will provide before entering this hallway. How?‟ „Yes, please, first the hallway is actually clean, but because Tolampanaya volcano erupted, the ash came here and has not been cleaned, then ..‟ Zermayah ‘What else will help?‟ „Of course not.‟ „Why?‟ „Because I didn't ask for it.‟ „Situ itself does not tell me when it wants to clean it.‟ „If situ really want to help, situ will help me when see I start sweeping like now.‟ „That's why I was shocked because it suddenly started sweeping without inviting me. Then, how many times was it pulled while asleep?‟ „Until this moment, every night. And somehow I was always pulled at 12 pm.‟ „Indeed usually, even myself, every time I first sleep a night somewhere that is still unfamiliar to me, they will signal about their whereabouts. It's like, happiness can communicate and be known to exist. That's happy because only some people can feel their air.‟ „It was true, and this was the most nights as long as I lived even with the scene always being the same. Usually only lasts one night.‟ „In my opinion, situ might be able to really understand them. They may not realize it, but they can and they know it. Have you ever given a joke to someone who doesn't understand?‟ „I don't know who understands when I haven't given a joke.‟ „That's why, they consider it the only thing that laughs the most when they give jokes compared to others.‟ „I even thought it was Izro‟il who was taking my life but always failed because I felt something from inside me was pulled up to my crown, then stuck in my throat as if waiting for me to say the sentence tauhid.‟ „Maybe! And I'm so happy to meet people like you because too many people waste time with conversations that I don't understand.‟ ROUTINITY PEAKING Spiritual Ministries „Do you know why men have bumps on their necks while women do not?‟ „Why?‟ „Because men always nod while women do not.‟ „Why do women always shake their head while they don't have a lump on their neck?‟ „Because shaking or nodding it means the same thing. If a man nods, it means he shakes at something he refuses and if he shakes, it means he nods at something else.‟ „That means women don't shake or don't nod.‟ „They are silent.‟ „Then why women have 2 lumps on her chest.‟ „Because one lump to accommodate suffering in a nod and one lump to accommodate happiness in a coil. ‟ „Means, every thing men do will have an impact on women.‟ „Even every thing that women do will have an impact on men.‟ „So what does it mean?‟ „Women can live without a lump on their neck, but humans will die without 2 lumps on a woman's chest.‟ „I still don't understand why happiness is actually caused by the ring.‟ „Because, when one shakes his head for his lust, he will shake his head also at the lusts of others.‟ „Then will I understand if I understand why suffering is in the nod.‟ „You'll stay clouded.‟ „What because if someone nods to his passions, then he will still shake his head also on the passions of others.‟ „Yes, that is why, have you understood?‟ „No, I am still confused.‟ „I also somehow still confused. Because if I understand, justice means not just propaganda.‟ „Then, is God fair?‟ „Even God alone is unfair?‟ „Why can God be unfair if the word just exists?‟ „Because God is too good at good and too apathetic at bad. The one who does bad will sin and the one who does good will reward.‟ „I think God is fair.‟ „How is it possible?‟ „Because good and evil are only propaganda, that is why justice in them is propaganda, in contrast to truth and error in which contains true justice.‟ „Who told you that?‟ „Somebody.‟ „Tell me thank you, because that person has made me stop confused. And thank you for being willing to pretend to be confused with me to make me understand.‟ I don't know who became the Spiritual Ministry because Jaydir raised Daysyun to be the Spiritual Ministyun when Daisyun elevated him to the Spiritual Ministry without knowing the term. Jaydir raised it because Daysyun confused him while Daysyun raised it because it made him understand. Jaydir's confusion of the same consequences in 2 inversely proportional statements remains the same, he said, while Daysyun's understanding that there is justice that is not propaganda still makes him still not understand the 2 rejections that are always caused by 2 statements that are mutually inversely proportional. Somehow the two of them were together most beautiful without any awareness. The Mohamer Forestry Ministry is a Forestry Ministry not because, he ruminates about a place, maybe a pusisi; there is a river. His arms danced with no secrets. The water is clear, refreshing at all. Full of fish and on its shores are small forests in full; fruits, along with bees that blend in the stalk tree. It may be a poem; there is a flow, but because he is indeed a

faculty student

forestry.

TWILIGHT ROUTINITIES?I'm just onceROUTINITAS IS SUNSET?Carving the ocean, freezing it further.

PROTRACTED ROUTINITY?Only the nest carvings terowong awang.

BENSYIANA AND JAYDIR?I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW!

INDULGED IN IT, DROWNED!

WAIT UNTIL THE SUN *******!

ALL THE IMAGINATION IS FASCINATING!

EVERYONE WILL RESPOND!

: all B/PULL