Synesthesia Petals
The Past Part IV

Staring blankly from behind the glass, a woman who was previously held by me was now lying with medical equipment attached to her body. Banging my head, I was so sorry for not realizing it.

According to the doctor who always took care of Kamine's health, he said that his condition is currently quite critical and maybe tonight will pass the difficult times. Just by hearing his hard-to-accept explanation, I.

Now I understand what it's like to lose someone valuable in real life. A person who is close and always there, I cannot do anything for him even if I am nearby.

Damn it, I can't calm down with my state of view turning into this black and white. Goddamnit! If only the black flower petals had not appeared, Kamine would not have become like this!

Because of my negative thoughts, I blame everything on myself. Sitting in a chair for those waiting, a nurse gave me a blanket if I could just stay the night in the hospital.

It was my goal to spend the night in the hospital, I couldn't leave Kamine alone. His family was heading to this hospital, but it took a lot of time to leave because Kamine's new home in this area was quite far from his parents' home.

The current matter, the little smile that Kamine always showed me was probably to hide her health so that I wouldn't worry about her. He's very nice, really good.

There was no time to be sad, I had to find another way so that what the doctor said did not happen. The main problem is my ability to see the feelings of others, if only the black petals were a sign of death.

I just have to be a victim right now, there's no other way to save Kamine from childhood.

Waiting for the hospital to be quiet and slowly the population is decreasing. The hallway I see today is a little dark, the lighting is minimal because it is night.

Get out of my seat, keep the blanket one of the sisters gave me. Standing in front of the door of the room Kamine cared for, slowly pressed down on the unlocked doorknob.

Kamine's face was seen having nightmares in her sleep. Walking up to him then standing to his left, grasping his left hand so that my determination gets stronger to do my goal.

If only ....if only the sign of death could be absorbed, wouldn't good things happen?

The black flower petals surrounding Kamine slowly disappeared one by one. It hurts, my whole body feels like it's under intense pressure of the inversely proportional force of gravity.

Until the entire black flower petals disappeared completely, it was my turn to look at the figure of myself in the mirror reflection. Yes, I can see some black flower petals surrounding me yet a little.

I feel dizzy and could be uprooted at any time. Out of the room Kamine was treated and then lay on a chair for those visiting in the hospital. Covering my body which was quite cold with a blanket, I tried to sleep because my head was completely dizzy.

* * * * *

Someone shook my body, my eyes were blurry enough to wake up by force but I saw a nurse in this hospital forcing me to wake up. When I realized, I woke up in the hospital hallway and some treatments were busy working to save lives.

It was already morning, the night had already passed and my mind was instantly filled with Kamine. I tried to get up and leave the blanket I was wearing on my used chair.

Walking to see Kamine's condition from behind the glass, a miracle might be on my side. The figure of the girl was staring to the left side where she looked out the window, inwardly very happy because Kamine had regained consciousness.

Of course I immediately entered his room and greeted him who was daydreaming. Take a chair and sit on his left side.

   “How are you doing Kamine? Are you feeling better?”

The question I asked made Kamine confused about something. He took a deep breath and looked at me with a foreign look.

   “Mmm .. Can I ask you one thing? You ... who?”

Time stopped for me, my heart was beating faster than usual and sweat started pouring out. All things are likely to fill my mind, maybe ... Kamine has amnesia?

   “Can you stop joking, where maybe you forgot me.”

   “I'm serious, who are you?”

My struggle seemed futile, my sight suddenly blurred as tears suddenly shot out from both my eyes. I was completely confused by the current state of affairs, I could only lower my face so that my cries would not be seen.

   “Tu-wait!? Why are you crying? Is something wrong!?”

Kamine started to panic, I covered my face and then immediately got out of my seat and turned around. I want to say something, but maybe my voice will sound sad.

Walking out of this room, Kamine just kept quiet without replying to me and just waved his hand. Walking in this long hallway, I lost hope of Kamine forgetting me.

If Kamine had amnesia, there was still a way to recover her memories. Before that I have to go home first, my current situation is really sad.

* * * * *

Before returning home, I stopped by Uncle Macho's fruit shop in the supermarket district. Although it is still morning, this market is already filled with people who do buying and selling activities.

I saw the bald burly man arranging fresh fruits in front of his shop. Walking up to him and greeting him, he threw me with an apple.

   “What's up? Your face looks so pitiful.”

   “Damn it, even Uncle Macho can figure it out. By the way you still know me?”

   “Of course, you could be said to be a Hero in this supermarket district. How could I not know by your name, Ib ... Ibus .. wait a minute ... ”

Uncle Macho looked confused to call my name, the apple I was holding fell to the floor. It's really not real, it's possible that I'm still dreaming and I have to wake up now.

Reflexively, I hit my own cheek with my powerful right hand. Of course Uncle Macho who saw me hitting my face a second time immediately stopped the movement.

   “What are you doing stupid!?”

   “I hope it's a dream! Damnit!”

My loud screams made Uncle Macho speechless, some of the people around me stared in wonder at what was going on with me. I restrained myself and forced myself to calm down, Uncle Macho told me to sit down first and tell him what really happened.

Of course I did, I sat on a wooden box that contained some fresh fruit inside. Uncle Macho was ready to listen to my story while sitting to my right on top of the wooden box.

   “Kamine, you know the woman I've always been with?”

   “The young lady you've always been with? He who usually uses that wheelchair or cane?”

   “Yes, last night she fell unconscious and I took her to the hospital. This morning, he forgot about me. Uncle Macho, I have something to make sure. Can you hear what I'm going to say right now.”

   “Of course, I will help you as much as possible.”

The answer from Uncle Macho calmed me down. I assume that this phenomenon has diverged, my ability and Kamine who experienced amnesia is a supernatural phenomenon.

   “Uncle Macho, my name is ⁇ ⁇ .”

Wait a minute, I really don't understand what I just said. That was my name, but what sounded different.

From Uncle Macho's reaction, he really listened to what I said and he didn't understand at all what my name was saying. I finally understood my current situation.

The mark of Kamine's death that I absorbed made me forget, my name is incomprehensible but my existence is still there. This situation cornered me, I was completely confused to deal with this matter.

I tried to call Senke Fukuhara, telling her to say my name but she couldn't bear it because she completely forgot about my name. When I said my name, he really didn't understand what I was saying.

There is still hope, I just have to do it without any more hesitation.

Leaving Uncle Macho alone even though he was confused because I suddenly just ran away. I have to make Kamine remember me, even though his memory disappears how he feels?

I'll grant your request, Kamine, I'll stay by your side.

To be continue ....