Synesthesia Petals
So Complicated

I fell in love with him, he who is owned by others makes me want to reach him more and then embrace him. However, because something made me unable to get support or permission.

Sawatari Karen, that's my name. After a case involving me with supernatural phenomena, the existence of someone with me is always found unlucky.

But for today, I ventured to go to her house. Even though I was standing in front of his house, the index finger of my right hand could not push the doorbell.

It seems impossible, I have sent him a message but my courage is always extinguished. Even though I fell for her, I wanted to see her and hold her body.

Without realizing it, I pressed the doorbell. Intended to run away feeling panicked, yet someone had opened the door before my intention to run away had just come.

   “Awataris? I thought you wouldn't come even if you sent me a message. It's hot outside, right? Please login.”

The figure of a man wearing a white shirt with his hair cut out and his black trousers looks unsightly. But the look in my eyes was on the figure behind him, I .. fell in love with a cat named Kolbi.

Yes ... none other than Panda's pet cat.

Panda invited me in, I had the intention to return the straw hat I once borrowed. All right, I want to see a cat named Kolbi in Panda's house.

When taking off my shoes, there was a pair of shoes that most likely had a guest who had visited first. I don't want to be a bully, what am I supposed to do?

   “Panda, are there guests?”

   “Hmm? Oh, Kamine and Kifune are visiting all on summer errands. I'll get you a drink, just go in and meet them both.”

   “Ba-good ... ”

I wonder why he can relax with the state of the house visited by several women. Moreover, he lives alone, so accustomed to him to forget about it?

Walking towards the middle room where there is a table with short legs and there are two women of one generation with me is doing all-out summer duties.

   “Ah? Welcome to Sawatari. I didn't expect you to go to Ib— house I mean Mr. Panda.”

Said Kamine who was aware of my presence, Kifune showed me his little note but since it was quite far away I could not read it and instead I waved my hand.

   “Sawatari, what if we do the task this summer together? Wouldn't that be easier?”

   “I'm sorry if I let you down Kamine, I've almost finished everything.”

A momentary silent atmosphere with a blank look of Kamine pointed at me. He kicked down a wooden table used as a study table.

   “Damn it! There's a traitor!”

   “What!? Waitaminute!? Are you always excited like this?”

Following his words, sitting on the empty side, Panda came with a tray of four glasses of sweet iced tea plus a few snacks.

Damn it, Kolbi and Hanoman followed Panda everywhere she went and now the two cats are relaxing on the couch. The view from here has made me happy, my family forbids to keep pets because it takes care of complicated.

Cat lovers like me my family rules make me pretty sick. But with this, I can take my fatigue off.

   “Gawat, it looks like I'm in a harem situation.”

The words of a man sitting opposite me made the three of us blankly look at him. I did not expect his confident words.

   “I just remembered, Sawatari .. do you know anything about the guidance of the Classics Club? Until now I have not seen it.”

Yeah, a question of legend that even I don't know myself.

   “I don't really know either, Kazari senpai doesn't say much. I've seen her once, she's a female teacher who teaches math in second grade. But ever since I got into the Classics Club, she's never been there a single day.”

   “The cause of the supernatural phenomenon that appeared may have occurred when Kazari senpai was first class. The phenomenon I have been looking for the cause until now, is it possible .... in this world there is magic?”

The muttering of the Panda made us speechless, the supernatural phenomenon that he muttered earlier did look like magic. But I also assumed, that the supernatural phenomenon that happened to us must have a cause.

Kamine and Kifune continued their duties. Panda looked at me continuously, I did not know how to avoid it and his gaze disturbed me.

   “Panda, why are you staring at me?”

Damnit damnit! Don't be fooled by it let alone blush! Damnit damnit! He said it with his stupid face!

   “Mr Panda, will your parents be home?”

   “Hmm? No, they told me to go to Jakarta with my sister.”

   “Jakarta? Incidentally, the guidance of the Classics Club was on vacation in Jakarta ... Kazari senpai said it.”

My words made Panda pause for a while and then took her phone but her gaze was still focused on me. Damn, he was really focused on looking at my face so he could call someone without looking at the screen of his phone.

   “Chiyo, it's me. Your brother doesn't love you. Would you like to come to Jakarta?”

Panda dropped his phone and showed us the screen. It is seen that she still calls her sister Chiyo.

   “I'm coming with Brother Laknat!”

The loud noise from his phone made us surprised, I did not think his sister was more dangerous than him let alone a younger sister. From what I see, is their relationship not good or even very familiar?

   “So that's how it is, the next few days I won't be around. Kamine, Kifune .. please take care of Hanoman and Kolbi for me.”

His words hurt me, he allowed Kamine and Kifune to take care of his pet but he didn't offer it to me. Upset, I'm so upset with him.

   “What's Sawatari, you look angry? If you want you can take care of my two cats. Kifune is quite busy with his bakery whereas Kamine has to go back to his family, maybe I should count on you for now Sawatari.”

All right, I'm sorry.

   “Wait a minute? Why are you grinning like that?”

* * * * *

It's quite strange, walking with Kamine under the twilight sky towards the nearest station was agitated for me. I know, he's closer to Panda than anyone else.

   “Sawatari, can I ask you something. But for this time ... can you be honest with me?”

   “Hmm? You rarely show that serious face of yours? Usually you show your little smile.”

   “That's another story. Sawatari, because you can copy other people's supernatural phenomena means you can see what Mr. Panda sees. Do you know anything about black petals? Mr. Panda once said it despite muttering something.”

I can't say it, if I say it then what Panda has been hiding all this time will be in vain. He who has been surrounded by black petals is haunted continuously by death.

   “Sorry Kamine, I don't really know what you mean. By the way, you're close to Panda but you're like lovers.”

The words from me made Kamine show a face I had never seen. I'm not like Panda who can understand a situation and see someone's heart quickly.

   “I can't do it, because it should be .. I've died a long time ago. I don't want him to be burdened by me, I want him to be happy and enjoy his life from the bottom of his heart.”

I don't understand what he's saying. Despite thinking out loud with everything I know, I still didn't find the answer.

   “Only I can remember his name despite his surname. Just with that, isn't the source of the problem with me?”

   “Mu-maybe you're wrong, Panda couldn't have wanted it. If ... ”

If Panda has not done anything to Kamine before, then Kamine is dead and his name can be known and heard clearly.

   “If that's not the case, Panda likes you until she protects you until now?”

   “Didn't you see his face? He hides all his emotions so that others don't worry about him. Mr. Panda I know right now, he's suffering.”

   “You are wrong, at this time he is happy because surrounded by beautiful girl girls like us.”

   “Ah!? Maybe you're right, I didn't think about it because I thought too much about Mr. Panda.”

Damn it, I don't understand Kamine and Panda's way of thinking.

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