Synesthesia Petals
Deciding Relationships
Nautica ...
I was beginning to be forgotten by others. The death that should have happened was the opposite, it made my existence disappear in the minds of people who knew me.
It's true, the person who died will certainly be forgotten by others and this is just my experience. This thing that scares me, being forgotten by others hurts more.
Sitting pensively on an elongated wooden chair in the garden at night. Wherever I go, people who know me will not remember and only remember my face but my name is gone.
This grace ... the ability to see the feelings of others until one's death .. is this a curse? No way, saving someone's life at the expense of myself I didn't even realize.
As long as Kamine remains alive and well always, for me it is enough even though I have been forgotten by her. That's what I thought, but the truth ...
I don't want to be forgotten, I want to make him remember the figure of my existence. I wanted to talk to him, laugh together, but this tragedy made me worse and the decision I made was deadlocked.
Meeting Kamine for the time being might be futile, my current existence had already vanished in his memory and the only way was to break this ability of mine.
“You haven't come home yet? I'm looking for you in some stupid place.”
The words of someone behind me made my ears feel familiar with his slightly hoarse voice. When he looked slowly, he was Senke Fukuhara who was one of my friends.
“Senke ... Do you still know me?”
“Stupid base, your name. Aye? ⁇ ⁇ , wait? Why can't I call you right?”
“Already expected, for now just call me Panda. So ... do you have a need with me?”
“While you said so ...my instinct says that you're in trouble. You are different as always, the one who can solve other people's problems but self-problems can't be solved. Because of that ... My ability I never used on you.”
“Ah? You said it once. Disconnecting, that supernatural phenomenon you're experiencing is making me a hassle with Kamine.”
“Yes, at that time also the bond of others can be broken like cutting a thread that connects two people like a red thread destiny. While you can see the feelings of others, my abilities can be controlled until now thanks to you both.”
“You mean?”
“For now I need your explanation first Panda. After that we solve your problem.”
“Good.”
My answer made Senke show his wide smile. He walked up to me and then sat on the left side, I began to recount the events of absorbing the black flower petals of death until my existence disappeared in the minds of others.
Senke who has gone through supernatural phenomena before, of course he will believe my story. Especially when he tried to call my name, it sounded strange and not understood at all by me even others.
“I wonder why this supernatural phenomenon can be experienced and gain strength beyond reason. The point is I understand, tomorrow I will visit the hospital where Kamine is being treated. Do you want to see him?”
An offer from Senke I refuse, not meeting him at this time is the best option. Currently, the ability of Senke I really need especially spring as the beginning of the first year in the High School will begin.
If I started my relationship with Kamine from the beginning. Just imagining it hurts.
“I leave it to you, Senke.”
* * * * *
Tomorrow ...
Senke invited me to meet in the afternoon, the park last night where we met. He had visited Kamine and got some information, good news and bad news.
Of course, I left earlier than half an hour from the time we both promised. Staring at the reddish twilight sky while leaning my body cold enough on the wooden bench of the garden.
The sound of footsteps rang out behind me, looking as if Senke was exhausted from running to this place. The look we both met, he looked disappointed and worried about something.
“I'm sorry! I did it without your permission!”
I was shocked, and suddenly Senke prostrated himself before me and he kept apologizing to me. I didn't understand it at all, walked up to him and pulled his collar and then hit him in the face until he crashed.
“I don't need to apologize from you, explain what happened when you met Kamine.”
Senke drained his tears, he was really disappointed about something. He begins to recount the incident in which he meets a sleeping Kamine while reading a book, a notebook in which he writes down everything that happens when he is happy.
“Yo Kamine! How are you doing?”
“Of course, where might I miss the event to visit a beautiful girl like you. I brought you pudding and apples.”
Senke approached Kamine and kept the plastic bag he was carrying on the table. Picking up the chair by the window and sitting to the left of Kamine who was reading her notebook.
“What did you read?”
“ ... ”
Kamine did not answer him, he continued reading sheet by sheet with a confused expression. After seeing Senke's smiling face, Kamine began to ask something.
“Senke, do you know anyone named Ibusaki?”
The question certainly made Senke surprised, he still tried to make his expression unread so that Kamine did not realize it. She denied it, Kamine sighed in disappointment with the response from Senke.
“I don't know this guy named Ibusaki. This record is full of memories of me along with a person named Ibusaki, I wonder .. who he really is ... ”
What he said made Senke even more worried, he told Kamine to go to the toilet first and come back here again. Senke came out of Kamine's room, slowly came down and leaned his body against the wall of the hall.
Can't do anything, he doesn't know what to do. Think of some things as the best option, but the effect will have a huge impact on Kamine.
Senke knew that Kamine's health was improving and his legs were slowly recovering quickly.
He waited long enough for Kamine to fall asleep, peeked at him from the door and he got the idea to make Kamine remember Ibusaki.
Entering the room of the hospital Kamine nursed, he used his ability that could cut off one's relationship. The relationship cut by her was Kamine's relationship with me, shock because it suddenly just happened to make Kamine unconscious and in a coma.
It was a fatal mistake, the nurses and doctors who handled it took great pains to find the cause. Coma due to an unknown, but the condition remains stable.
Senke's hasty decision made Kamine miserable, he waited until there was only one nurse guarding him. Senke volunteered to look after her, of course the nurse who was busy handling other patients received an offer from Senke.
That's when he realized it, the relationship he cut began to connect. Like this, Kamine's memory can be repeated even though he is still in a coma. The repeated relationship made my memories with Kamine possible to be repaired.
That's the good news and bad news Senke told me.
We were both sitting on a park bench, to my right was Senke still regretting his decision. Even so I am relieved, if my relationship with Kamine can be repaired even though it takes a long time I will still wait.
“Senke.”
“What?”
*duakk
I kicked Senke who had just turned his head until he fell off the park bench. I was annoyed that Senke was in such a hurry to do so, but I was also happy that Senke could help with problems that I could not solve.
“With this breakeven, the three of us can meet again. Although it takes a long time.”
“Of course.”
Senke stood up without my help, he walked up to me and hit me so hard in the face that I lost my balance.
“Damn, we both are not suitable as friends.”
* * * * * *
Spring, Kamine is still in a coma and early school admission feels empty. Meeting Kazari Amagase who is intent on dropping himself on the bridge, befriends a transfer student who used to meet me in the past until his memory is a little faint because of his ability to repeat time.
Until now I ... can still see Kamine's smile up close.
“What's Ibusaki? Why are you smiling like that? You hear no? This summer we will go to the beach with the others.”
“I heard, damn ... why did you decide for yourself to take Senke, Kifune, Kazari, Sakaguchi, Suzurikawa and even Sawatari.”
“That's a shame, Suzurikawa Senpai didn't come because there was an event. So Ibusaki, did you agree to go to the beach?”
“Of course, I rejected it.”
To Be Continue .....