The Angel of Heaven I Wasted
Begging for Love

To convince Anisa If she's turned into a sholeh husband and good Revan buys something for Anisa.

I have to do good with Nisa so she recommends her friend if I am a good and kind man.

Reyfan stopped by the cake shop and bought a premium chocolate cake. After buying good chocolate, stop by the jewelry store to buy Anisa jewelry.

Then Revan also to the clothing store bought Anisa some clothes with a long veil like Anisa used to wear.

"Otherwise it's what women like. Good food is already fine jewelry clothes already. I hope I can pass the training to be a good husband."

After shopping Reyfan went home and immediately approached the door of Anisa's room.

Tok tok Annisa's room door on tap.

Annisa who was teaching hurriedly came out of her room.

Door crack open.

A smile spread across Reyfan's face.

"Annisa I brought something for you."

Reyfan brought a chocolate cake that looks so delicious.

"This is for me?" annisa asked, she was flattered by Reyfan's kindness.

"Yes dong. But not only that, I also bought jewelry for you."

Reyfan offered his tote bag to Annisa.

Anisa saw a jewel in the tote bag.

"Thank you, ma'am" Annisa was even more flattered by Reyfan's treatment.

"I also bought you some nice clothes for Annisa."

"Yes, thank you, " said Annisa with a happy smile, even her face to redden behind her veil.

"So have I met the criteria of a good husband and Sholeh for that beautiful and beautiful Sholeh woman ?" reyfan asked as he crossed his hands to his chest.

'Oh so because of that, he gave me this all, ' Inner Annisa. He was disappointed too.

"Yes Mas, you are almost the criteria to approach a good and perfect husband. It's just like you don't understand what a good and perfect man is."

"The good husband does not hurt his wife by expecting another woman to be present in their household. A good husband can not only give birth to a living but also an inner living. Making his household sakinah mawadah and warohmah. Not just give it a gift by expecting a reward" said Annisa.

"Huh, it's not like we've agreed not to have sex. Is this one of your ways that I want to touch you?!"

Anisa put away her thin smile.

"The inner blessing is not only related to Mas's husband and wife, but also calmness and comfort. Anyway, we never agreed to have a husband and wife relationship that you don't want to touch me, right."

'It seems like Nisa's only wits to trap me, I should not be persuaded by her seduction, ' Inner Reyfan.

"Yes Nisa, it's because I take care of myself, than later we do husband and wife relationship and you get pregnant how? You don't want me to divorce in pregnancy."

Nisa let out a long sigh from feeling the tightness.

"Yes, we better never touch each other. I'll take care of myself until you really let go of me" Annisa said with trembling lips.

"Ehm, you finally get it. All right, I'm going to go to the room first, I hope you're happy with my gift."

Reyfan passed from Annisa's room.

Annisa closed the door again. Then she leaned against the door of her room 

"Hiks, O God, why am I wrong no longer wishing for my own husband's love, because words always hurt me."

A telephone ringing crane sounded above his nightstand.

Nisa hastily approached her nightstand and raised a video call connection from her mother.

Nisa picked up the phone.

"Assalamu'alaikum Nisa," said Halimah.

"Where are you, son?"

"Nisa's in Mom's room again."

"You want to go?"

"Not really mom. Why why?"

"In your room you're still veiled?" ask Halimah.

'Eh yes I forgot to take off my veil, ' Inner Nisa.

"Oh yes ma'am. Nisa thought there were guests."

"Ehm. Nisa you're okay, aren't you, son?"

"God willing, Nisa is fine. Why is it, Mom."

"It's okay, maybe I miss you."

"Yes mom. God willing next month Nisa will be home."

"Ah no need, if your husband is busy do not force Nak. You call me often, because I often worry about you Nisa. I don't know why you're like this, just this time I'm worried about you."

Anisa bowed lethargic.

Miss Halimah saw a stroke of sadness on Anisa's face.

"Can you be unhappy with your marriage?"

Hah, Annisa was shocked to hear that question.

I can't lie to my own mother. But both parents would be disappointed if they knew what exactly happened in the household.

"Not really mom. Reyfan is good with Annisa. Just got Anisa brought a chocolate cake, got her new jewelry and new clothes." Anisa shows her the clothes, jewelry and food Reyfan gave her.

"Oh thank goodness, son. That means mom's worries are unwarranted."

Annisa gave a faint smile.

"Nisa, are there any signs you're going to get pregnant?"

"Ehm not yet Ma."

"Yes, I'm very patient, Nisa, I hope you have children soon. I can't wait to hold my granddaughter."

"Please pray, ma'am."

"Yes Nak. God willing."

Ms. Halimah hung up her phone.

Nisa dripped her tears back while rubbing her chest..

Nisa sat down to the Qibla and prayed.

"O Allah, my mother would be very disappointed if she knew how our household was. Especially if you know that Reyfan's already planning to divorce me."

"My parents' hearts must have been broken, what should I do. It felt so difficult to endure any longer, as this concerned the self-esteem of the servant as a woman. But if you think about the feelings of both parents servant I feel I am also unable to tell the truth. The servant also does not want to beg for love that will make the servant even more humiliated in the eyes of the servant's husband. Give me a way out, God."

Nisa mengadukan semua kekecewaannya rasa sedih dan marahnya kepada Rabbnya. Setelah menangis-nangis sendiri di kamar Anisa kembali tenang dia pun mempersiapkan diri untuk sholat magrib bersama suaminya.

Demi kebaikan semua Nisa tak boleh menyerah, dia yakin hati Reyfan tak sejeras batu, sedang baru saja ada celah untuk air menggalir.