The Angel of Heaven I Wasted
Decisions

Mr. Imam came to the house of Mr. Usman Najwa's father to tell about Mr. Abdurahman's proposal to his brother Usman.

It just so happened that Mr. Usman and his family were gathered in the living room in their home.

After entering and greeting the Imam sat down and conveyed the mandate of Mr. Abdurahman.

"Usman, this afternoon Mr. Abdurahman visited my house, he expressed his desire to propose to Najwa."

Usman and wife throw each other smiles.

'Alhamdulillah Mas. Who would refuse to have a daughter-in-law like Adam."

"The plan is next week he will hold a proposal and direct determination of the day. Just waiting for our decision."

"Alhamdulillah, I have been waiting for you. If they can get married soon, because he said Najwa also wants to continue his studies in the city."

Najwa heard it and immediately looked down at his face. The Imam was aware of the changes that had occurred in the look on Najwa's face.

"Najwa, aren't you happy to hear this news?" ask the Imam.

"No Bi, why would Adam?" ask Najwa lirih.

"Najwa, we ourselves know how Adam. I've known him since Adam was born. We also know how Mr. Abdurahman educated him. For a while I haven't been judged if there's a better man than Adam's son."

Najwa's lips shriveled.

"But Adam has proposed to Nisa three times. That means Adam really loved Nisa."

"Astaghfirullah Najwa, do not remember the past. If Adam wasn't a match for Annisa. The odds of Adam's soul mate are you son."

Najwa breathed her long breath.

"Najwa, do you have a candidate of your own choice?" ask the Imam.

"It's not so Abi…." Najwa did not continue his words.

'Then how's Nak?"

Najwa lowered his face again.

Imam and Mr. Usman were suddenly confused

 It feels bad if they have to refuse a proposal from Mr. Abdurahman back. As for Adam, many of their companions wanted an arranged marriage between them.

But they don't want to push Najwa, either.

***

Dinner at the Imam's house. After eating the Imam and the family chatted for a moment.

"Nisa, the father had conveyed Mr. Abdurahman's proposal to your Abimu. But it looks like Najwa didn't approve of it.

"Hm, did Najwa give the reason Well?"

"Yes, he said he wouldn't mind accepting Adam because Adam proposed to you three times. So try to have a good talk with Najwa."

"Ehm, well Dad. It seems only women understand women's feelings."

"Yes Nisa, you persuaded Najwa that he would accept Adam's proposal. Your brother was hoping that Adam was a mate for Najwa."

"Yes Well, tomorrow Nisa will talk to Najwa."

***

The next day Nisa approached her cousin's sister in Najwa's room directly.

"Assalamualaikum" said Annisa in front of Najwa's open door.

"Waalaikumsalam, uh mbak, please come in."

"Duh who just applied," said Anisa as she landed her butt next to Najwa.

"Cock your face doesn't seem happy anyway?" ask Annisa while poking Najwa's chin.

"Not so mbak," said Najwa lirih.

Najwa bowed again .

"Why don't you want to tell the same story?" ask Annisa.

"Sir, if I may refuse this match."

"Loh why? adam is the best man in the village. We have known Mas Adam since childhood, and we already know how Mas Adam in his daily life."

"Yes I know that too."

"Then why?" anisa asked as she stroked Najwa's hair half wet and scattered.

'Are you worried that Ma'am will take Mas Adam away from you?" ask Nisa.

Najwa was silent.

"I'm not worried about you, Ma'am. I'm just worried about my own feelings."

"Why is that ?" 

"Because I know Mas Adam loves Anisa's mother. How would you feel if you were married to a man who loves his brother."

Nisa took a long breath.

"What if Mas Adam knew, if the household mbak Nisa and mas Reyfan is currently there is a rift."

Anisa smile.

"Najwa, you can't be prejudiced like that. If the household of Mbak and Mas Reyfan could not be saved again. Ma'am doesn't live here Najwa. Nor will Nisa ever disturb your household. And I think Adam knows how to treat his wife."

Najwa glanced at Nisa.

"Mas Adam was a good man, wasn't he?" Ask Najwa.

'Yes Adam was a good man."

'Didn't you want to give Mas Adam a chance to have Mbak Nisa?"

Nisa was stunned to hear Najwa's question.

"Didn't you have the slightest taste for Mas Adam?" ask Najwa.

'What do you think of Najwa? How could Sister Nisa love Mas Adam."

"Maybe not now, but how someday."

"Hm, Najwa. Honestly, I know how you feel. Every Wife would want her husband just for her, just love her.  But remember, Allah is the One who turns over his servant's heart. God can turn feelings of love into hate, and feelings of hate into love easily. So you don't worry about things that aren't necessarily happening. It will only ruin your heart."

Najwa was back down.

Nisa is very understanding of Najwa's feelings. Because she also experienced what it felt like not being loved by her husband. Especially if the husband asks to marry another woman.

Anisa rubbed Najwa's head and placed it on her shoulder.

"I'm sorry Najwa yes Mbak has been prejudiced against Mbak."

"It's okay, Najwa. You've never experienced in your position."

"But I'm sure, God willing, Adam is not the man you think he is. I'm sure he'll take good care of you and protect you."

Najwa fell silent again while daydreaming.

It seems like Najwa was confused to determine his pace. She is worried that if Anisa parted ways with Reyfan, Adam would ask her to marry Anisa.

Of course that feeling made Najwa think a thousand times. 

If only she wasn't Anisa, maybe Najwa could still accept Adam. But the woman is Nisa, and Najwa feels that Nisa is better than herself and more worthy to be with Adam.

Nisa berusaha untuk membujuk Najwa agar dia berpikiran positif. Mereka pun banyak bercerita dan Berbagi pengalaman.

***

Keesokan harinya.

Pak imam datang kembali untuk menemui pak Usman dan pak Imam di situ mereka sekeluarga berunding menanyakan keputusan Najwa.

"Bagaimana Najwa, apa kamu mau menerima lamaran Adam?" tanya pak Imam.

Najwa dan Anisa saling memandang.

"Bismillah Bi, Najwa accepted it" said Najwa.

"Alhamdulillah" cried all of them.

"Alhamdulillah." Nisa hugged Najwa.

"May you be happy with your decision, Najwa, the best prayer is always for you."

"Yes, after hearing the advice of mbak in Nisa, I do Istikharah prayers and my heart tends to accept Adam's mas."

"Thank God, all that is good comes from Allah SWT. Bad dams come from ourselves. That's why involve God in making decisions" Nisa's advice again.

"Yes, ma'am."

After hearing Najwa's decision, Mr. Usman's family also gave a decision to Mr. Abdurrahman's family about their proposal.