
I haven't walked with my friend in a long time without Damian, today we decided to refresh the tired brain after full day school.
We walk to the mall in our city just to ngadem , just get together, buy drinks and snacks the rest we spend time to hang out gibahin people π wkwk.
Today should be a day full of laughter without any burden of thought. But everything changed instantly when I saw the figure of Diki in front of me. My world stopped spinning, I didn't hear my friends, I didn't see anyone here but Diki, my heart was slashed like a knife, my heart was beating fast, my eyes were refusing to take my eyes off, I was so angry, I was so angry, my grudge is very turbulent, I want to kill Diki right now, I want to feel bad about Diki here with all my swearing.
"Raya" Diki greeted me with a slightly surprised face.
I didn't even look back at him, I was hurt by this meeting. How could this creature appear before me after a long time disappeared like swallowed by the earth.
I clenched my hands, I tried to hold back my emotions as much as possible.
"What am I supposed to do in front of this man?" my mind's upset.
"Why?" I answered him with a sniffle.
"I don't know if we meet here, you have changed now more beautiful" he said without any shame or regret. His attitude really made me grow angry .
Now that I turned my eyes to my friends, I saw their faces tense. I invite them to immediately leave this selfless human .
I walked quickly without answering or staring at Diki again, my body was already very hot holding back the anger. All my memories of him were replayed, I remember the cruel way he left me.
I tried to calm myself down, I washed my face in the sink, then I wiped it with a tissue so no one knew I was crying.
I came out of the toilet and Gita hugged me.
"Remember Damian, remember Damian" whispered Gita.
My efforts to be invisible after crying, now useless because tears just broke.
"Damian has tried to make you happy, not necessarily there are men as good as Damian who can accept you as you are and can thank the certainty of the relationship as soon as this. Please, bury deeply about Diki" added Gita, his words made me even more devastated . The tightness in my chest reluctantly disappeared. Either way Diki is my first love, especially she also took my chastity. My God, I'm sorry for all my past .
The situation is not possible to continue having fun. My friends decided to take me home. I'm still so moody, I can't digest all of Gita's words. I really want to pay back all Diki's actions, make him fall in love with me to forget the land and I will throw him just like he did to me first.
"I must reply, I must reply, I must reinforce" my inner voice cried out.
My mind is round, I should be able to hurt Diki more pain than I feel. I had to destroy his life just like he did to me.
Seriate...