THE DARK STORY OF MY LIFE
Revenge 1
I threw my body into the bed after the streets failed today. I closed my eyes, the meeting just kept rolling in my mind.
"When I buried my old love, I erased all these shadows and memories, but why did it collapse for a moment after meeting you? " my mumbling while drowning my face in the pillow, I couldn't help but cry, the tightness of my chest withstanding the heartache.
I hate Diki so much right now, but I can't lie to my feeling that there's still love left in it.
Oh my God, I'm in a dilemma.... I was anxious to make Diki regret immeasurably throw me away, but I was also afraid Damian was hurt because of my ego and ambition towards Diki.
I really can't think clearly at this time, I play the Geisha-Dry My Eyes Water song to better satisfy my desire to cry at this time.
*Slow for you to realize
Repeating that love again
Inflammate my heart because of you
Holding back the longings that have not been
Not my dictionary anymore
Repeating all the longs
It is heavy to be back
Tortured to miss you
I swear to death you broke my soul
Presently
Too late for you to understand
Lovely love that again
Not my dictionary anymore
Repeating all the longs
It is heavy to be back
Tortured to miss you
I swear to death you broke my soul
Presently
My tears are over
Tortured of losing you
I swear to death you broke my soul
Presently
Tortured to miss you
The death oath you're breaking my soul right now
My tears are over
Tortured of losing you
I swear to death you broke my soul
Presently
Tortured 'I miss you (right now)
Tortured to miss you
I swear to death you broke my soul
Currently*
I was lulled in song, I spilled all my frustration, I satisfied that these vain tears just flowed down my cheeks .
"Why is this sober? why ? why????" I was getting frustrated with my own thoughts. I don't remember Damian, I don't remember what a ring in my day means, I don't remember my current mass.
I can't control myself, I'm so angry, I'm so sad, I hate it but I also love 😠"Oh my God, what would my heart and mind want right now ? I don't know what I want "I don't understand.
Tired of this soul and body, my energy and mind drained just from meeting with Diki, I began to sleep in my cries.
***
"Raya, wake up." I heard my mother's voice as she shook my hand.
" Wake up, it's getting late. Take a shower" added the mother.
"Huaaah" I regained my senses a little and began to stretch my body, it felt very comfortable.
Once satisfied, I began to sit down and collect my life. My eyes were still heavy, I refused to leave my bed, but my mother kept waking me up to take a shower.
Inevitably, dislikefully, it seems like I have to take a bath this afternoon in a sleepy state. Mom was out of my room, I saw that I had a lot of messages and missed calls.
All these messages from my group chat wa friends, chat wa from Damian, missed calls from Damian daaaan there are 1 more unknown number that sent me a message too.
Seriate...