The Dragon'S Blue Gem
(S3) Chapter 175 [Is This an Identity Crisis? ]

A Moment Before the Fall of the Soaring Continent

A beautiful girl with clean white wings was flying a few inches above sea level. With just a little low, the girl's feet can touch the luminous seawater reflecting the moonlight.

The purpose of the girl is none other than the beach is far from human reach because it is surrounded by steep rocks. The girl landed on the sand of a very fine beach, white and clean like the wings on her back. As soon as the girl's foot was on the sand, her wings closed and disappeared.

The girl sat on the sand hugging her knees. He stared at the vast ocean in front of him. His eyes were silent and full of thought. For a moment, he was silent like that. Not saying anything, not thinking about anything. Just shut up, look at the beautiful ocean.

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After a few minutes like that, he finally looked at his right palm with a strange look.

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"I... Who exactly is...?" muttered.

Inside his head, his memories twisted back enough to burden him. The memory of a blonde girl who was left alone with a young blue-haired woman who fell asleep in her bed. The two women met in their dreams and became close in just one meeting. Not to forget, the memory of the haired girl and the black eyes that could change her form, as well as the memory of the fall of the two women from the sky after they clasped each other also flashed in her head.

The last memory he turned back was the time when the girl hit him right in the stomach of a young man he had just met.

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Now I wonder... Is this what people call the "Identity Crisis"?

It is true that dozens of questions have been answered.

But hundreds of new questions flooded my head.

Not thinking about it has made me dizzy.

Ha~ahh....

I put my foot on the white sand of the beach. It felt a little tickling because there was nothing separating the sand and my skin. The night wind that hit my hair didn't make me feel the slightest chill. Maybe it's the privilege of one of my body's races.

These heavy eyes now point towards a star-filled night sky and adorned the Aurora.

"Yueva Satalin Luxvieda, daughter of the demon king... Rubylia Arsilla, vampire nobleman of the Levana Empire... Michael, one of the five Arc-Angel protectors of Demetria.." murmured.

"Everything's an amazing identity..."

How strange...

Though the memory that now fills my head is the memory of 4 different people, no.. What is 3.5 huh? You see, Yue is not completely. ah, forget that. The point is that even though that much memory filled my head, my brain was not overcapacity.

Is this what Airella means?

Even more strange, I did question my current identity, but I did not feel at all the name of losing my identity. It just completes the missing puzzle piece. A person who is amnesiac by accident, manages to get his memory back. Is not that kind of person, arguably different people before and after amnesia, but also the same person?

My feelings are similar to that.

I have absolutely no problem with this merger.I am grateful to have done it. Because I feel like I'm getting back to being who I really am.

Before though I was, no. Although Ruby had obtained Tiara's memories, it wasn't completely. The original tiara, which in his previous life had memories of the first to fifth life either since when. That was the reason why the 'me' at that time was too mature and rational, and too genius even for adults. Even though I was still childish in front of my family. The essence of Tiara's former nature is the result of his entire memory. So it's weird that Tiara's memory was sent to Ruby. From the beginning it was incomplete.

I am so grateful to have gotten my memory and soul.

It's just...

It's a little. emm. (frown).

It's enough to shock me.

Kak Syam was reincarnated as Aqua and was also my lovers in previous lives.

In addition, Sister Kirana was also reincarnated as Neelima, her sister's colleague now due in the messenger of Goddess Hestia.

How is that...

Cake...

Don't tell me there will suddenly be information that Sis Shana also joined reincarnation so who is it? (cold sweat)

No, no, no. My mind is far off...

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Hufth....

My reaction should have been much more frenzied than this, but Ruby and Mika's side calmed each other down because of the knowledge we had.

... On second thought I and I were bragging about the memory of who dominated. I just remembered.

Funnier.

Whose memory dominates?

Pfftts... In fact, all the memories that I thought would eat each other were completely devoured by something different.

Now I understand what Airella meant if, no matter how many memories mixed in, I would still be me.

But as they develop, those fragmented traits fill the existing void with new traits that mimic the missing original trait. Easily, the more they grow, the more similar their properties are to each other. That was why there was no great shock when the merger occurred.

Yes it is.

If the normal case should be...

But. third me this is an abnormal case...

Mika hundreds of times regression? Just be right!

Ruby also uses a mixture of Tiara's memories.

And Yue.he was the most normal anyway, but still he had once repeated his own time and it made his nature develop faster as well.

The point is that due to external factors, their nature becomes a bit messy. So the result made me more dazed and question my own identity...

Just make it dizzy!

Now what am I supposed to do?

Once I realized that until I sat on this beach, I had arranged my mixed feelings and memories to be neat. But it still feels a little strange.

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Mind tired. I lay my body on the sand of the beach. My heavy eyes and feelings made me want to escape to dreamland alone. But I cannot lose this consciousness. No matter how mentally tired I am now.

"Actually where can everything be this complicated...?"

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"I'm this... stupid huh...?"

"Why am I asking for sure?"

I got up from my cozy bed with a heavy heart but also a light one (okay I know this is weird, but that's how it feels).

Where's the source of this problem, huh?

That's the obvious one, because the first life as Michael, aka before me that regression, all was fine until the third merger smoothly victorious. All of these problems happened, because before getting a full memory as Airella, I who had gained the wholeness of my soul, always died.

Yeah, I'm dead.

Hundred times.

Whether it was when he was Michael, or when he joined.

Everyone dies in the end.

Sometimes the one who died was a big brother, but for the sake of repeating time, I killed myself. Time and time again.

Until the pain became common.

The only reason why the regression memories only arrived to Mika although sometimes we had joined before the regression, was because Mika was the smartest among the three. Because the burden of regression memory can only be accommodated one soul fragment to remain stable. But even with that, changing the future is something very difficult.

Countless more how many failures I (Mika) experienced.

Any regression could put Mika back to 1-3 years ago. If it had exceeded 3 years, he could not repeat the time back because the repetition of time like that was the original magic that Mika created for emergency moments and the payment was his life. Fortunately Mika is also the daughter of the Goddess, thanks to which her life is only eroded little by little, not to directly kill her. Even so, still. The one whose name goes back in time, reviving the dead and immortality is a taboo magic that can make its users get high karma.

Without caring about all that, Mika continues to repeat the time until finally she herself does not remember how many times she repeated the time.

It took 27x regression to stay alive until we (my sister and I) knew the truth of our birth. At first Mika takes 10-15 years with Aqua, Yue and Ruby before they finally know the truth of Airella's soul split. And now, thanks to Mika's plan to take advantage of Lucifer's betrayal, she was able to shorten that time in the dungeon so that the groove runs faster and fewer victims.

It took 32x regression before Mika joined Yue because Yue always ended up becoming the demon lord and made it impossible to join because of her blackened soul.

It takes 44x regression before Mika and joins Ruby and because Ruby and Mika always end up crazing. Why could? Of course the answer was because of Yue. If Yue became a demon lord and her soul blackened, the ones affected were not just Yue. Mika and Ruby who are other fragments of his soul will be tainted and make their souls unstable. Instability is the reason they go crazy and cannot think clearly.

Thanks to all of that experience, Mika scheduled in detail when she should maximum join Ruby before joining Yue, thanks to which Mika could reduce the regression she did.

It took 8x the regression for the three to successfully merge well, without any major problems.

But the real problem comes from there. Even though the three of them had joined forces, because my brother and I were still too weak, we were easily destroyed by all our enemies. Neither my enemy nor my brother's enemy.

From here the difficulty increases dramatically. It took 117x regression for the two of us to successfully survive and defeat Nostra and all of our enemies. We beat them too fast. There was a puzzle piece that passed. And that puzzle is an important part of this survival mission.

After that, we always die before fighting the Goddess of Evil.

Due to being too focused on survival, I (Mika) also missed some information that I should have known the details.

But it's too late...

Like I said earlier, I can only repeat a maximum of 3 years. That's why I slightly repeated the time so as not to make any mistakes because I will no longer be able to repeat if it's past 3 years.

Even though I've done that, I still missed some important things at the beginning of this story.

Regrets always come too late, that's right. And now there is no point in repeating 3 years if the mistake happened very early. Whatever I do after that, it will only make things worse and pointless

The ending I get is always the same.

In the midst of that despair, the strange girl came.