The End of Two Semesters
Chapter 32 – No Haram Children

“Why turned off?” ask Arya.

“Women's name I know what Naira feels like, Ar.” My answer.

I've decided to go with Arya to Jakarta, but it's like this. Three days Arya in Jakarta, instead cut off her relationship with Naira, and be honest with her if she already has a wife. I don't think Arya would do any of that. I don't know what Arya's goal is, why she made that decision. It's totally unexpected, I'm here to see Fano, and Fano apologizes to me, and wants to take responsibility. While in Jakarta Arya decided on Naira, and said she now has a wife.

When I decided to return to Jakarta, there Arya was having problems with Naira who did not accept that Arya had married me. Should I go see Naira, and help her get back with Arya? Convince Arya's mother, in order to accept their relationship? Did I marry Arya for a while? After this child is born Arya will divorce me? Then what's the point of me admitting to everyone that I'm Arya's wife that I'm going to end up parting with her?

But, if I say I'm only temporary, so that Arya can return with Naira, then do I also have to give Fano the opportunity to return to me, and tell her that I married Arya only temporarily? He told me he was going to change, did I have to give him a chance to fix himself? He is my son's real father.

It's enough, I don't want to get dizzy thinking about all this. I just want my life to be quiet, for my son's sake I'll obey Arya, go back to Jakarta and stay with her at her house. I was also afraid that Fano would continue to see me again, especially if I knew that he was a very reckless person, especially if I knew that I was married to Arya only temporarily? The marriage agreement is only me and Arya who know, the other year I got married really without any agreement.

“San, are you angry?” ask Arya.

“No, think again, why did you do that to Naira?” my answer.

“Because there's no way that me and him are united, San?”

“Is there no other way? Try to talk well with your mother and father for example? This wedding is temporary, right, Ar?”

“Yes I know all this is only temporary, but my mother, father, and all the witnesses who witnessed our marriage this year our marriage is fine, San? I don't want to hurt mom anymore either, it's enough that I make mom worry, just because I think I'm still with Naira or not.”

“Do you not want to forgive her father Naira?”

“I'm sorry for it, but still remember, San. Naira's father's words until now I still remember, I know I'm not clear the origin, at that time I was angry with my mother, why did not tell all that, mother did not tell all that, all I know is I'm my father's son, San. But it's not.”

I saw Arya's eyes staring blankly forward, her eyes condensed, I don't know what Arya was feeling, I just saw Arya like this, she rubbed the corner of her eyes with her finger. “Put the car, Ar. You are not okay, do not drive first, we find a good place to chat, yes?” I ventured to rub Arya's arm.

Arya pulled her car over, she propped her head up at the wheel of the car, I heard her sobbing, inexplicably she cried. “Ar, are you okay?” I dare to rub his back.

“I am an illegitimate child, San,” Arya said sobbing.

“Hey you don't talk like that, Ar. No illegitimate child, Ar,”, I said to appease Arya.

“Ma—you mean?”

“I am not the biological son of father, true father Naira, I am an illegitimate child, child of rape.” The cry of Arya grew louder, I just saw a very weak Aryan like this.

“I'm a bastard, San,” said Arya.

“Arya don't say that.”

“Then said mother, mother betrothed her father to the son of a close friend to cover the disgrace of the mother who had been in my custody, the man who was betrothed to mother knows mother already in my custody, because his father was good friends with my feet, yes they accept the condition of mother. Mother slightly forgot what the face of the man who raped her, mother remembered only vaguely, mother nurut with kakung to marry the choice of man she arranged. From there, the person who married the mother, who the mother said was my father, did not accept and continued to hurt the mother. Since the departure of the kakung, the mother suffered more, the mother left the father at the gestational age of the mother was great, and the father said with everyone, it is not desirable to have a former wife, and the child of rape.” Arya explained everything in a stamped and raucous voice.

I know why Arya can come like that with me, it's all because Arya doesn't want me to be like her mother. I was pregnant, but I knew who the father of the baby I was carrying, only that I would not be held responsible. Unlike the mother, the mother is the victim of rape.

“You know, San. It used to be that mother's house was close to Naira's parents' house, that's why Naira's father and mother knew who the mother was, and I was the child of what? They told mom that they wouldn't dress up with a cheap woman. Is mom like that? Mother is only a victim, a rape victim, not a cheap woman. I was hurt by them too, for making fun of my mother, and I realized I had not been anything when I proposed to Naira. But, my love for Naira is still there, we are trying to improve again, but still Naira's father's words are still imprinted in my mother's heart, and my heart.”

“I don't want to hurt mom anymore, San. If I stay reckless with Naira, it's the same that I hurt mom. Better the sick Naira, than the mother. Is she not my wife yet? Now I choose not to hurt the two women who will live with me, you and mom. I want to make you and mom happy, San. Mother is dear to you, you are my mother's choice, do I have to disappoint you again if you know our marriage is only temporary, San?”

Arya's words warmed my heart a little. Is he serious about making me happy? I was afraid that one day I would fall in love with Arya, but Arya still has love for Naira. First love is hard to forget.

“San, stay with me, stay my wife. I'll make you happy, San. From now on there is no more agreement,” said Arya.

“You don't make decisions when your mind is screwed, Ar. Calm your mind first, don't talk about it. Yes I will come with you back to Jakarta,”.

“Still yes, San, already want to hear my story,” said Arya.

“I'm your wife, right? If there is any story, I can help you. Calm your heart, we go home. Here I am driving.”

“Do not have your stomach already big.” Said Arya by rubbing my head.

Arya returned her car, when she was somewhat calm. This time I will try to be Arya's companion, I'm sure Arya will forget Naira, for her mother's sake. Yes, even for her mother's sake, not for mine. And I'll forget about Fano, but I don't want to run away from the fact that the kid I'm carrying is Fano's kid.