The End of Two Semesters
Chapter 36 – I Will Learn to Love You

“You really didn't eat at home?” ask Arni.

“Iya, Mom. I have promised Santi, would take dinner outside,” replied Arya.

“Ya already then, be careful on the road, and happy dating,” said Arni.

Arya and Santi go with Arni and Rozak for dinner outside. Arya had reserved a restaurant for dinner together with her wife. Arya drove her car to the restaurant.

“It's not wrong we want to eat here, Ar?” ask Santi.

“No, this is true,” replied Arya.

“It's not too fancy to eat here?”

“Gak, it's normal, come down,” invite Arya.

Arya takes Santi's hand to go inside. He took her to the special room he had booked this afternoon.

“Ar, I know your money a lot, don't gini dong? Dinner alone in such a luxurious place?”

“For my wife what is not?” answer Arya.

“Yes what can I do besides obey my husband?” said Santi.

They both enjoyed dinner. Actually Arya wants to express her feelings to Santi, but she is afraid Santi misunderstood, and considered Santi as a runaway only, because he just broke off the relationship with Naira. Arya had thought about it long ago to finish her relationship with Naira which was not clear how it ended. She loves Naira very much, but the person she has loved the most since she was a child does not approve of her relationship with Naira. Arya remembers her mother saying that she can have relationships with any woman except Naira. Naira's name seems to have been blacklisted by her mother Arya from the list of female names for Arya.

Almost two hours later they chatted, danced, and joked after dinner, but Arya did not dare to say that she did not want to continue her two-semester marriage agreement with Santi. But, Santi seems to know the purpose of Arya tonight, and Santi should not be off guard, when Arya wants to talk about her intentions and goals, Santi always shifts the topic of conversation.

“It's been night, Ar. Home yuk, later scolded mom,” invite Santi.

“We are husband-wife, why are you angry?” answer Arya.

“Yes too, but am I pregnant?”

“Ya let's go home.”

Arriving in front of the restaurant, as Santi was about to get into the car, he heard the woman speaking in a dislike tone nearby.

“Wah .. This is your wife, Ar? A model full of scandals! This isn't your son, is it, Ar?”

“Naira? What are you doing here?” ask Arya.

“Do not need you know I'm here why, I need an explanation from you about this woman!” naira answered by looking at Santi with a cynical look.

“San, enter first,” Arya's word.

“Iya, Ar,” replied Santi.

“Eh ... play just come in you! You know my relationship with Arya was ruined because of you!” erang Naira's.

“Nai, nothing to do with Santi! It's my will to break up with you!” arya.

“Why did you choose him, Ar? Which one does he say he wants to fight, Ar? I was half dead fighting for my father's blessing, but you married this woman instead? Who is pregnant, but not your child? You think so, Ar?! If she's a dirty woman!”

“You can be angry because you broke up with Arya, but please don't involve Santi!” yell Aryan.

“Already, you guys don't make a fuss! Please take care of your business! I don't want to interfere! Just so you know, I married Arya because Arya asked for it, and it was quiet that our marriage was not long, only one year. Just wait until this child is born, if you want, and of course if Arya also still want?” santi said by leaving Arya and Naira. “Oh yes one more, I am indeed a dirty woman, I am pregnant first, I am attached to the night world and **** free, but I still have attitude when talking in public places! Don't you see a lot of people looking at your stupid behavior, Miss?! Everyone who sees can judge who has manners, and who does not!” Say Santi with great emphasis.

“I'll go home first, Ar. Finish your business with your girlfriend!” pamit Santi's.

“Santi, don't go home! We leave together, and where are you going?”

“To your home! Where else to go? I'm not going to get lost, it's in Jakarta, the rat gang I know, so I can easily find my way back to your house. Relax, do not worry I can give reasons to mom and dad, why I go home alone,” said Santi. Santi's hand waved as there was a taxi in front of him. He stopped the taxi. “I go home first, Ar,” says Santi.

“Gak! You should come home with me!” Arya pulls the body of Santi who is about to get into the taxi. “Street, Sir!” arya told the driver.

“Good, Mr. Arya,” replied the driver who knew Arya.

Arya looked at Naira with a cynical look. He doesn't care about Naira being hurt by her decision. Better hurt now, than later his mother still does not approve of him.

“Naira, I told you, don't bother me, we're alone, I can't go back with you. I'm married, so please stop seeing me, and make a fuss!” Arya.

“Arya, but I can't ..” He said with a sob.

“You can do it, Nai. I'm sure,” said Arya.

“Arya, I can't. Please, let me wait for you to get your blessing, whenever you can mother's blessing. I can't gini, Arya ... I beg ...”

“I can't, Nai. Please don't do this, Nai?”

“She said you were married temporarily, until her son was born?”

“Yes, but I still can't, I can't fight mom. Already, we're quite up here, Nai. You're home, huh? I ordered a taxi,” said Arya.

Arya also could not bear to see such a chaotic Naira. Naira who dared in public talk like that, but this is not the person of Naira who Arya knows.

“Come home, Nai?” arya. Naira was still crying, Arya could not bear to see her, she hugged Naira.

“Nai, I am also hard to let go of you, but even harder if I get married without the blessing of mother, I can't, Nai. If there is a choice of mother or you, honestly in my heart I choose you, but under the circumstances, I cannot leave mother, I love her more than anything,” says Arya calms Naira.

“You rest easy, I will help you so that I will bless you. I was wrong to enter into your relationship, but believe me, we married not in love, and only temporarily. Don't worry we'll fall in love. Both Arya and I have a heart we must guard. It's been a better night you go home, let Arya take you,” said Santi.

“I'll take a taxi, Ar. Relax I won't run away anyway,” said Santi to Arya.

“Gak, you come home with me, can't take a taxi!” Arya.

Naira got into the taxi. Then Arya went on to go home with Santi. Santi just stayed in the car, he didn't say anything, didn't want to discuss anything else with Arya. Clearly, Arya still loves Naira a lot from the way Arya treated Naira.

“What's your goal to break up with Naira anyway, Ar? Even if you ask me to continue being your wife, it will never change how you feel about Naira, Ar?” santi Gumam.

They've reached home. Santi immediately cleaned himself up and changed his clothes with a nightgown. After that, he immediately climbed onto the bed, and tried to close his eyes. He doesn't care if there's Arya next to him. Santi was still silent, unwilling to discuss anything with Arya, because according to Santi everything was clear.

Santi turned his back on Arya. He was busy wiping his tears, and held back his sobbing so that Arya would not hear him.

“I'm sorry for that one, San. That was beyond my expectations,” said Arya.

“Hmmm .. is okay, I understand. Rest, it's night. Tomorrow I have permission to meet my mom and dad, yes?” pamit Santi's.

“Papa? Are you going to see your dad too?” ask Arya.

“I'll try to go home, meet papa and mama. If papa drives me away I've left again, the important thing is I've tried to meet papa, want to apologize, because all this time I've been wrong with them,” replied Santi.

“Besok me to deliver, yes?”

“No need, Ar. I can do it myself,” replied Santi.

“But, San?”

“Ar, now that I understand, you still love Naira very much. Already Ar, I will try to help you, so that I can bless you. I'm sure you can, bless you?”

“We're married, San. Don't talk that way, until whenever you're my wife, I'll learn to love you, San. Forget the agreement, we married it's legal, not a contract!” Arya.

“Can marriage be without love?”

“I'm the same you can be, right? Not even touching each other? Naira's problem, I'll solve everything, never tell me to come back with Naira, I can't. It's all because I want to learn to love you, San.” Arya's words were sincere, even though Santi did not see it.

Arya wrapped her hands in Santi's stomach, then rubbed Santi's already bloated stomach. Arya kisses Santi's head, and hears Santi sobbing.

“Don't cry, I'm sorry, San? Already asleep, tomorrow morning I will take you to the office, it is time for office people to know who you are, and what my status is.”

“You are not ashamed to have a pregnant wife, but the child in the womb is someone else's child?”

“I don't care about that, San. Let's go to bed.”

Arya tightened her embrace, Santi also rubbed Arya's hand on her stomach.

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P.O.V Aryan

I do love Naira a lot, but what about mom if I force my ego to stick with Naira without my mother blessing it? It wouldn't be possible, that there's a heartache mom if I were like that. Especially to the point of knowing there was a marriage agreement between me and Santi, I must be getting angry with me. I saw that I could accept Santi, I could love Santi, I could happily accept my marriage to Santi, even though I knew what Santi was like in his past, it was a joy to myself. Although sometimes it seems in my mind, if Santi were Naira, I would be happier.  But, it doesn't seem like it's going to happen that way. I will never accept Naira until any time.

My mother's heartache also hurt my heart, but I already loved Naira, so I can still accept her father Naira's treatment first, I received a joke from her father Naira long ago, she said, because that is the truth. However, not for mother, mother has already been hurt by the words of her father Naira, despite the fact that I am a child who is not clear who the father is. Mother is a victim, mother does not want her fate like that, and mother took a very long time to recover from the incident, but her father Naira reminded again, and talk does not use the heart against me and my mother at that time.

I'm married to Santi. I chose to marry her, even though I didn't love her. I just want the child in her birth not to be the same fate as me, born without a father. Although Santi is not a rape victim like a mother, but somehow I really want to marry her? Dashingly I ask for the blessing of Santi's parents when they are going to marry him, even though I just know Santi, I do not know how Santi, who I know she ran away pregnant, and I know that she is pregnant, and will be married to a paid man because his lover is not responsible.

The more days I get, the less I can get away from Santi. I don't know what binds this heart, so I can't get away from it. I want to take care of him, always ask him what he is doing at home. Even I was willing to leave my job just to see if Santi was okay or not. I don't love him, but it feels like the universe and its contents have diverted me to always take care of Santi, and maybe divert my love.

Maybe other men will not be willing to marry women who are pregnant, let alone pregnant with other men? There are some who want, there are also frills, there is a dowry from the female side, so that the child is born there is a father. While me? Already knew she would be married to the man her family paid for, instead I hid her, and married her? At that time in my mind, I wanted the child to be born there is a father, until I forget everything. I also could not bear if she was in the world of people alone, and in a state of pregnancy, let alone I know she got pregnant like that because of what. I could have put Santi on Sri Ma'am or Tati's Ma'am, but I'm the one who escorted him away, and I'm the one responsible.

Tomorrow, I've convinced myself to tell you my status now. I'll introduce Santi to the office employees. Santi is now part of my life, and it's fitting that he's also known by people who know about me. I don't care if anyone says why marry a pregnant woman, and it's not my son? I don't care that, I just want everyone in the office to know that I'm married. Tomorrow I'll also take him to see his parents. I'm not sure Mr. Hermawan wants to see him, he is very stubborn, even if the father of the story about Santi only Mr. Hermawan like not listening to him. Said Mr. Hermawan look disappointed when he heard the name Santi.

Santi changed his sleeping position, he was facing me, and his hands were holding me. I hugged him, and I rubbed his head, I rubbed his stomach increasingly bulging, and maybe next month my status will change to a father, even though the child in Santi's womb is not my own flesh and blood.

Santi opened her eyes, and looked at me who was hugging her. He looked up and smiled at me. Her smile was so sweet, she was so beautiful, no wonder she was a model, just pregnant she kept her body.

“Kok wake?” ask me while rubbing

“My waist hurts, Ar,” replied Santi. “What's because it's almost giving birth huh, Ar? So my waist hurts often?”

“Iya said so, yesterday you regularly take vitamins and medicine from a doctor, right?” much

“Iya has been drinking regularly, “ replied Santi. “You haven't slept, Ar?” ask Santi.

“Iya, not yet, not yet able to sleep,” I replied by rubbing his waist which he said hurt.

“Thinking what? Naira?”

“No, thought you were the one who met your papa, afraid your papa is still angry with you, and did not want to accept you,” I replied.

“You don't have to think about that, I know papa. Papa is like that, but papa loves me very much, there is no way papa can kick me out if I go there,” explained Santi.

“You sure you'll see him?”

“Yakin, I know my papa, I'm sure papa understands why I ran away, hopefully papa can accept me again,” said Santi

“Yes already, tomorrow from my office, I take you to your house, how?” my many.

“Ar, I don't think I should be introduced to your office, aren't you ashamed of my situation? I'm already pregnant, and this isn't your child. And, all those people must know me, Ar,”.

“I don't care what people say, San. You are my wife, want people to know about you or how, I don't care,”.

“But I'm not ready, Ar. I'm not ready to be known to anyone that I'm your wife. Later, Ar. Wait for me to be ready, wait for me to give birth first, I'm ashamed, Ar. I hope you know how I feel,” he said.

“OK, if you're not ready, tomorrow I'll take you to see your parents. Let's go back to sleep, I'll wipe your waist so you can keep it a little,”

Right, maybe Santi's not ready for people to know that she's my wife. I know how he is. There is a point later if Santi is ready for his condition. But, why am I worried that Santi will meet his papa? I'm afraid that her papa can't control her emotions if she meets Santi.