The Happiness of a Wives in Sia Kan
chapter 23
Tonight kang Firman as usual attacked me without stopping but for the first time I felt bland and did not enjoy it. although I see it means for kang Firman, kang Firman, he kept attacking me. until he was done sleeping. I looked at his face. I was like a pel**r his personal. I grimaced in horror. when I went home to give money and raise my body as I pleased. when I was tired I fell asleep.
In the morning I was still relaxing to enjoy my last vacation until the Word woke up and approached me.
"neng why daydream.!" he said as he approached me on the porch.
"hasn't ko kang eaten, have I,?" ask me to switch the conversation.
"just now.!" his words while sitting on the side chair between me and kang Firman blocked the table that there is his ashtray. he lit his roko. he sucked his roko with pleasure. there is no talk between me and the Word. We are equally immersed in each other's thoughts.
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Today kang Firman stay for the first time in the house mba Nani because it has given birth 4 months ago and got a daughter who in dream kang Firman. a week ago he was done with his puerperium.and for the first time his kang Firman went not to work but to meet his first wife. surely he will ask for the ration that he has long awaited.I also look forward to this moment to prove whether the kang Word changed or remained as before. this heart feels very sick to imagine the reality that will occur between the kang Firman and mba Nani. I also cried for the first time.I embraced the roll that faithfully accompanied me. this heart is very painful.I want to scream as loud as her.maybe this is also felt mba Nani when she knew her husband decided to marry again, but maybe more pain she. because he already has a child I have not. I cry so so so it's tonight as in the night I mourn the nipp to mengikhlaskan mas Adi first. but this time the pain is very terribly painful.this chest tight as if there is a heavy burden on it. until I can hold it again. until I fall asleep because of fatigue.
Once in the morning I woke up and did all my activities, but after my cooking was ready I was reluctant to touch her. I returned to bed. I sat down with my own knees hugged. the tears still will not stop until he is free to come out of my eyes. ta care again with the state of my eyes that began to swell due to crying.
One week has passed kang Firman has not just come home because he immediately went to work from home mba Nani he brought a truck there because the yard of his house can be for parking. I was still lamenting my nasip. kang Firman had broken his promise that said it would be fair to both of us. Actually now I was set aside. I realized this had become a risk to me. from the beginning I knew I was just his escape.I stood looking at the mirror how messy I was. I also combed my hair to tidy it up.
tock, knock, poke, knock, somebody's knocking on my door.