THE HEIR
BLISS
“I understand”, Irfan nodded and then, entering his room, I also entered my room, but before going to bed I prayed Isya first.
And when I finished praying, I said a prayer to Allah, and tears flowed and I cried, on my face, complaining with all that I felt in my heart, all this time, it made me very very depressed with the situation, and I felt very unsettled, and sometimes in the ghost of a true feeling - really heavy stress.
“Yes Allah......, I beg You, the way out of all this, because sometimes, I have been unable to bear what all I feel, and I feel unable to do so, to swallow all that I felt alone, but fortunately I was no longer alone, I was with Irfan, a friend, who was like my own family, loving me sincerely perfecting, what I have been feeling, imperfect in life, I feel the lack of love and affection in life is a lack of love and affection, from the person who should have given that to me”
I put my face on the prayer mat and I cried there, and then I just wiped my tears, when I heard someone open the door and stand beside me, I looked up, and then tidied up my prayer rug, and folded my face.
Irfan ended up sitting in front of me, who was standing there, hugging me, and tears were dripping as well.
“Ri...”, Shrink Irfan.
“If only, from the beginning, I also do not easily believe, the same fans I especially, all will not be like this, even though I already know, characteristics – characteristics what they are like from the beginning, I already have a bad feeling, but sometimes I also feel upset, and do not know who to tell the same story, I feel troubled and worried, with the circumstances, with what I feel this too, the truth is, the problem is that netizens may not behave so, if not because there are those who provoke them to do so, and that manas – manasin, all this time I was also them, to the person – that person, so as if I feel the wrong – right netizen, but it's my own fans”, said Irfan.
“That's his name main pretty”, sahutku brief.
“So mommy and papa you said”, Irfan started to continue his chat with me.
I put my prayer device back into place, and began to listen to Irfan talk to me, as I sat by the bedside.
“They say send you to me and my family, if anything happens what – is the same they, or one of them, what happens – what, what happens, they really hope that I am your only – protector, who really understands what you feel, even understands your problems, and even understands your problems, it's a situation with your own heart what it's like, I know sometimes it makes you upset, moreover, the stroke your mama had from the brain, sometimes in a moment of relapse of his childlike thoughts, he would act like a child, and in that moment, the person with malicious intentions easily affected him, he said, so it becomes chaotic like this and makes you a scapegoat, in addition there is a supernatural shipment from them also”, said Irfan at length.
“I understand Fan”, I nod my head.
“We chat in front of yuk”, invite me.
“Mumpung I do not want to sleep maybe in a moment, I still want to hear you talking to me”, I said again.
“Yeah then the snacks near the TV are still a lot”, ! irfan exclaimed, and we both came out of the room.
“Irfan”, I reprimanded herself in a soft voice.
“Actually, sometimes I felt guilty too, because I had entered the group so that every event you held, mama I became like to misunderstand, if you ask for the money, if you ask for it, are your fans and Mira, so they think it's you, and your family when it's not, and I know what you're like Fan, knows” very well, I said with tears in my eyes.
“You remember fitting me in Singapore”, I looked into Irfan's eyes sharply, and then I took another snack of spicy chips, and chewed on them, which happened to be placed in the TV room as well.
“Well I remember about it”, Irfan nodded his head.
“The problem of my mother's birthday, and Mama Reina, misunderstood the money problem held by their joint group to buy a cake, and you were asked for money too, make it, make it, though you wanted to give gifts to Mama Reina from your own initiative, and actually, at that time, too, I never told them to give a gift, love, I said instead don't give – what, and mama I also said, but you read it yourself, in the group and in all my Instragram fans, right, yesterday if that's what my mom said, and I, this is the same slander name”, said Irfan at length.
“Ri...”, Irfan started want to say – he said to me.
“If in error again for self-introspection, is my fault, which from the beginning, just for recruiting fans at that time, because the wrong of my own thinking is also Ri”, because, irfan's tears are dripping.
“Honestly well fan, it is not my intention to dictate”, arrive – just arrive I want to say firmly with Irfan.
“The problem is wrong, from your own, from your thought that was Fan, I often hear your interview sometimes – sometimes, when I do not know you, and I have heard, and I have heard, you feel yourself strong because of the support of others, and that is your fans, in addition to your family also”, I said.
“Irfan of what I'm going through now, that someone's kindness is a sincere person not coming from support because of success, but the person who protected and took care of you, and now you are aware of yourself, she said, his name is also a fan, sometimes they are not people in the way of God, but the way of Satan deifies man, and the family is not necessarily a good person as you expect”, I said.
“And man actually, there is nothing to hope for, even if there is someone whose heart is sincere, and can be a protector, does not mean to be expected, as we hope for God, it's just that person, is a trust from God, to take care of us, and to protect us, and I know what you feel in life is just like me, you feel alone, you feel alone, with it, people – people are not right to be your confiding friends, so you vent to carelessly others”, I said forward the word – said again.
“I do too, because I also have a college friend like a doggggg who comes at the time of the button doang, send whatsapp or phone because there is a need doang, never want to hear or pick up the phone, but later if there is a need for him, his own ego, contact me, kayak what, sometimes at dawn also he calls, I am not a doll, which can be used carelessly others so”, so, my emotions began to explode for some reason when I was discussing a matter like this.
“Rianti, I don't mean to make you angry either, and get this emotional hook, I just want to apologize if it's my fault for you too, too, I used to be too easy to trust with others too, just because the person is good, when what looks good is not necessarily good, just because he is considerate when we do not know the content of someone's heart”, but, Irfan added the word – said.
“All because it used to be your mama, overindulging your opinion, without your mama giving a reprimand against your complaint with another person's problem, or giving advice, or giving advice, I have actually told Mama Vinda, you should not be too spoiled by the problems you face, because you are a – male, and must be able to face this hard life”, because you are a male, sahutku.