The Saint Class Reincarnator
CHAPTER 36: SHADOWLESS CLARITY

I dream. In the dream everything I experienced felt so slow but so fast. It felt like I was part of my own desire. Trying to escape my will was difficult, like something chasing me from behind my shadow.

- What are you doing?

He said so, I don't know what his face looks like. I can't see it clearly, it looks very blurry.

- Do you want to run?

If only it could. This world and the old world make no difference. A life that depends on strength and where there is power there is also a place where power becomes powerless.

- Easy. Why don't you just die?

...It's like, he knows what's inside me!

[During unconsciousness. Body removal is done temporarily.]

Yep. The monitor was always on my side. Even if he is just a skill. His presence made me calm and peaceful. I realized that without a monitor I was nothing but my old self bound by the old world. I thank you.

The days have passed so quickly. While I was in the colorless dimensional space always looked at the footage from my old memories. Hologram screens flew around me and showed me all the video footage of my life.

At the top center of the screen is the title of each and as well as the date and events of what happened. Like the traces of me during my lifetime in the old world were there.

- Year xx98 — young children are born from a harmonious family.

That's new to me. Where I was born for the first time in this world. My little hand, and my tiny body seemed to be crushed in one hug. But I don't want to remember it. Change the next screen.

- Year xx00 — first time talking and first time can walk.

So sweet. Yes, I can be confident when I look at my tiny, sweet self who can now walk even if only slowly and grasping the hand of a woman, she is my mother.

I laughed when I saw myself fall and the wound on his forehead flushed red. But I don't want to continue.

- Year xx05 — go to school and make friends.

I only smiled bitterly when I saw myself in elementary school wearing a black uniform and vest with the emblem of Changdo academy. All students and students leave and are escorted by their parents. But i... I changed the next screen.

- Year xx11 — both parents divorced and school life bad.

I replaced...

- Year xx15 — cases where discrimination is getting worse.

I replaced...

- Year xx18 - studying as a student...

I replaced...

I changed and kept changing. I bit my own lips to the point of bleeding and many times wanted to destroy all the footage that was in front of me.

This is probably the entertainment I get. Because being in a place where there is only white color makes me bored. Even so why of the many amusements, why should the recording of life that I do not want to remember anymore!

It felt like this was not entertainment, but a punishment for myself.

The titles listed in each video documentation strongly reflect the events that I will experience.

That fact, I don't want to remember anymore.

Guggugu!

After that something shook my dimensional space. Mild tremors such as earthquake warnings made the screens broken. I slowly raised my head upwards and tried to study the situation uninterestedly. Right now the monitor is working on my body, while he can't be contacted, then what vibration it is.

Will I finally wake up?

I laughed wryly. Woke up? It's a word I don't want to identify with. If I build an SSS-level world or something it will destroy me again. I hope not to wake up.

Sasasa!

At that very instant, all the recording screens disappeared and were replaced by something else. The possibility that I can see and make sure is that this is a monitor that is repairing my body.

Golden lightning sparks danced in the air in front of me. I who sat in an empty chair could only look blankly ahead, where the lightning was now turning into nets and painting knit something there.

The writing implied in the thread thread.

[‘Descendant of Diligent, Yohan Raven’ is desperate!]

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ loses its light!]

The threads moved with a blink as if he wanted a response from his reaction to me. I just kept looking at the sentence blankly and thinking. ‘Why do they look desperate?’ as if I didn't care, what happened next was the one that answered that thought.

[‘Descendant of Diligent, Yohan Raven’ look forward to its ruler!]

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ wonders where the ruler is missing!]

The spark was getting fiercer with each second. Like he said, look at this. And scream with sparks of an electric storm. The dreams continue. For days over the last few weeks. The sentence from the thread cable continued to materialize like an entertainment for a long time in this empty place, alone.

[‘Descendant of Obedient, Yohan Raven’ thinks how to be strong.]

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ says that being strong is possible.]

My pensive gaze then became interested in looking towards the direction the sentence was located. It was a small battle of a dialogue debate. I subconsciously smiled slightly at the sentence that described the two figures.

I hope that's true, they always just stare as if they are eternal enemies. But, if they are with me, I am sure that is the strength they are looking for.

[‘Descendant of Diligent, Yohan Raven’ train without rest without using skill.]

Why didn't he use his skills? It was a gift and a blessing worthy of walking by his side. At least be a part of his own life.

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ is waiting for the light to return.]

From that sentence the depiction can be imagined very clearly. A moment that never once left or left. He's loyal in his draftsman. Yeah, that's what he is. The one who was known to have the most terrible curse was now her inner being injured.

Day by day it continues. The ferocity of the storm in my dimensional space was getting more and more irregular. Shocks due to the effects of this storm to make this place as if hit by the waves of the end of the world. A wave that doesn't know when it's going to end.

[‘Descendant of Diligent, Yohan Raven’ crying!]

The space shocks did not stop. However, when it was also in my perception it was as if a storm had not occurred. And I looked at the writing. The writing that slowly dripped pure water and condensed once fell on the floor of this landscape.

[‘Descendant of Diligent, Yohan Raven’ says don't vote on dream immortality!]

It continues in its writing. As if his handwriting was lousy, the next scribble of sentences twitched slightly.

[‘Descendant of Diligent, Yohan Raven’ wait and cry.]

I can't anymore. That was the most desperate thing I've ever seen. Until his words became blurry and fuzzy as if each letter was hit by his tears.

Then the next one came making a pressure that chained my skin.

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ wait from outside.]

It was sad, moved, sick, and in the most fallen state. No matter how long he lived, no matter how painful his life was. He did not want to lose his place by the side of the light.

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ would like to ask.]

If only the world had no curse or a plague where one could go mad. So he was the first to become the master of restraining madness. But, he who was expert at enduring the pain now could not put any effort into maintaining his rationality and knocked desperately on the invisible wall.

[‘Chain of Obedient, Heros De Charita’ pleads for his hope to return.]

I can feel the feeling of depression without my next action.

Right, from the beginning this was not because of that sentence. But because of the sentences that appear, without describing the feelings experienced by the character I can feel it directly clearly in my heart.

This feeling belongs to them.

How painful this is. No, I don't want any more of these painful feelings. My emotions would be broken if I didn't know my own. What am I supposed to do?

I squeezed tightly into my chest. I hit my chest many times but it didn't hurt at all. Hoping that if there was a sword or sharp object here, I wanted to defend my chest and let out this feeling right away.

But, I can't.

Then the shaking finally stopped. I who fell from my empty chair just stared at the sentence floating in the air now blurry and will soon disappear.

My hands hesitantly and a feeling of indecision slowly rose to reach for the sentence. Then ‘Ctas!’ the electricity stung and knocked my hand. Then I stared at my own hands, blood dripping from these palms. It hurts, why does it hurt?

All the sentences of the thread disappeared.

Sitting on the landscape ground just looking at it made me sober up. Ah... I'm alone again. Desperate in this void is too long to wait for that hope to come.

Guggugu!

[Reporting. Skill ‘Holy Blessing Apostle (L)’ request activation!]

Suddenly a familiar screen appeared from below me looking at this white landscape. I don't know what is going on, but I hit the word ‘Izinkan’ and then it disappeared.

[Reporting. Activation granted. Skill ‘Guardian of Charity’ has risen 10%.]

[The benefits of this resurrection. Accelerate the healing process of the Passive attribute.]

[‘Guardian of Charity’ started his work!]

The old hollow feeling I felt in an instant shattered. The entire scene from the floor around me slowly collapsed in its white coloring. The dimensional space shook gently and crept into something colored.

I looked at this whole place and was confused.

The floor turns into a beautiful rainbow color. The infinite and transparent walls become a refreshing and beautiful sight of the four seasons. Then the sky above my head that had nothing, opened majestically and exposed the universe and its contents.

The view I never saw was here. Spring, autumn, winter, summer, I can see from the four walls (front, back, left, and right). At that time there came out the cute little fairies were playing cheerfully and jumping between spring and autumn, then the next season.

[‘Clarity Shadowless, Veronica Vrada’ is waiting for you!]

Then suddenly a figure of light that was the blink of an eye flew from the direction of the four seasons and the sky. Stare sharply at me and say as expected of his personality.

come back, motherfucker!

I can only smile wryly.

[Starting awareness.]

Ah... The world is too beautiful to leave behind. I who had hoped not to return had to return soon because there were tasks and people waiting for me and until someone was willing to sell his pride.

Then my vision slowly darkened. I left this dimensional space.