The Smile of the Heart Fruit
Flashbacks

 *FLASHBACK KAYLA*

“ I don't know why tonight I was so thinking about all the things that happened in my life, from the beginning I knew a man – men who had taken my virginity first. She was my first boyfriend, and her age was very different from mine.

Every time we meet with me, he always asks me to have intercourse. Until finally I decided to leave him, because I was tired every time I met him I always made his lustful gratification.

He and I separated and we were no longer in contact. But at a time I never expected, he arrived – arrived to come to me, he asked me so that I would return to dating him. But at that time I refused his request. I don't want to be made a place for him to satisfy his lust.

Until he threatened me. She told me that if I didn't comply with all her requests, she would force me to have sex “Perkosaku”. I am still not willing and will never want to have that relationship with him again. Until finally when I was walking home alone from school, I was sealed by him and brought to an empty rented house owned by his father.  

There I was pushed so that my body fell to the floor. He began to forcibly remove all the clothes I was wearing, then he began to throw away all the passions that he had been craving. He did his wicked deed violently. My hands were tied to the wood, and my legs were tied together. And it was at that moment that he began to vent his lust.

That's not the only thing that makes me this way. Finished me, he immediately invited some of his friends to have sex with me. At that time I could not do what – what. I can only give up, I can only shut up and obey all the will of my boyfriend first.

And finished having intercourse all that, I was ordered to take a shower and clean my body full of fluid that came out of some men – men especially my girlfriend first. Then I was invited to go shopping to a large mall, there I was spoiled by him.

Some luxury items I bought, but he has absolutely no objection to all my – options. He didn't care about the price of the things I took. That's where my story begins.

After his death, he was already dead. He died in an accident while he was going to work. The night before the tragic incident happened to him, he went with his – friends to a Cafe and they were all doing a miras party. I really touched all that.

Since his departure that's what makes me crazy about goods – luxury goods. With selfishness and prestige that has covered my heart, I started selling myself to – men. And all that I did without my mother knowing.

Because I was afraid that if Mama found out I was doing that, she would be very sad. I'm stupid I only think about myself, I only think about luxury living with luxury goods. But it was too late to regret it.

What else I've taken someone else's husband. Because then I realized that I wanted to change my life like this by having a husband. Then I thought it was Akbar who would be able to change my life so despicable.

I've made a woman strip and suffer because her husband left her and preferred me. While at that time she was pregnant with the son of – men that I love. Not only that, I also made his son suffer and went to the hospital all because of my evil deeds.

And Alex, Alex has poisoned my brain to do something I should no longer be doing, making my own sister-in-law suffer. Here it is not only my sister-in-law who is hurt by this kind of despicable act that I have done. I have also made my husband more disappointed and very hurt because of me.

How stupid of me. You idiot!

The happiness I felt, the comfort I felt seemed irreplaceable. Memories in the long run by the warm touch of affection Mas Akbar to me, his concern for my condition every day, his understanding with my attitude will all be a record of my story.

If only that wonderful time could I turn back, along with the sweet memories of my good times. But all of that was just a dream. Regret is always the last.

But I can still be grateful in my last – period, I still have a mom who cares about me a lot. I have troubled him a lot. I can still see my mother's wrinkle face. The one who gave birth to me and raised me alone after my divorce from my father.

My only love is one, take care and protect my mother God.

-“Mah, Kayla knows, Kayla is aware of the mistakes that Kayla has made so far. Kayla realizes that Kayla is not your perfect little daughter. What else Kayla has made mama feel embarrassed and very disappointed by Kayla's disgusting actions. After Kayla left for – long Kayla hope that mom can smile and always be happy. Kayla will always see you up there, be the star you always have in your heart. Mah, once again forgive Kayla, because Kayla has not been able to be a good boy and boast for mama. I love You mom so much..” -.

(a short letter that Kayla deliberately wrote to Ida when she was gone)

A short letter to my mom because I know that I have been very – very disappointed her heart, and made her hurt. I remember the first time you got mad at me, when I got caught cheating on you with Alex. It was then that I saw my mother get angry and strip off for the first time.

“Once again forgive Kayla ya mah. Thank you for raising Kayla and loving Kayla with all your heart.”

Hhhhuuuffft...

I don't have much time left to breathe and open my eyes while looking at the beautiful moonlight.

My job now is to apologize to everyone I hurt. I should be able to meet them, especially Kia and Rainbow.”

*FLASHBACK KAYLA*

Kayla came out of the room and walked into a garden, then looked up at the sky while remembering her life. He sat in his wheelchair, wearing a knit hood and a thick jacket. Her tears were slowly dripping down her cheeks. That night he also wrote a short letter to Ida, his beloved mother.

*Backsound*

🎵 Mother - Melly goeslow 🎵

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