The Story Of Self Harm.
Om HENDRA AND AUNT SARAH

Good morning, good morning,

I am Kartika Wulandari a senior student at a University in S State My day-to-day activities are to compile a thesis to obtain a bachelor's degree that I may not actually want.

Yes, everything I do because of the compulsion of om and aunt where I live now, all I do to return the favor,because they are the ones who are now taking care of me and becoming guardian parents after the departure of mom and dad to Heaven, aunt and om have ambitions for their children to go to Psychology and until now I do not know what the biggest reason they so want their offspring to enter the department.

But in fact, the twins Kevin and Rico chose to study in the Department of Business and when they finished college they continued their S2 degree abroad by pioneering their business in the the culinary field of Indonesia.

Yes yes and for several years I have never met Kevin or Rico again, usually we just voice call with an existing mobile application.

And in the end I was the one who obeyed om and aunt to study in Psychology Department.

This morning the weather was very bright, without feeling I had woken up early and went straight to the bathroom.

Tok tok" Tika, Tika wake up Tika, aunty go well inside"

Brakk!! at once I was in the bathroom shocked to hear the sound of the door opening very hard and it was there that I realized that I had forgotten to lock the door last night, I finished the ritual in a hurry and got out of the bathroom.

"auntie Sarah, what's up? Tika you forgot what day it is today?

Tan Tika's sunday won't likely forget the day,

tika tika tante means today is the anniversary of your mother's death, quickly get ready and immediately go down to breakfast after that we go to your mother's grave"

Jeez Tika forgot auntie forgive Tika

I purposely forgot about her, because remembering that today was the happiest day I had a few years ago, if you do not listen to my confession that finally made mama think and fall ill maybe at this time I can still feel the embrace of mama.

"Hey Tika don't daydream!! immediately get ready aunt wait below along with om"

Instantly I flinched because of aunt Sarah's voice, "yes aunt Tika change clothes first" I answered half annoyed that aunt Sarah seemed to deliberately make me not to rethink the story in the past with a shout of aunt sarah that made a shock.

Memories that still make this heart sore if continued to remember.

Bad papa! papa's evil! papa's evil! papa's evil! papa's evil! without feeling my tears flow again and it did not take long to make my tears burst again in the room,as I remembered the pain and instantly I took the razor and prepared to re-correct it in my arms as I often do,

because by doing this for a moment can relieve a feeling that is so painful in my heart.

"TIKAAAAAA FAST DOWN" heard aunt Sarah's voice from below,

"yes aunt Tika is coming down soon"

Lansung I threw the razor on the floor of the room, changed clothes and dressed up and immediately went down to meet om and aunt at the dinner table for breakfast together.

When I got downstairs, I went to the dinner table and took some bread without a word.

Thank you Om Hendra but this is enough for Tika, Tika is full" while returning the bread given to Hendra om to his place with a face that is still down because I do not want om and aunt saw my face that was crying.

"Yes, I don't want to see my dear niece starving on the road, so before we go to your mama's grave, we have to have breakfast first"while Hendra stroked his hair and at once I avoided Hendra's hand with a very very fear.

"Hey Tika you why is there something wrong with Om's attitude to you?"instantly the sound of aunty who was loud made me shocked for the second time.

"No tan, just not shampooing" The answer to what is this Oh my God, this is all that comes to my mind for a moment.

"Haha haha Tika tika you are our niece who we already consider to be our own son"

I saw om and aunt laughing together, and I saw they were both very happy, they were enjoying their old age happily.

"When this house was just the three of us and the maids and drivers, you were now in both of us's old age, so sometimes we still thought you were a child, without feeling your age is soon 21 years old, forgive me, Tika"

Yes, it should be Tika who apologized, yes, let's finish this morning and immediately go to mama's grave"

At the end of the meal, the three of us were waiting for the driver in the front yard.

"Good morning Mr. Hendra, lady Sarah, Miss Kartika the car is washed clean and ready for use, good morning Mr. Udin"

as we entered the depths of the car, Pak Udin was one of the loyal drivers who still worked for the Hendra Darmawan family, he worked from his youth until his old age,although he was old but his vision was still sharp to work as a personal driver om and aunt, as well as their confidant.

Since the company is held by Kevin and Rico om and aunt is indeed more at home and occasionally go on vacation.

Throughout the journey I have pondered a lot about my life which is sometimes like a merry-go-round that can be rotated at any moment

A few moments later.

"Stop!! stop that!! mr Udin stop!! stop this car, stop! "

Lansung Pak Udin suddenly brake the car om and aunt so shocked to see me.

" What's wrong with music?"immediately aunt Sarah immediately hugged me tightly, "aunty Tika dizzy, aunt Tika sick do we go home without going to mama's grave?

no Tika we're gonna stay there, but tan? Tika om sure you will be fine, walk again Mr. Udin,"

Momentarily, om and aunt hugged me and calmed me down in the car.

God what am I feeling? why does my heart hurt? and my head hurts so much when I'm going to mama's grave? when did this happen to God?

I kept hugging Aunt Sarah on every trip to my mom's grave.