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|Novel is not intended for readers under 17 years and who are easily disturbed, this whole story is just fiction should not imitate or bring it to the real world. Just enjoy it and take the lesson (if any), again this is not a novel for your underage already big all your actions please bear alone do not try to copy the kayak scene in the film or novel and end silly truss in fact the creator, do not try to imitate, again, don't be silly. So much Thank you.|
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December 25th, 2021
“Let's end this friendship....”.
Come to think of it that was the beginning of everything,
Is this my fault? It's definitely my fault.
“If only, I never said it.” A small voice wrapped in regret spoke from the mouth of a young man who was staring at the stars with a blank look.
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Why....... This can happen.......?
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Walking towards the place of the agreement of the two of us, today will be the day that you will be mine, as well as me who will be yours alone, for now and forever. Bind promises and love on Christmas, let the sky be a witness, let the footprints on the snow be proof, let this scarf be the connector of heart, let the, let the decorative lights on each side of the city be the lights of the road both of us to start everything together, the two rings I set up will be the change from you and me to ‘kita’ .
Against the flow of the crowd and through it, looking at the cotton candy vendor next to me, without me realizing I was already smiling, an ordinary cotton candy vending booth, at least that's how other people feel, but not with me, a small hook made me capture the memory of him.
“True too, he will not care about anything if it is no cotton candy.....”.
I continued my journey after bringing one for her,
“……..Like a little kid he was.” My little murmur while smiling.
See the fireworks booth, see,
“He always surprised me and bothered me with this thing, there were no peaceful days without a heart attack from him, back then I always felt that he was annoying, but now I miss him.”.
“……..Like a child.” My little murmur while imagining how the expression on her face when I gave all of this to her when I met her, the more I imagined the greater my impatience to meet her again.
Again my steps stopped but this time I saw a cake shop, my attention was full of chocolate birthday cake on display in the storefront.
“If in hindsight I haven't thanked her for the cake yet huh, as I recall she made it herself and gave it to me one day before my birthday, huh? *Smiling small*I also wonder how he made brown bread salty.”
I turned my face to continue my journey barefoot, that,
“Truly, you are the most childish girl I have ever known.............. it never ceases to surprise me and there is never any boss when with you, I am grateful to have met you.”
Everyone went to the place where fireworks and Christmas trees lit up with their partners. While I walk in the opposite direction when people see me they immediately make a distance, although I can not see it clearly but I know, created a variety of reactions from their faces, afraid, shocked, disgusted and not even a few of them pretended not to see me, some of the reactions I had seen before from the booth sellers I went to. Without caring about it all I walked towards the place I was headed to, away from the crowd, away from the light, away from the warmth, sitting on a cold garden bench single-handedly staring at the ground blankly.
“I can do absolutely nothing...” a voice full of regret wrapped in increasingly cold air.
I put the cotton candy that had started to shrink beside me along with the fireworks.
In the midst of the crowd, but not a sound reached my ears,
In the midst of the festivity of decorative lights, there was no color or light shining in my eyes.
In this world of noisiness and color, accompanied by the red scarf hanging around my neck made me remember it even more.
Why would…….
Why the………….
I clasped the red scarf tightly trying to reassemble the remnants of the warmth left behind to remember it. In the darkness a snowfall began to fall for the first time,
The clock shows at 9 pm, the middle of the city is becoming increasingly crowded filled by couples who are making out
10 Nights, fireworks begin to be launched and decorate Christmas Eve with the stars.
In this gray world I was frozen in regret that I could never pay for.
12 Nights, the crowd had already begun to dwindle and the place was starting to quiet down. Everyone went back to their homes and also enjoyed their little party.
In the darkness, sitting alone looking at the sky and also the snow that fell past me just like that, the cold pierced my skin but not as painful as this reality I had long realized.
“I know, no matter how long I wait he won't come.”
I hugged tightly the red scarf that no longer left your warmth there with tears.
I'm sorry, Tia……..