THORNS IN MARRIAGE
CHAPTER 56 - FIVE DAYS OF TIRAKAT

It turns out that the trials that come when doing tirakat are also quite heavy.

The hallucinations and temptations of thinking about the good old days were my toughest challenges.

All, like slice by slice the movie of my life that God showed. From happiness to suffering, it all drains my emotions to keep thinking about it again.

But thinking back to my original intention of doing all this. Restore the soul of Jordan who is currently in another realm for the sending of one's actions.

Even on the third day of my life, my inner eyes that had been opened by Wak Hardi began to see the other side of the invisible beings that were wandering around. Even the numbers are so incalculable.

That is how nature looks like in this world. Not just human. But God created other creatures - the genies, the demons and the most evil demons.

Apparitions for the sake of the apparitions made my physique weaken. My strength was reduced considerably compared to the first and second days. Even my body shivers with coldness like a merry although the lips and heart continue to mengdawakan kalam Ilahi. There was an old notebook containing other winning prayers that Wak also gave before I stepped in the closed room.

"Liana! Liana!..."

I woke up from my sleep with mild hypothermia.

There was a white-robed grandfather, in his right hand was a clear glass of water.

"Drink! Read the Basmallah by mentioning the name of your Lord Who is Master of All Sciences in the Universe!"

"Liana is fasting, Mbah!" I said I just remembered that I'm a tirakat.

"It's okay, even if it's just a sip. This is prayer water!"

I who looked weak, even difficult to lift the body so limp even tried to take a glass filled with water. Suddenly, the glass came out. And spilled my face.

Fresh taste feels soaked all over the face.

"Bah, sorry... Liana had no power to hold her glass because she was limp!"

"It's okay. Wipe your face with a heart of laughter at Allah. He is the Lord of the Whole Universe. Ask Allah for anything. Not to mountains, rocks or trees. That's the idol's name!"

I'm nodding. Closing my eyes while wiping the look of my face that was covered by one glass of water.

Oh, my God, my God... I want to be happy. World hereafter. I want Jordan to heal as he was, and Jonathan can accept our situation no matter what. Whether we are a match or not. I don't want Irsyad and Katliya to hate me. If he does send something bad to me and my relatives and those closest to me, please protect us! Return what they send. Keep my family away from bad things, disasters and distress. Aami...

Like a dream, but not sleep. Like in real nature, but it's like I'm in other parts of the world. There are so many beautiful women and handsome men who are playing happily.

Like being in a beautiful garden full of colorful flowers. Very pampering to the eyes.

Suddenly the earth collapsed. Then it was dark for a moment. The beautiful handsome faces immediately changed various forms and apparently. There was a head that turned into a snake head. There was also his body becoming like a four-legged animal but the head remained human, but the face was ugly. Everything changed. Made my body shudder in fear until the cold came back.

The faintness of my head is like hearing my own voice.

Here's world. Full of trickery and just mirages. All beauty is just a moment. All that is perfect is flawless, slowly changing as the world ages and its inhabitants. Only the strong-hearted survive the temptations of the world. This is just a parable.

I feel like my chest is tight. My eyes were glaring, my mouth felt very bitter.

As if a heavy burden was falling on me, I stammered about to scream for help.

"U..u_uwak...! To_to_please!"

It was very difficult to get out another two words. It was like a pair of hoofed hands that continued to lengthen suffocated my neck.

Abaghfirullahal...

Abaghfirullahal...

Oh, my God, my God! I'm just scared of you! I fear You, O God! Fear nothing but You!

Again a disembodied head floated slowly before me. And...

The puffed head suddenly stopped exactly ten centimeters in front of my face.

Abaghfirullahal...

Cold sweat pours out from all over the pores. The two pairs of red big eyes were glaring until they looked like veins. And again I try to remain upright to call the asthma of God my Creator.

Oh, my God, Karim! Protect me from the damned shetan!

By God, my heart is actually very scared. But I must not be afraid because the devil is no more noble than I am! Nah! I'm just afraid of God! Just fear God!

Like someone was about to get out of my dub* hole because of a natural fear. But I immediately knocked this body down.

Nope, no! I can't cancel ablution! I must abdas immediately, take abdu again!

Immediately I put my foot into the dark back room and only a small lamp lit.

The sound of female laughter giggled, making my hair bristling. Fear, but not fear. They are the same, the creation of Allah Ta'ala. They're not even on par with me who's a human. Which God created with the predicate of the most perfect creature than any other creature.

Most Holy is Allah, Who created the earth with all its contents.

I urinate, then return to ablution to keep my heart clean.

I don't know how many days I've been in the room for this tirakat. Until forget everything. Always remember God and God.

.............

I opened my eyelids slowly because there was sunlight shining down. His gentle and holy warmth penetrated into the skin of my face.

"Miana..."

I turned to the heavy voice full of charisma from the figure sitting before me.

"Sir..."

"Alhamdulilbornrobbil'alamiin! Thank God my daughter is back!"

"Sir, have I completed my tirakat perfectly?"

"It's over, Liana! You don't need to continue!"

"What day is it? Did I fail? I want to go back!"

For some reason, my desire is now very strong to continue my seven-day, seven-night fast. And perform the ritual to the fullest as Wak wants me to.

"Guess you've got the mandate, you're okay not to continue it, Liana!"

"Why is that, Wak? What was? Was it not at the beginning that Wak told me to continue this baton of hereditary family heritage science?"

"Liana! Abah Anom Kyai came to me in a dream. Your father is the last of the descendants. And I can't continue galvanizing you anymore!"

"Why, Wak?"

"You turned out to be a tough woman who could scent the name of our ancestral village, but could also destroy it in an instant. You were the last incredible drop. And Wak must not use you as a shield for this ancestral land!"

"Geezer! It's halfway through. Liana is ready to continue tirakat. Liana please, Wak!"

Wak Hardi looked into my eyes in disbelief. Maybe he was surprised to see my guts now spewing and no longer shivering in fear.

"Assalamualaikum Ki Jali, Ki Maung! Thank you, for keeping the descendants of Kyai Tubagus Wetan to date! Thank you so much, Liana!"

I could see two large white animal figures with their thick fine feathers standing beside Wak Hardi.

Somewhat surprised as well, as the two incarnate white tigers suddenly sat in front.

"Hey Queen Liana Wulandari, worship my love to Nyai!"

I gasp. Wak Hardi also sat on the floor as if he was sitting on me.

"Sir Hardi, don't be like this! Liana please, wake up!"

I don't know, what's going on. But I felt my body so light and my soul so calm with no fear other than the fear of Allah Ta'ala.

What's wrong with me? Is... Am I now a different person?

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