TRAPPED IN A MARRIAGE
GRIEVE

"Since when was the yellow diacar cucumber? Can you cook? Don't be toxic anymore!”

“That's typical cuisine of my area bang.”

“Hmm..Most also village cuisine, definitely not tasty!” Haris snorted making Ninu annoyed

“It feels good bang, later you just try.”

“It's out there, I want to rest for a while!” Haris sat on the sofa and turned on the television

Ninu left with a sad heart. He always felt humbled by Haris' words and attitude.

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Come to think of it why is it that Mr Haris is so unable to speak softly or at least humanly to me? What is my fault with him? He did not help me at my request. I never expected or pleaded for his help. And when I volunteered to offer her a favor, it was only to repay the kindness she had already given me, nothing more. Or does he think I use him to get pleasure or profit from him because he's rich? Cih, a short mind. I never saw anything like that in my mind. Even though I am poor I can work to make good money, not by taking advantage of someone's situation.

Here I am totally devastated. I helped him but it was like I was wrong. I can't let it. I have to fight. He should know which position he is in and which position I am!, growled Ninu in his heart. He is already overwhelmed by this situation.

I was like I was locked up in a prison, and then he treated me arbitrarily, speaking sharply and offendingly, not looking at me either. Hey Haris!! I can fight too. Don't think because I'm a girl then you can do it! Because you are rich and I am poor and then you can oppress me!

Ninu's hands clenched and clenched held back the anger that was rising in his heart.

If you don't like me here, if you feel I'm not worthy, you just say so. I also do not feel at home here, a palace-shaped prison, as beautiful as it is still a prison. I'm going! You just face your mama and papa let me know how you feel!, now Ninu's face is red and his eyes are widened. It seems like he's really upset.

“Nona,” voice sir Otang disperse the anger of Ninu.

“Ya, what's up sir?” he immediately glanced

“Master waiting for miss in dining room.”

Let the arrogant man eat himself! I would not accompany him, Ninu shouted, but only in my heart, only in my heart

Mr. Otang looked at him. There was pity in his eyes, "Come on miss,” he asked

Huh.ninu snorted while standing up, her heart still filled with anger.

Ninu stepped following Mr. Otang towards the dining room. He saw Haris was already sitting on the dining table chair while staring at the cuisine presented on it.

Ninu's eyes whizzed, you son of a bitch! It was my cooking that he stared at coldly. If you do not like to eat instant noodles there!, the grunts are still in the heart.

Haris glanced as Ninu entered the dining room and pulled up a nearby chair.

“Take me rice and side dishes,” said Haris.

Ninu did Haris command with a sour face without saying.

Haris looked at him flatly, “That too,” show him to a plate of ceper containing yellow pickled cucumbers.

Ninu scooped it up a little.

“Agot much!”

Ish.he was afraid of poisoning but asked for a lot.

Haris began to feed the rice into his mouth and chewed it slowly.

Haris knew Ninu was paying attention to him but he pretended not to know. He ate quietly until the food on his plate ran out.

“You didn't eat?” tanyakanya.

Ninu did not reply, he scooped rice and side dishes onto his plate and ate. While Haris who had finished his meal stood up and went to the living room.

Ninu stroked the chest, huh... does that mean he likes my cooking? Thankfully, it was not the fourth world war.

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After eating Ninu immediately moved to the backyard. He wanted to read the book he just bought online while enjoying the feel of the garden at night. She did not want to talk to Haris because her heart was still upset.

He began to look at the cover of the book and read the title STRENGTH DOA by one of the famous religious leaders. Ninu began to open each page and read it intently.

“By My glory and greatness and also for My mercy and the height of My position over Arsy, I will break the hopes of those who hope to other than Me with disappointment. I will put on him the clothes of humiliation in the eyes of men. I removed him from My nearness, and I severed My relationship with him.

Why does he wish on other than Me when he is in trouble? The difficulty is in My hands and only I can get rid of it. Why does he hope to other than me by knocking on other doors, when they are closed? Only My door is open to anyone who prays for My help.

Who ever expected Me to overcome its difficulties and I was disappointed? Who ever expected Me because of his great sins, and I decided his hope? Who has knocked on My door and not opened it?

Do they not know that whoever is struck by the calamity which I have brought down, there is no one who can get rid of him but Me? but why do I see him with all his hopes and wishes always turning away from Me?

Why was he deceived by other than Me?

I have given him with all My graciousness that he should not ask for. When all that I took back from him, then why did he no longer ask Me to return him immediately, but instead asked for help other than Me?

Am I the one who gives before being asked, and when asked not to give? Am I a filial, so that it is considered a filial deed by My servant? Does not this world and the Hereafter belong to Me? Are not all the graces and gifts in My hands? Is not that generosity and generosity My nature?

What are the hopes of those who hope, supposing I say to all the inhabitants of heaven and earth, “Ask Me!” I also gave to each person, what thoughts occurred to all.

And all that I give will not diminish My riches even as much as dust. How could such a perfect fortune be diminished while I watch over it?

The writing in the book touched Ninu's heart deeply, making him moved and without even shedding a tear. He covered his face with both hands.

I have been worshipping for a long time just to get rid of my obligations. I have fallen asleep with the worldly life, my daily life just to find money and money. I forgot that all this time I could live and survive was because of the strength given by Him.

O Allah forgive me for neglecting you. Maybe my downfall on drugs and my stuck-up here is your way of making me aware.

All this time there was a mother who always prayed for me, but after mother no one would ask for kindness for me and Ima if not myself. Ninu sniffled in his tears. His heart ached considering his life in the past.

I promise from now on I will draw closer to You, O God.

Meanwhile, a pair of eyes were staring at him behind the door, so sorry for him to cry like that, maybe I had gone too far with him, the inner owner of the eye.

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A little thought on this episode, readers

I think this is the most intimate love letter from the Creator to his being. And I swear, I cry every time I read this, my heart feels full.

Hope you are too.

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