TRAPPED IN A MARRIAGE
MOTHER'S DEPARTURE

You're my son, my flesh and blood. What you feel I feel too, even though we are far apart.

I'm sorry, my son, I can't afford to be your guardian angel. I'm sure God will send a replacement angel for you.

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“Bu Ima leave school first yes.” Ima appeared from behind the door of the mother's room, greeting the mother.

“Yes, be careful you are. Finish school don't go anywhere, go straight home” replied mom.

“It's mom, it's also usual so” said Ima while passing.

Mother sat contemplating, her heart could not be lied to, remembering the same Ninu. But what Ima said was true, she had to be healthy for Ninu and Ima.

Mom got out of bed, today I want to be healthy. I intend to clean the house and cook for Ima. Although when standing his head a little dizzy, mother tried to hold on to the closet to relieve it. As she felt better, she stepped out of the room. The first thing he looked for was a broom.

Already finished sweeping the mother's room and the Ima room continued sweeping the middle room and courtyard. Still a bit dizzy actually, maybe because some days mothers spend a lot of time to sleep. Occasionally resting her body by sitting in the front bale-bale of the house, the mother took a deep and long breath. I must be healthy I must be healthy, O God I must be healthy for my children.

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I don't feel like the sun is starting to go high. Mom's in the kitchen. While sitting in a short chair mom cut vegetables and washed the salted fish for lunch side dishes today. Mother was standing about to turn on the stove, but suddenly her head seemed to swirl, probably because of a change in position from sitting to standing that suddenly made the mother's head dizzy, her hands trying to reach something to hold, and her hands were, but there's no. Mother staggered, and fell. His head hit the stove table.

“Douh...” Mom gripped while holding her head. There was a warm liquid, the sight of the mother darkened and the mother fell unconscious.

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Ima walked in haste. His heart remembers mother. Earlier this morning in a hurry Ima forgot not to tell mom that Bi Tati sent them a side dish for a rice friend. Yesterday Bi Tati held a study at her home, and this morning Bi Tati's messenger came to deliver food to the house. Ima forgot the food was still in the plastic bag in the kitchen cabinet.

“You are in such a hurry, kebelet ya hehe..” said Dini who tried to pursue the steps Ima.

“What's kebelet?” Ima glances.

“Kebelet peed maybe” Dini still chuckles, “Eh...you PR from Pak Umar make tomorrow it is done yet Ma?” ask Dini who so walk quickly offset Ima steps, “Later I see ya”

“Ih. Do it yourself atuh”

“You're the same friend don't be stingy Ima. Later I give important info for you” said Dini seduce.

“Info important what?”

“Promise first, you will see PR from Mr. Umar”

“Gak ah, taunya info squat”

“Ish... You can't believe that the info I'm going to give you is important info?” ask Dini.

Ima silent. His mind was focused on his mother. She doesn't usually remember her mother as she is today.

“Ya I've told you her info” Dini pursed her lips to see Ima who was silent.

Ima glanced with a smile “You also easily give up tau” said “Didiemin briefly directly pasrah”

“So the people are strong little napa, firm gitu” continued Ima.

Dini chuckled, she confirmed what Ima said, she easily gave up on everything including doing the task, a little hard she was reluctant to continue and preferred to see the work of others.

“After yes, I turn here. Later chat continued tomorrow” Ima waved her hand at Dini

“OK. Don't forget your promise tomorrow yes, I see her PR” exclaimed Early waving her hand as well.

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Ht. tok .. tok…

“Bu.. Mom!” call Ima.

Ht. tok .. tok…

“Bu.. Mom!” call him again, why the collision the door is locked from the inside. Usually not the inner Ima.

Since the door was not opened, Ima walked around to the kitchen door. The door's not closed, Ima's coming in.

“IBU...!!!” Ima was surprised to see the mother lying curled up on the kitchen floor, trying to turn her body around.

“Yes Allah... mother! Mother why??” yelled Ima seeing the head of the mother bleed. Immediately he fixed the position of the mother to be stretched, then Ima out to seek help.

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Ima sat on the waiting bench in front of the ER room. His hands are squeezing each other. Heart's fidgeting. Wanted to call Ninu, but did not dare. Finally he just kept quiet. His eyes have been wet since.

“Summer Ima, your mother will not why-napa” hand bi Enah rubbing pernuh Ima. It was Enah and Pak Wahyu who helped Ima bring mother to the puskesmas.

Shortly thereafter, Bi Tati and her husband were walking in haste.

“Ima..” call her as soon as you see Ima, “What's with your mother?” continued.

As soon as he heard the voice of Bi Tati Ima immediately got up and hugged him, "Bi.

Not yet had Bi Tati say anything, a PNS-clothed man walked out of the room.

“His family is Neni?” ask nurse.

“Iya doc, benar” answer them in unison.

“Sorry, it looks like Ms. Neni has to be taken to the hospital. Here we do not have adequate equipment” continued the doctor, “Should immediately remember the heart disease he suffered”

Ima was already speechless, her tears were rushing out. She was worried about the state of her mother and how she told Ninu.

“Ya doc, baik” replied Bi Tati's husband.

“But how does it cost uncle?” ask Ima.

“That we think about later, what matters now is your mother's life was” replied her uncle.

“Good, we will prepare an ambulance, please family also prepare everything ya” continued the doctor and passed away leaving them.

Less than an hour later, they were already sitting in an ambulance, with the mother lying still unconscious. His head was bandaged, his hands were infused, and an oxygen hose was on his nose.

Ima kept holding the cold hands of my mother. His eyes did not stop crying

“Bu... wake up bu” sound Ima weld.

Bi Tati unceasingly rubbed Ima's back

“Ima...” said Bi Tati, “What you should not call your sister”

Ima was silent, her heart was worried.

“Ima is afraid will make Ninu tea worry Bi”

“But if there is anything how?” tanya Bi Tati slowly.

“What about Bi? I will definitely be healthy again” replied Ima does not accept.

“Yes, we all expect your mother to be healthy again. But your brother should still know”

Ima fell silent again.

“Bi, mom's hand is really cold huh?” isak Ima was still holding her hand.

Bi Tati touched the mother's hand, her eyes glanced at the uncle so that the uncle also touched the mother's hand.

“Ready to go yes!” exclaim driver while closing the car door, “Nothing is left?” continued.

“If anyone is left behind later follow-” he continued again and began to turn on the car engine.

“WAIT!” exclaim uncle.

“What's up?” ask driver.

“This is the patient...” Said uncle slowly, his eyes red holding back the cry.

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Mother.how do I move on with this life, wading through this world without you.

I've never had a day without you, mom

Why did you leave me…

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