Until the End of Breath
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Maira contemplated sitting alone there, she was still silent without a sound. Only tears were now able to shed, he did not want to tell anyone at this time. Maira only realized that it was very late even almost maghrib, then she went home. Nature seemed to understand and know what Maira was feeling at this time, the rain was pouring down with a rush.
There are no raincoats or umbrellas, nor are they just pulled over for shelter. Maira continued to drive her bike home, the cold rain could not dampen her intention to go home. One she wanted to ask her husband, what was the meaning of the lie this afternoon !
Maira got home at half-seven p.m., he parked his bike in the garage. Maira went straight to the room to clean herself up.
" where did ?" asked Fardhan coldly
" cafe " answered Maira briefly
" why just got home ? didn't I tell you to go home before I came ? why ?" asked Fardhan to get angry
" sorry " said Maira without looking at Fardhan
" clean yourself up, I want to talk !" fardhan
Without turning his head and talking again Maira immediately went to the bathroom and left Fardhan who was staring at the departure of Maira. Maira came out of the bathroom dressed in a nightgown and immediately sat on the sofa where Fardhan was waiting for her.
" what's up ?" ask Maira
" i have to go to Kalimantan tomorrow" Fardhan said
" go away, is it not your duty" replied Maira
" why did you change Mai ?" ask Fardhan
" me ? why is that question you're asking me ? why don't you ask yourself ?" maira said as she pointed at Fardhan
" why are you so brave to me ?" asked Fardhan growled
" i know there's something you're hiding from me ! just say "the word maira makes Fardhan speechless
" why silence ? say, I'm ready to hear it !" added Maira
" what am I supposed to say ? I don't even keep any secrets" Fardhan said
" don't lie ! I already know even now you've lied to me ! just tell me the truth, and what's the reason ?" maira stressed though began to tear
" don't cry Mai "bluff Fardhan tried to wipe away Maira's tears that began to drip but her hands were pushed aside by Maira
" don't switch the conversation !" resolute Maira
" i know you, you're silent in touch with another woman. I've been checking chat history on your phone a lot. I read it, and this afternoon you said you were in the office in fact you were sitting alone in a cafe with a woman !" maira said trying hard
" i'm sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you. That's all mom and grandma's demands ! I wanted to talk to you about this, but you already knew it first" Fardhan said
" but why do you have to lie ? you know, it hurts ! " isak Maira
" yes, I know ! I'm yours and you belong to your parents anytime ! But what I don't you consider a mas, until you do just that. Why, why ?" said Maira
" i just don't want to hurt you, I don't want to make you think and be sad" Fardhan replied
" but you also hurt me, you hurt me. Not only that, you also broke my trust in you mas ! you said you had to open up to each other, but what is it ? you deny it yourself mas, you eat your own words " said Maira
" i'm sorry Mai" said Fardhan as he lowered his head
" let's go, I'm tired ! don't bother me, just let me be alone !" maira said passed away leaving her room
Maira went downstairs, she sat in the garden behind her house. He hoped it was just a dream, and hoped that tomorrow when he woke up it was not like now. Maira cried in silence while staring at the overcast sky.
god, why did this have to happen to me ? it is heavy, Rabb !
maira's inner scream while shedding tears
Maira went back inside the house and went to the guest room. Let tonight Maira calm her mind first, all so quickly for her. Maira rubbed back her nose which was back to bleed. The end of this kind of thing is often the case with Maira, often feel dizzy, easily tired and nosebleeds suddenly arrived. I don't know what the cause is, Maira thinks it's just the effect of too much thought and less vitamin C alone.
It is also pendam himself, let all go according to their respective destiny. The plan is tomorrow Maira will go to the hospital to check herself out. Maira threw herself in bed while holding onto the tissue used to clog her nose that was still bleeding.
I give all my business and my life to You, Lord..
You are the one who holds the earth and its contents, You are the One who turns back the hearts of men. If this is what I have to live, then strengthen me and allow me to live it, O God..
Servant knows, you have a beautiful plan for the servant behind everything that the servant is facing..
strengthen Allah, strengthen your servants
maira's prayer then closed her eyes to rest and began to sail into her dreams.
The morning came, Fardhan had prepared some clothes that he would carry. And Maira is now preparing to go to Aisyah's house. Azka had already called and offered her a ride, but Maira preferred to bring her own car. Today Fardhan went to Kalimantan with Shandy, they will leave with morning flight hours. After Fardhan left, Maira left the house. Arriving at Aisyah's house, Maira was immediately directed into Aisyah's room to accompany her.
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