Utami Khoirunnisa's
10. Tasbih Grips!

This time, Utami did not come home with a wound, her heart was flowering, this is what she needed when in this condition. It just takes a little bit of love left for her.

But his heart was torn again when he saw the father was sitting on the terrace while scratching his hand. It's common for that to happen, Dad's allergic to semen, but every day he has to touch it.

"Assynnya!" greetings Utami immediately kissed the back of the father's dirty hand because he just came home from work.

"Korasoallam"

"Just come home sir? How much malem?"

"Yes, Mr. overtime, thank God there is to add your bekel added" He put out a number of spare change from his shirt pocket.

"It's for you to be Zidan"

Utami seemed reluctant to accept the money, not unnecessary, but increasingly feeling embarrassed and useless. "No, sir, later from my mother"

"Father, from another mother, this is from my father!"

Utami received the money and went straight into the kitchen, intending to bring Dad a cup of coffee. But he overheard Rahman and Ilham talking to Mom .

"Mom, Rahman is equally inspired to agree to drop out of school!" Ilham.

"Why?"

"We want to work, ma'am, so we can help you pay the debt"

At that moment also the mother's voice turned raucous, seeming to endure the cries and pain that had invaded her heart.

The heart of a mother who despite trying to be tough is still fragile, still feels failed because she cannot send her child to a higher education.

"Mother and Father are old, the power is not rich first, we want to help mother and father"

Utami finished making coffee, immediately brought the coffee to the terrace, no longer know what they are talking about.

"This is sir, Umi's making coffee"

"Nuhun, Geulis" Smiled while receiving Utami's coffee and sipped it full of pleasure.

(nuhun geulis \= thanks beautiful)

"May your life always be filled with luck, always given enough Rizki by God, be a successful child and get a good partner" Father stroked the head of Utami full of affection.

The big hand that Utami liked, the eluan accompanied by a good prayer from the father, made the girl want to thrash.

"Sir, please hold on until Umi succeeds yes, until you can enjoy the results of Umi's hard work later" his mind full of hope.

Seeing the condition of the father who is already vulnerable makes him worried, the body that was once stocky, now thin, dry sunburned. Working during the night, the Heat and Rain have no place to take shelter, because it must be like a construction worker.

"Mom..." Call dad again.

"Sorry Father yes, you can not give a decent life for you, even though you are the daughter you want, But you can not meet your needs"

Utami smiled bitterly, just punish himself god!

"Sir, Umi lacks nothing, all that the Father and Mother love is more than enough, Umi-"

It was enough, the word was only stuck in his throat, Utami could not continue the sentence anymore.

Utami entered his room with a tight chest, a heart that boils because it suppresses all emotions can not be spilled, This house is too crowded, there is no place to cry for a second.

He closed his eyes and breathed a few times, until he didn't realize that he was lying next to him.

"Why Umi?" ask mom

"No papa ma'am"

"are you sleepy?"

"Not yet, why?"

This time, the mother breathed heavily. "Your sister's sister wants to quit school, they want to work at A Diki's place first"

"Umi was accidentally horrified by Mother's conversation with A ilham and A Rahman earlier"

"That's the decision they made, from their own thinking, mom didn't tell them to stop at all"

"Mom know"

"Biarin Brother your sister is not highly educated, but you are the daughter of her only mother, May your mother and sister can help your success path, Umi's diligent school, Umi's diligent school, I'll support you completely"

Utami smiled bitterly, her heart falling much deeper.

"Amiin ma'am, hopefully" she replied with all her might stabilizing her voice that was shaking from holding back the cries.

After that Utami turned her back to her mother, her tears melted, it was unbearable again, she tightened her lips so as not to sound sobbing, while holding firmly Tasbih giving Abi in her hand.

"Oh my God, I know our family is underprivileged, our parents owe a lot to save our lives, until both my brothers have to drop out of school, and my mother and father have high hopes for me, Please, please, give me strength, Don't make my faith waver and destroy the trust of the inner parent.

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