Utami Khoirunnisa's
32. The Servant whom I offer for His favor

This month of Rajab was the hardest month for Utami, four months during her tenth grade felt so in the test. But as His promise...

La yukallifullahu nafsan willa...Allah does not burden a man except according to his capacity.

There is no need to compare the capacity we have with others who are considered more or less.

We just need to try as much as possible in accordance with our abilities and surrender to God for everything that happens.

As of this morning, the Inter-school race had just begun, When looking at the attendance list as well as the Juz they had memorized, Utami was the one with the least memorization. They have 5-6 Juz, while he has just memorized Juz amma, that was within a month, even all can be forgotten when he was nervous. Utami is a little restless. He was afraid to disappoint Mr. Teguh who had taught him so far.

"Sir!" Utami moved uneasily, especially when he saw if the sequence number was just waiting for a few more participants.

"What?"

"How did Umi not win?"

Gently, Mr. Teguh gave his smile. "It's not a matter of winning or losing, it's important you've tried, and I'm still proud of you"

Ah so sweet, her nervousness disappeared instantly.

When his name was called, Utami began to calm down, he glanced at Mr. Teguh who gave him a spirited smile, while Daniel who was still waiting, looked at him lovingly, making Utami goosebumps, but he was very happy, but he tried not to care.

In a room that is quite spacious but closed, there are three judges there, and there is a seat in the middle of the empty space.

Utami is welcome to take the lottery number, the result is number 7, and fortunately, the name of the surah is the surah he memorized.

Ar-rahmani!

"Please read verses 1 to 30!" tell the jury wisely.

Utami took a few breaths, tried to relax, her mind centered on the verse she always read after shubuh, The letter that he had memorized out of his head since Elementary School because his mother always encouraged him to read every day.

"Audzubillahiminatonirrojim..."

"Bismillahirahmanirrohim..."

"Ar-rahman...Alamalqur'an.kholaqol..."

Tears continued to drip, Utami read His sentence with a sobbing, until finally he was no longer able to continue the next verse.

A jury approached him and rubbed Utami's back. "Why are you crying?"

Utami held out slowly, "Sorry Ustadzah, I can't continue" he said in a loud voice.

"You moved?"

Utami is back. "I am ashamed of Ustadzah, fearing the torment of Allah SWT for having forgotten the grace of His bounty. The letter of Ar Rahman clearly asks us whether we deny the blessings and all the blessings that God gives??FABIAYYI ALAA ‘IRAABIKUMAA TUKADZDZIBABANN, Thirty verses in the letter of Ar Rahman have this sentence, repeated over and over, Allah warns us over and over again that, Enjoy Your Lord Who Are You Believed? But I have become a proud servant because I am not grateful for the favor that God has given."

For the sake of hearing that, the judges felt full, they embraced Utami instead.

"May you become a Hafizoh with 30 Juz memorization" said the jury memyemangati.

After the time passed, Finally Utami finished passing the test, not knowing how about the result later, he was very doubtful and not confident.

"Where? Smoothly?" welcome Mr. Teguh as soon as Utami returns to the waiting room.

"Umi's not sure sir" she replied disappointedly.

"No papa, the important thing is that you've tried" his smile remained encouraging.

Utami has tried, leave the results to those above everything.

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Sorry if for example Author misinterpretation or how to explain the postulate, verse, hadith, Author is not a pesantren child, 😢 please advice and criticism from those of you who read that may even output pesantren😢....