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10. The past is just memories

***We exist today after having lived through the past. The past is a part of our lives that must be passed in order to reach the present.

Never regret the past because it remains history, there is still a future waiting ready to be carved***.

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I choose to stop caring for the one person who doesn't love me because of how I look. She prefers beautiful women over unattractive women with weight always out of the ideal path. That woman loved him so sincerely.

According to Natasha beauty is luck from birth but a sincere heart is a life choice. If you are not born beautiful. Appealing can still be done.

Healthy, bright skin, neat and fashionable appearance. Equipped with a good attitude can make people more fun especially something that cannot be interpreted easily, namely intelligence.

I like and trust Natasha compared to anyone in this world at least she makes my spirit rise haha.

A year passed after the viral video that made me the talk of this country. Today is my 25th birthday. An incredible year of achievement. Living the age of 24 years with a life like a roller coaster up and down, down, down and up again. Living the day as a lover who was dumped and overnight turned into a selebgram. Then an entrepreneur, an office worker and a single person with past wounds.

I chose not to renew my contract at a telecommunications company because I focused on growing my business and choosing to be an influencer. Content about travel, culinary or just sharing my daily life was in great demand by many people.

Together with Natasha, we opened a boutique by selling a variety of special clothes for people of stature like Ku and Natasha-style ideal.

The appearance of the outfit of the day that I share on the Instagram feed attracts many followers who have a body shape like me so that from the beginning endorse clothes. I was thinking of selling myself. Similarly, Natasha's attractive appearance inspired many of her Instagram followers and we collaborated to offer various models of clothing in our boutique.

Nat is my current best friend besides Natasha now I have many friends that I find in various activities. Orchids that used to be only with Cahya and Adiwara now have a wide scope of friendship.

"Hi". I heard an awkward greeting from Cahya. He was with a beautiful little baby and a babysitter who was carrying baby supplies.

"Hi, your baby huh? beautiful huh?". I smiled stale.

"Figures, they're there". Tania pulled my arm impatiently without saying goodbye I left Cahya. Join Natasha and the others at the corner of Alokasia cafe.

Hari ini ulang tahun Natasha. Kami merayakan di kafe Alokasia dengan pakaian berwarna pink sesuai kesukaan Natasha. Aku menoleh ketika merasa ada yang memperhatikan dan pandangan Ku bertemu dengan netra coklat milik Cahya. Untuk beberapa saat kami saling menatap lalu Dia segera memalingkan wajah ke arah lain.

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Dari instagram Aku melihat Kehidupan Cahya selama setahun berkisar diri sendiri dan keluarganya. Dia sering berbagi tentang perkembangan buah hatinya, menikmati liburan bersama keluarga kecilnya atau Outfit of the day dirinya yang tetap cantik walau sudah melahirkan.

Kehidupan yang pernah ku impikan setahun lalu sekarang di miliki Cahya. Garis kehidupan lah yang membelokkan impian itu menjadikan Aku seorang lajang di usia 25 tahun. Suatu kehidupan yang ku nikmati sekarang ini. Dalam satu tahun Aku sudah memiliki penghasilan dari berbagai bidang yang tidak pernah Ku pikirkan sebelumnya.

Aku belum memiliki pengganti Adiwarna karena sekarang Aku lebih selektif untuk menerima pria sebagai kekasih karena Aku tidak mau dimanfaatkan oleh pasangan Ku nanti.

Ada pemberitahuan dari pesan hijau ketika melihat nomor tertera Adiwarna. Aku mengerutkan kening, ada apa memang Aku telah merubah nama Adiwarna kembali seperti semula bukan lagi ketan. Kenapa Adi tidak berhenti menghubungi Ku dalam setahun terakhir ini.

"Hai, Anggrek. Maaf lagi sibuk ya? "

"Iya lagi sibuk". Aku membalas sambil berleha-leha di atas tempat tidur

" Ganggu? ".

" Ada apa? ".

"Tidak bisa".

" Sombongnya, Aku tahu kesalahan lalu membuatmu membenci Ku tapi ada yang ingin Ku sampaikan".

Dia masih Adiwarna yang sama. Percaya diri bahwa aku akan mengabulkan semua permintaannya. Cukup sudah aku bertingkah seperti jin biru Aladin yang mengabulkan keinginan tuannya.

"Sudah berlalu, Adi. Kita sudah enjoy sama kehidupan masing-masing kalau Aku menolak bertemu karena statusmu suami orang lagian aku tidak mau jadi bahan gunjingan"

"Di kafe Ku, Nggrek. Gak ada yang tahu".

" No, bye".

I regret unblocking Adiwarna contacts this time I have to block forever.

I immediately threw the device into a haphazard place. Crazy he met, my reputation could be ruined when anyone saw us back then. The reputation that has been hard-earned in building today can be lost because of a useless meeting with Adi.

There is no cure for heartbreak other than busying yourself with all kinds of positive activities that eventually make yourself have a dazzling quality.

Nat tidied the hair that many times hit by the beach wind. Nadia and I are currently accompanying Natasha and Gege to prewedding photos.

Nadia and I are at home to accompany because the prewedding photographer Natasha at first glance looks like Park Bo Gum with sweet dimples but has a cool appearance that is reminiscent of the style of Nicholas Saputra. Bright singles like us at home accompany Nat in this photo session.

Confused to imagine dimples sweet but stylish cool. If you talk about the resemblance Park Bo Gum is in the level of super quality. Interesting to see but is it interesting to have I don't know because Bian name Park Bo Gum KW rarely care about me and Nadia. Of course he was more focused on Natasha and Gege. Especially those who want prewedding photos of Nat and Gege.

Nadia and I remained faithful to accompany Natasha. Nat himself takes the concept of casual so he is not complicated with all the wedding dresses or costumes but more natural fit the character of Nat and Gege are relaxed.

"Ngggrek". I turned my head when Bian called me but the cheeks that had met red without blush on became sour when he heard the continuation of Bian's sentence.

"Do you look like you can step aside in the photo? ".

Nadia, Natasha and Gege laughed at my expression.Their confusion instead of 'saving' the friend from embarrassment instead laughed with satisfaction at seeing me misah-misuh away.

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I decided to respond to some men who were making an approach. Mama advised me not to think badly about all the men who approached. Not all like Adiwarna who use me if closed the heart to all men then forever you do not know who is sincere.

First I responded to Si Dion, he also has a lot of followers and has several distros with his own brand name but when every time we date Dion always make content. I know she approached Ku to raise her Instagram insight because of my closeness and she often asks questions in Dion's social media comments. I stopped caring about Dion.

"Emang gitu koq, Nggrek before the same Gege. I know some magic men".

"For example? ".

" The type of man is low to rise . Like gini Yes. I don't have anything Nat just have a regular bike like gini not CBR 100 let alone 1000. I want you not to be ashamed of the same road I althoughpub naek motor because it is from your own income if you want anyway I can ask Papa buyin sports car but yes that's I don't want to expect people's wealth old though they can buy two or three".

"Haha, bushel".I laughed listening to Natasha's story. Yes for how many years I only know Adiwarna and Cahya. My life only runs from home, office, help Adiwara business and fill free time with Cahya. My life insights run around that little neighborhood.

Now the past is a memory and my future is waiting to be carved. What Adiwarna and Cahya did was like an experience that pulled Me far back and made Me dart far forward leaving a time I had passed with a great pain.