Virally
38. The Adrift Heart

My heart is so bustling but my mouth can't pull out the characters for you

Only our eyes meet to talk about what is in the heart

We know what we feel the same. For tonight is enough the radiance of our eyes that 'talk''

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We're still on our way home. The trip we took was not really so far but Bian chose to find a further route to return to my home.

I know tonight's meeting is too short for a newly linked heart. We still want to feel the new togetherness.

Tomorrow we'll be apart for a while. My heart beats so crowded every now and then I turn my head towards my new soul mate. He did the same.

"Bian, may I ask you something." Finally I opened the conversation after at the restaurant, Bian dominated the conversation.

"Yes, you may ask any orchid. I told you once. If you stay away then you'll never know me when I'll tell you what you want to know."

"I want to know when you've liked me?" I saw in the light on the street. Bian smirked his smile, Does he look embarrassed.

"From the first time we met when Natasha and Gege prewedding photos on the beach. I don't know why I like seeing you."

"You ignored me at that moment. Precisely how many times did I throw me out when you took a photo of Natasha." I protested to Bian because I felt he didn't care about me at the time.

"I just wanted to say hello to you only I'm not used to talking to new people so I pretended to throw you out."

"Ah, lie you don't care at that moment."

"Buka galeri di handphone ku maka kamu akan tahu bahwa aku tidak berbohong, Sayang." Bian meraih handphone di dashboard mobil. Wajah ku memerah ketika dia menyebutku sayang. Rasanya aku ingin mendengar sekali lagi dia menyebut kata itu.

"Perhatikan jalanan, Bian." Aku tidak ingin Bian kehilangan fokus menyetir.

"Baiklah.. Buka galerinya ya, Sayang." Dia menekan kata itu lagi sambil memberi handphonenya. Aku tahu dia menginginkan aku memanggil dirinya dengan panggilan yang sama. Aku masih belum terbiasa saat ini.

Jari ku membuka galeri di handphone Bian. Seketika wajah ku memanas karena malu. Ada foto ku di Bukit Asri, Warung bubur pengkolan, Di alun-alun kota, Paling akhir foto ku dipantai saat prewedding dan pernikahan Natasha dan Gege.

"Bian kamu mengambil foto ku tanpa izin." Aku memekik gemas.

"Kamu yakin akan mengizinkan ketika aku mengambil fotomu. Kamu hanya mengizinkan aku mengambil fotomu saat menggunakan jasa ku tentunya?" Dia tergelak dan aku begitu terpesona untuk pertama kalinya ketika kami sedang berdua. Dia tertawa begitu lepas.

"Jangan-jangan kamu pura-pura menawarkan jasa fotomu saat pulang dari rumah Natasha."

"Aku tidak menawarkan saat itu tapi ingat kamu yang menduga bahwa aku menawarkan jasa fotoku. Bagiku itu kesempatan berharga apalagi sejak itu aku mulai mengenal Dewo dan bisa mendekati untuk mencari informasi tentangmu."

"Kamu sengaja mendekati Dewo rupanya. Bian, Aku malu dengan foto- foto digalerimu. Hapus ya?." Foto-foto itu menampakan perubahan penampilan ku secara signifikan. Aku bisa merasakan perbedaan dari awal foto prewedding Natasha dan Gege sampai foto terakhir.

"Jangaan!! Aku follower mu lho, Sayang. Aku fans mu sejak itu, Ada rasa penasaran yang membuat ku ingin mencari tahu pancaran kesedihan dimatamu saat pertama melihat mu."

Bian memalingkan wajah kearah ku sebentar lalu tersenyum lembut ke arah ku.

"Aku mengagumimu ketika sama sekali tidak ada dendam atau kata-kata kasar kepada mereka yang menyakitimu. Kamu menyibukkan diri mengerjakan banyak hal positif. Kamu menginspirasi ku, Anggrek ku sayang."

"Terimakasih, Bian." Aku berkata tulus, Begitu kah penilaian dia pada ku. Saat aku sibuk memikirkan penampilan fisik ketika Bian mendekatiku. Bergulat sendiri dengan perkataan Danar dan Diandra. Dia justru menilai apa yang ku lakukan dalam mengisi kehidupan ini bukan pada penampilan fisik semata.

Aku kembali teringat pada pembicaraan dengan Natasha lalu. Ternyata dia lebih pandai menilai Bian daripada diriku.

"Anggrek"

"Apa, Bian?"

"Kamu tidak seperti biasa, Bian. Biasanya kamu dingin seperti es." Aku tidak bisa menutupi keheranan. Selain aku baru mengetahui ternyata dia bisa berbicara panjang lebar, Dia pun bisa merajuk.

"Karena aku kekasih mu, Anggrek sayang. Jangan panggil aku, Bian." Aku tersadar ternyata dari tadi dia memberi kode pada panggilan yang ku sematkan.

"Sorry, this is only hours. I'm not used to it." I tried to take heart. Bian patted gently on the back of my hand.

"It's okay, honey. We're at your house."

Bian's car entered my yard. My eyes caught two shadows in the living room window but my attention was immediately sidetracked when Bian opened the car door and dragged me out.

I said my greetings and opened the door slowly. There was my greeting reply and the sound of hasty footsteps caught on the ear. There's mama and Dewo in the multipurpose room.

"Eh, Orchid and Bian just got home. My mom is reading a magazine".

I stuck my neck out to see Mama holding the magazine upside down. Dewo pretends to be busy in front of the laptop that just turned on. How lousy my mama and sister's acting clearly peeked at our arrival at the window earlier.

Pupus was hoping we had a conversation in the living room with the presence of Mama and Dewo. Not long ago. Papa emerged from the porch door apparently he had just returned from the kentara store from a plastic package in his hand.

"Your car, son. Wow good as a car when young."

Until Bian came home all my family members controlled his presence. I have to be patient there's still tomorrow to talk to my new soulmate.

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I had just entered the room when Mama and Dewo were swarming at me like reporters looking for news on the source.

"How Orchid? Is that what you chose?"

"Kak Orchid is the same as Kak Bian? Really?"

"Yes Mama and Dewo." My face turned red and wanted to enter the room immediately. Mom followed me to my room. Dewo chose to go back to his own room.

"Grand, Mama's happy with your choice. Either Bian or Doni they're good men. Go with Bian as best you can. Mama's gonna pray all good for you."

"Thank you, Mama."

Mom came out of my room. Leaving me alone in a pink room. I grabbed a banana doll pillow and made a backrest. My hand typed a message on the device.

"I'll see you when you arrive, baby"

"Yes, Sweetheart. Do you have time to meet at the airport tomorrow? My plane's in the afternoon at 16:15"

"You can tell me when you're at the airport."

"Thank you dear."

"Here you focus on driving again."

"Ready darling. Good night and good dreams."

"Thank you, dear Bian."

I smiled happily putting the device on the nightstand. Wash your face and change your sleep clothes. One day has passed. There is a connection of hearts that will unite us to change the sheets of tomorrow in the journey of life.

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The author also wants to follow the sleep ah. Let's have a good dream also 😌😌