When I Love Someone
Safitri Hearts

After returning from the Hospital, I somehow thought about the illness suffered by the strange girl . Pity him too , Usually people who suffer from Pancreatic cancer like that his life will not be long anymore . I rarely socialize even know it feels like having a severe disease like that must be difficult to accept it .

" Ehhh, why do I even think about the strange girl againii ? It's his business to have such a disease . Why am I thinking ! "

Not as I usually think of others . Usually I only think about myself rather than others because what do I try ? Why think of people who don't think of us ? Not very useful !

But whatever the reason, I can't lie to my heart that feels sorry and guilty for refusing to accompany her for the rest of her life .

" Ohhh Renoo . Focus ...... Why do you think about Gini ! " I said angry at myself .

Suddenly the cry of someone calling my name and immediately disperse the thought of the disease and the sadistic notebooks .

" Renoo ! Here ! " Call someone .

I looked left and I saw there a Nicholas standing by the highway . He shouted my name loudly while raising both hands like a supporter of Bola .

I looked towards Nicholas . I was silent in a place not knowing if I should go see him ? Or am I ignoring him ?

" Renooo ..... ! Woiiiii "The cry is getting louder .

It made another passerby look at me with a strange look . " Budeg time yes this guy, called his friend even diem on the spot ! like a confused person "Maybe that's what these pedestrians think .

That's just what I think I judge by the look on their faces .

I let out a long sigh . I realized, ignoring her calls would only make others think that I was a prudeg . How else .

I walk slowly in the red light . Not slowly, too much anyway, I'm a snail ! I just walk as usual .

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Bla Bal Bla . I also came across the street which was immediately greeted with pleasantries from a Nicholas .

" Alhamdulillah finally you come here also "Say happy .

I just kept quiet while looking at her .

" What's up ? " It's cold .

" Aaaaaaaaaaaa ituuu mmmmmm we should chat her at aja yuk cafe ! " Take her .

I stared at him sharply "I'm sorry, I'm busy . If you want to talk here ! "

" Oookkeeey" he said as he opened the bag he was carrying and pulled out a book I already knew as a child .

" This is your book, ' I tried to tell you in class that the book was pre-ordered and all the students had taken their own books . Well, except you ! " Michael explained .

" Ohhhhhh " . I do not . Now I know the reason why he approached me .

" By the way, what the hell did you think in class yesterday ? I don't know about that book ! " Many .

I looked at him again . Why does he want my business ? I said in my heart .

" It's none of Lo's business ! " I said cold . Then take my book and leave Nicholas without saying thank you at all .

What a savage sihh the Reno ! Thanks to Ama Nicholas .

" Be careful on the road, bro ! " Shouted Nicholas . But I don't care . I continued my delayed steps earlier .

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At school as usual 'I went to the library and took a book and sat in my own corner in the back seat .

" Heyii "Said someone in front of me .

I don't know who it is and I don't want to know who ! I keep reading books .

Then , that person sat next to me and looked at me with his kawaii gaze which made me remember the profile photo of that mysterious number .

Yes , Safiti .

I tried to ignore him and assume he didn't exist . Or imagining himself like a monkey bully, it's not suitable for his kawaii face that .

He kept talking to me so I couldn't focus on my reading .

" What's up ? " I'm upset .

" Ahhhhh, finally answered "

" What's up ? " Many more .

" Aaaaaaaaaaa is nothing, only someone wants me to obrolin the same as you "Say by showing his kawaii face again .

" Remember ! This is a library, no noise is prohibited . Especially talk ! " I pretended to advise Safitri .

" Be calm, let's talk slowly so as not to be noisy "

I tried to ignore it by going back to reading the novel I was reading .

" Mmmmmm Armand, about the disease notebook, don't tell anyone . Let only my family, me and you know "Say it in a low tone .

I sighed "Safitri, horrified ! I don't have a friend, so why am I talking about it to other people ? People won't hear my story anyway ! " I replied in a rather loud tone so everyone in the library looked at me .

" Sshhhhttt , noiseless "Said Doni who was rather close to me .

" Piuhhh, thank goodness that I am so relieved ! " Said with a satisfied expression .

" You know, I've been keeping a disease logbook since I found out I have Pancreatic disease . From that moment on, I always cried seeing my situation . But , I was determined that I should be strong and still enjoy my life like an ordinary teenager . I didn't even tell my friends about my illness . I don't want them to be sad and over-act to me "Safitri explains it with great sadness .

I who was reading was forced to listen to his story that was quite sad .

" But, you're different from everyone else . You are always alone and isolated from others . Because of that, I thought you might be able to be my life companion until my death . And luckily , I didn't choose the wrong person . After seeing your reaction when I found out that I have Pancreatic disease, I made sure that you were the right person for me . You are not like everyone else . Maybe if Yuni or Aulia found out about this they could cry and treat me as best they could . I don't want that . Fortunately, there is you . The person I chose "Safitri Continues .

I realized, I was quite sad to hear that story . But what does it mean to choose me to be his companion ?

" What do you mean ? Me ? Your companion ? "

" Ehhhhhh, I don't mean girlfriend . Just an ordinary friend "Safitri explained .

" But ....

" Oh yes if so, then we will talk again . I forgot that Mini and Aulia were waiting for me in class . Yes, yes, bye ! " He said in a hurry and immediately ran out of the library .

I was confused myself . So his companion ? What does it mean try ?