WHEN MARRIAGE
Fretfulness

"Went home from work where are we?", I asked who focused on studying the teaching module in front of the office desk computer.

"As far as you go Ra, how about if we hang out at Cafe Start, there are many cogans (cowo handsome), if you know there is a click, suitable we can continue to be excited for the future", sasa said my workmate.

"Got exciting ah, we are still young, still aged two and five it doesn't matter if you haven't got a guy, mending karaokean is over it we - we watch, there is a good movie in the cinema", I said, occasionally looking at my coworkers.

My name is Rara Sahira, I work as a teacher in one of the educational institutions, since graduating from college I love my job, I consider a guy is a boyfriend of guards, I think, people who just stay next to us, talk, walk, pick up when going or coming home from work and nothing more.

My friends and I hang out at the mall every time I go home from work and travel on weekends.

Time quickly passed, now I was thirty years old, one by one my co-workers were married and had children, after they were married, he said, I feel like I only spend my time at the boarding house and at work because they are busy taking care of the kids after work.

As I ventured out to hangout myself, walking in the mall by myself, I saw around me lovers laughing together, embracing each other as they walked down the mall aisle. At that time I felt a sense of sadness, something was lacking in my life.

As usual every year my extended family gathers and intersects at my brother's house, I have not been together for a long time with my family because I always take advantage of holidays by traveling with office friends.

When I came to my sister's house, I shook hands with my parents and my family. At first they asked me about my work, until at one time they asked my life partner.

"Ra, when was the candidate known", asked my first brother while eating a cake and sitting in the dining room.

"Yes Ra, know dong to us, remember the age, let alone us a woman who has to give birth, the risk is great if giving birth in old age", my sister-in-law said as she served some food on the dining table.

"Yes sister, yes mom..., be patient mom, later Rara will introduce mother with a life partner Rara" said I who sat next to mother and turned to look at mother with a smile.

"Sister wait, anyway after you find a man who is suitable for your future, you immediately know to big brother" said my brother.

Arriving at the boarding house, I laid my body down, and looked up at the sky - the sky of the roof.

"Living partner, words that are too heavy in my head, are even heavier than teaching a bad boy, hufft! it will be beautiful in time" I said getting out of bed and out of bed to watch television in the living room.

"Hi brother, introduce my name Alya, I spend it here too" said Alya who arrived - suddenly sitting on the bench of the living room boarding house with me.

"Hai Alya, I'm Rara, still in college or already working?", I asked to turn to Alya.

"Not yet brother, it's difficult to find work in the capital city of Jakarta, I just graduated, do not have experience, the plan anyway want to apply - apply for a job tomorrow at my girlfriend's office", said Alya turning towards me while sipping a drink in the glass she was holding.

"Oh.., I hope you can work quickly Al", I said .

"Yes, brother, thank you for your prayers Rara, definitely got a job" said Alya smiling at me.

"Well! he was young, just graduated from college, already had a girlfriend, not enjoying life first, but why did I become jealous when he said his man wanted to take him to work tomorrow, I feel a sense of sadness, O Lord.Where is my Life Spouse, argh!!", I said in my heart while sighing and looking at Rara.