You Are My Sunshine
The Part 286
“I-mom,” says Dara staggered.
The mother and daughter who had just met were both flooded with tears. Various kinds of overflows of feeling entrenched in the chest, so stifling that it feels pain. The hero took a step back and gave space and time for Dara and her mother to talk to each other heart to heart, as well as her aunt who did the same.
“Pardon your bad mother, son. I am a selfish mother,” said Aruna hoarse and weak on the sidelines of her tears.
Dara tergugu, drowning in her cries, sedu sedan roared all over the room. When his mother's weak hands came into contact with him, it was never expected that a fierce, invisible vibration shook his soul to the bottom. It turned out to be true what her husband said, no matter how angry she was with her mother, there was still a bond, a natural bond between mother and child. Nothing can change the fact that she was born of this woman who now lies weak, the woman who abandoned her as a child.
“Why... why did Mom... dump me?” A question that always haunted him, like a lump of pitch-black clouds that always plagued his mind. Perih, sick, nelangsa, that is what is often felt when remembering it.
Dara's question poked and stabbed Aruna into the deepest recesses of the sanubari. The woman who was rubbed weak caught the veil of pain as well as the wound from the radiance of Dara's eyes. He pushed his palms up to caress Dara's hair.
He stared at the goals of the face of the child he left behind because he was cradled in the throne, cradled in property, lulled in appearance, lulled in the word of love which now all turned around to wrap him in the grip of pain and grief.
“Mother's sins are too big. God punishes me like this. Punishment for a Mother who has the heart to abandon her weak baby who has not had the effort because I am glared with the world. God never gave me another chance to get pregnant again until cancer finally gnawed at me, as if slapping me with the fact that when I was given the confidence to have children, but instead I was wasting.”
“Do you, Mom? as a child my life was not easy, I grew up in an orphanage without the hugs and warmth of my parents. Only fellow friends of the same age who become family,” said Dara in sedu sedu sedanannya.
“Im sorry Mom...”Aruna felt an unspeakable pain hearing the outpouring of her son's heart that was suffering from it.
“My regret came very very late to say hello, I apologize from my heart to you, son. I don't expect to be forgiven, I feel too ashamed of this sinful self hoping for your forgiveness, I want to apologize to you before life no longer rests in the body. Thank you for coming to see your bad mother.” Aruna's hands trembled, Dara slowly touched the back of her mother's hand which cupped her face and looked at her tightly, feeling the touch of that hand on her skin.
“I want to be angry and hate you.” Dara spoke again in her sobs.
“Be angry with me, and also hate me. A mother like me deserves it.”
Dara looked into her mother's eyes fixed, drowning herself there filled with puddles of regret. His trembling lips spoke again.
“Think once I've blown up all my pent-up anger, but. Mom, I missed you.. hiks.. hiks.” Dara's cry broke out shrill in the air, which then thrust itself into Aruna's embrace simultaneously.