
...CYCLE (TRAGIC) COURTING...
...#breaker...
..."There is a beginning, there is an end. Likewise with relationships. Some survive, some give up."...
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Being the one who guessed, became a difficult thing for Aul. Moreover, Aul must be smart to divide his time now. The lessons suddenly piled up, the practice schedule of the Broadcast Department suddenly increased. Head Aul felt very dizzy to think about it all, not to mention the trial of the PKL last time that had not been implemented, as well as the change of office in the excrement, really drained his energy.
Amidst his thoughts on life, Aul was sitting pensively in the bustling Canteen of Sri Bu in the hours of rest like now. Kaila who noticed him, pinched his arm quite hard. Aul grimaced with pain because of it.
"Duh, what the hell, Kaila!" sewot Aul's. He sipped his milkshake drink greedily.
"Lagian you're dreaming mulu." Kaila pointed at Aul's wrinkled forehead. "His forehead is rich. Think what the hell?" ask Kaila.
Aul snorted, he let out his breath for a moment. "Mumet my mind, branched it," complained Aul, nelangsa.
"Casual, that's why. Life doesn't have to be complicated!" seloroh Kaila's.
"Ah, you mah!"
Kaila sidestepped the empty meatball bowl. "Think what? Doi lo missing? Ghosting it?"
Aul clucked, as Kaila guessed it right on target. "Ah, you know! My mind is full. Think of him plus my mind just explodes."
"Doi seems to have shown signs anyway," muttered Kaila who was busy spinning his drinking straw.
Aul frowned confusedly. "What signs?"
Kaila's facial expression turned serious. He looked at Aul doubtfully. "Lo sure you want to know?"
Even though Aul felt his heart beating fast, he still nodded. In fact, this was the third month since Aul felt something was different from his relationship with Riziq. Aul also knew, it was just that he chose to dodge it.
Because his heart, not yet able to accept the reality.
Kaila cleared her throat briefly, she felt a nervousness enveloping her. He did not want to hurt his best friend, but he also did not want to make his best friend continue to be confused by his own feelings.
"Hm .. doi kayaknya ..," Kaila clucked frequently, his tongue felt really funny to just continue the sentence just now. "Choosing avoid from lo anyway," his great-grandson who further clarified the estrangement of his relationship.
Aul let out a heavy sigh, he was quite disappointed with the reply from Kaila. Because the answer is really about the heart. "Emang yes," he said by pursing his nose.
"Have you asked him face to face? From heart to heart, suppose?"
Aul shook his head slowly. "Boro-boro talking, just a chat we are not. Moreover, you know right, the condition of my phone is again damaged?"
Kaila nodded in agreement, she knew very well that Aul's phone was in trouble. Moreover, he said his phone was at the service counter.
"When is it done, btw?"
Aul flicked his shoulders. "Where do I know."
Kaila is anxious about Aul who seems indifferent, but lately, indirectly Kaila likes to catch Aul who is careless because of Riziq.
Basic love, muttered Kaila quietly. He became even more horrified, if dealing with those complicated feelings. Therefore, secretly, Kaila asked Akmal about this. One of the people Kaila has known since Junior High.
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Akmal Khoiri's
I want it.
#seriouslynya.
What is Neng geulis?😎
Ck, crocodile! I just
tanya, you know where Riziq is?
Oh, doi the Aul? Why is that?
Lots of bacots, stay
say aja!
Wkwkwk, santui, China.
Ask yourself, I don't understand😌
Come on, kesel!
Lo angry?🙄
Know ah, Lizard!
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It turns out that dealing with one species of the opposite sex alone has made him dizzy. Kaila is inexhaustible with Aul who has a friend of the opposite sex who is familiar with him.
"Gue salute Aul whose head really did not explode because of this species," said Kaila while reciting his forehead.
Dealing with Akmal alone has made his head feel dizzy. It turns out men can be scary like that.
•••
Aul holds his phone with a gamang. It's not that he's not grateful for his phone coming back, after two weeks of surgery at the service office. Sometimes, Aul feels like he doesn't want his phone to heal, he's afraid of things that he's been afraid of happening.
Aul breathed his breath. The desire to contact someone is growing and worrying. Aul hesitates, but still performs the actions that Aul feels, coming from his heart.
After looking for contact Riziq call as a person he often contact, suddenly made Aul's heart pain.
He tried to hold back his tears from coming out. Aul anticipates himself while waiting for his call to connect with Riziq.
Until finally, the typical voice of the person Aul was waiting for, was heard as well. Aul felt his heart beating fast. He became dizzy because of the tight beat.
"Why?"
Aul screams. Of the many vocabulary words that the guy knew, only one word could he say?! Aul desperately wants to scratch the contents of the head of a man who often makes his world turn upside down.
Aul took his breath in. "Where are you, El?"
Riziq who heard the hoarse voice of Aul who called him by a beloved nickname, made him a little confused with his own feelings. Riziq pursed his nose. He ruffled his hair for a moment, then exhaled his breath with ruffles.
"Come if you're not comfortable" Riziq said in the end.
Aul silently sighed in disappointment. He twisted the edge of his shirt. Refrain from venting his emotions. This problem must be solved well.
"Where is it? You didn't forget me, did you?" syndicate Aul.
From across the phone, Aul can hear a noise. But he was lazy to ask.
That long silence, really tormented Aul. Even Aul did not need to turn on the AC in his room in order to feel the cold sensation, waiting for Riziq's reply made him tense and uncomfortable at all!
"You didn't forget the same mouth function, did you, Riz?!" his screeches. Raise an octave of his voice.
Aul snorted loudly, Riziq has not responded at all. When their relationship gradually seems to be fine, but it's actually not okay, it really makes Aul confused.
BEEPING!
Outraged, Aul decides to disconnect their phone. It is free if he speaks, if in fact Riziq just silences it. Just let Riziq be confused by his attitude, just blame him for making Aul act like this.
In the past, Aul was very happy to find a different notification sound - from Riziq - that Aul had memorized out of his head. Then another is the present. Aul hugged his pillow tightly. He stared hard at the crowded device by the notifications flooding his social media.
Aul knew that Riziq sent him a spam chat, it was evident from the same sound from several times the sound of the notification that was just plain simple. There was a reluctance that made Aul growl annoyed. Because in addition to not wanting to know Riziq's answer, Aul was also very curious.
"Bodoamat!" Aul chose to budge on his ego. He shuffled, approaching the cell phone that made him curious half to death.
Aul swallowed his saliva with great difficulty. He continued to read some of the spam chat from Riziq carefully, repeating it several times, causing tears to melt instantly. Aul held his breath, also trying to scoop up as much oxygen.
With the rest of the energy that Aul had, he brushed away his tears. Trying to smile grievously at the pretense she already knew. Aul already had a feeling about this, but he tried to deny it.
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Lime (DL)
We break first. Don't apologize, I'm sorry.
We can be legitimate.
Don't be mad, I just don't want to hurt you anymore.
Thank's Hana Aulia 💚
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