2X MARRIED TO A COUSIN
2xmdc. Blaming Yourself

Currently Fauzan is in a park with a vast and green meadow with shady trees. The young man walked down the path. In the distance in another part of the park he saw a family playing there. Father, mother, with both their sons and daughters. Fauzan walked over to the family. They were dressed in white. They play with fun without realizing the arrival of Fauzan near them. Faintly seen from a distance a handsome man dressed in all white also came closer.

"Azhar, enough of a joke. Now it's time for you to come home with me," said the new man.

"Dad, but who's gonna help me take care of these two kids?" the girl's sullet.

The man who came did not reply, only staring at Fauzan.

"Darling, Mas Fauzan has arrived. He will help you take care of our two children. I'm saying yes. Dad's picking me up. It's enough time that you've given me to accompany you" said the man who still held the woman's hand.

The man kissed the woman's forehead for 10 seconds, then slowly removed his hand from the woman. The man moved away toward the man who was picking up.

The woman was crying, but the two men ignored her. Even getting away. Fauzan approaching. He was shocked when he saw the crying woman's face. Two of her children hugged her mother and cried.

"Tania?" call him. However, the so-called did not reply. The woman still cries.

Fauzan is getting confused. Want to embrace the fragile woman to give strength, therapy she is not mahram. Finally the path he chose was to approach the little girl.

"Beautiful, would you like to be with me?" ask Fauzan. The little girl nodded.

Fauzan was holding the little girl who was probably three years old. While a boy may be a year older than the pretty one.

"Tania, let's go home. It looks like it'll be raining soon" Fauzan asked.

Fauzan looked at the surroundings. The weather has changed very quickly. The weather was very clear, but the air was cold. However, it now turned 180 degrees. Tania was still flinching.

"Come, Tania. Mas couldn't hold three people at once," asked Fauzan once again.

Tania's eyes drew toward Fauzan, but she finally moved as well. Tania was holding her son. Then they both walked together like a happy family. Tracing a long road, no matter when it gets there.

In the middle of the journey suddenly the rain came pouring. They hovered under shady trees that they could reach. Suddenly, lightning strikes the tree.

"Aaaa," cried Tania in shock. "Mas, let's find a hut just don't get near a tree!" exclaim Tania panicked.

"That's a shack. Let's run to the hut, but run, yes" Fauzan asked with a smile. "On the count of three, one ..."

"Two."

"Ti -."

Fauzan had not finished his speech, Tania had run first.

"Well, I lost this start, beautiful," complained Fauzan.

"He he ... You can't run, can you?" the little girl's lips.

"Yes, I don't know why you can't run now. Though in the past when the school was a good father sprinting sprint loh," replied Fauzan full of complaining.

"Spirit, Dad! Let's go after Mommy" The little girl cheered. Then pulling the nape of Fauzan gave a kiss as a mood booster on Fauzan's forehead.

Fauzan was now a spirit running towards the hut chasing Tania.

"I'm sorry Dad, Beautiful. You become rained. Surely you are cold," he said," said Fauzan in the middle he was running to make him bored. Suddenly, though ...

"Italy..." Brug!

Fauzan slipped on the slippery road on his back and hugged the beauty.

"Zan, Fauzah! I woke up from earlier. Wake up! It's eight o'clock. You're not going to work?" cerocos the mother woke up her firstborn.

"Mother!" Fauzan was shocked to find himself on the carpet hugging a roll in his room.

The young man got up and put a roll on the bed.

"You're a habit if you're out of bed again. I told you that if the subuhan runs out do not sleep, then your windfall is pegged by chicken, Le," the mother's nagging.

"Ah that's a myth, ma'am. Rejeki, soul mate, born, dead, it's written in the book of Mahfudz, lauhul," Fauzan denied as he poured into the bathroom.

"Zan, Zan. Always so if you are told, there are only those who can deny," muttered Bu Badriyah.

Ms. Badriyah opened the closet and prepared a change of clothes for Fauzan. Fauzan does not wear formal clothes while working, but he always looks neat. He often wears straight pipe jeans or material pants with a blend of hem tops or collar shirts. Bu Badriyah also prepared the underwear for his eldest son.

This time Madam Badriyah prepared a simple dish. Sauteed pakcoy, sambal terasi and dry fried freshwater fern fish such as crackers. Fauzan enthusiastically enjoyed the dish.

"Mom, Ozan left, assalamu'alaikum" he told his mother and did not forget to kiss the back of his hand.

On the way he remembered Tania and related her to his dream.

"Is Tania pregnant again? The baby only wants four months. It's a pity that the woman is pregnant again. But the dream was real. Tania's father seemed to have high hopes for me to become Tania and her two children. I don't know," Fauzan talked to himself about the dream he had.

"But the dream I experienced while sleeping after the dawn prayer. Dad used to say that a dream containing a premonition was a dream just before waking up for dawn prayers" Fauzan murmured again.

When he reached the store and sat down in his chair, Fauzan read a message from Tania on the green app.

[Assalamu'alaikum, Mas Fauzan. Later that night at home there is a do'a event with the 100th anniversary of the death of my late husband M. Azhar Firdaus ibn Burhanudin. If Mas Fauzan has free time, it comes. (emoticons cupped both hands)] Tania.

Fauzan immediately replied.

[God willing Mas a lot of free time, hopefully there are no obstacles to come. (emoticons smile)]

Fauzan then contacted Amar to invite him to come to accompany him to the event so that he had friends to chat. If he came alone he was afraid there was no one he knew.

While on campus, Tania also distributed invitations to lecturers who knew papa Ardi.

"Fauzan was invited too, Tan?" amar asked as he read the invitation given by Tania in the lecturer room.

"Yes, sir with a special invitation, chat Wa," Kekeh Tania.

"Legal dikas also donk, Tan. Let it be strong if he's invited" proposed Amar.

"Okay, Tania tipped the same Mr. Amar yes," replied Tania.

He then opened his backpack, took out a piece of invitation paper and gave it to ustadz Amar.

"You wrote his name all donk, Tan," pinta Amar when he wanted to receive the paper given by Tania not so because it has not been written the name of the recipient.

"I don't know whose full name is, sir," Tania said.

"Just write M. Fauzan Mubarak," Ustadz Amar spelled his best friend's name. Tania wrote the name on the paper.

"Thank you, Mr. Amar," he said, handing back the invitation to Ustadz Amar.

"Return the love, Tania," replied Tania.

Tania came out of the lecturer room and headed back to the classroom. He told Nadia that he would come home early. Arriving at home he found his mother was making a video call with her brothers in Batang.

"The goddess of the family did not go there, Kang. We hold our own do'a event in Jakarta later tonight" Dewi told the Burhan jury.

"Tania's not here either, Wi?" ask Nurlita.

"The next month to there when reading the will he said," said Dewi. "Also pity Attar if you have to go back and forth there. Tania will have to go to college not continue to leave" he continued.

"It's okay, Wi. The important thing is that we don't break up giving Azhar a do'a-do'a" Burhan said.

"Yes, Kang. May his grave be laid and his sins forgiven. Oh yeah, that's Tania's home. Tan here loves to talk to Papa Edos' mother," said Dewi invited Tania closer.

Tania approached, not yet approaching Tania cheek therapy was already soaked in tears. "Tania couldn't do it, Ma" he said as he ran to his room.

"I'm sorry Tania, Pa, Ma. Because of Tania, you lost your favorite child" Tania went into the room.

Tania threw her bag onto the sofa, then she sat down on the sofa and cried bitterly.

"Darling," called the Goddess who had apparently caught up with her eldest daughter into the room. "Don't beat yourself up" he asked.

"They must be Tania's bad, right, Ma?" sergeant Tania. "By marriage with Tania Edos so accident, his legs paralyzed and leakage of fluid in the brain. Try him first so go to Japan followed by Bizar, surely the accident will not happen and now surely Edos is still healthy," he wrote.

"Istighfar, Son. Death is the power of God. No matter how healthy a human being is destined to die, he cannot fight it. The death of Edos was already his will, not because of anyone who caused it. Neither was she killed, "Dewi also broke into Tania's tears, trying to straighten out her daughter's self-blame argument.

"The Edos died from a fluid leak that occurred as a result of an accident at that time, Ma and it happened when he married Tania and fled to this city. Her death was God's fate, but the cause of her death was still Tania's part in it," Tania still blamed herself.

"Whatever you are, baby. However, can this regret of yours cause Edos to come back to life? Don't you? Now Mana just asks you no longer need to blame yourself again. Later that night a joint do'a event was held. Mama asked you not to fall like this again," said Dewi.